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Sometime I wonder why I was scared to touch you. On that stage if yours. Was it you? Or us? When I did manage to steal a touch. To feel. the moment was fictional, an unreal imagine. Letting go allowed reality but at what cost. It was never fictional after

Chuck knows some kids are more shy than others! But he's so proud of you for conquering your fears!

darkmoonray

( ˘ ³˘)✿‧₊˚⊹⋆♡ the serial smoocher

missstrogen

The (slightly less) broke tgirl's guide to HRT

Other guides: Breast forms

(This is less of a "broke tgirl" guide because you can't really get hrt without money but i'm keeping the naming convention)

We'll be covering two things in this post: How to get started on injections, and an alternative if you can't do needles.

Injections are generally considered the first avenue to (DIY) HRT.

Depending on your situation, it can be easier or cheaper to go a more legal route. In that case, it will be highly dependant on country, so search country specific information.

Estrogen monotherapy is commonly undersood as using solely estrogen (no blockers, but potentially progesterone) for your hrt. The E then lowers your T levels on its own. It's easier, but only really works if you're on injections, or on transdermal (patches, gel, spray) hrt.

The cost of DIY injection

Monetarily, a vial of estrogen will cost you between 40-80$, and lasts somewhere between a year and a year and a half. Supplies for the injection (needles, syringes, swabs), should usually run you to about 50$ for 2 years. (These are US prices, and may vary in other regions, but should usually not change much)

The cost in time will be up to a day every year for ordering the vial and supplies (if you get used to it, much less), and the cost in time of doing an injection will be up to 30 minutes, usually about five minutes, usually once a week.

How to:

This is just an overview. For a more in depth guide, if you're doing anything more than considering diy, PLEASE, refer to diyhrt.info

The usual proposed method is to inject about 4mg of estradiol in intramuscular or subcutaneous. Subcutaneous can mean smaller needles, and be easier for some. The rough process is:

grab supplies

sanitize vial and leg

draw air into needle

enter needle into vial

expel air

draw estrogen

extract needle

inject

remove needle

sanitize leg and vial again

It's far from impossible, and if needles are possible from you, it's a very good option. I usually recommend enanthate, as it has a somewhat easy to follow schedule (weekly), and is relatively easy to access.

The only known significant interaction of estrogen is with tobacco/nicotine wherein it may dilute some effects (but hrt is still possible then!)

The alternative

Some girls can't do needles. DIY estrogel is an alternative for them.

A good source: Hrt Mom.

Once again, if you're doing anything more than considering it, check the sources. This is just an overview.

Estrogen is applied on the skin, and left to dry, usually 2 to 3 times a day. My personal recommendation is applying it on the inner thigh (as it generally has a better absorption, and rubbing one thigh against the other to apply the gel, then leaving it to dry. Drying usually takes up to 15 minutes.

Estrogen gel can be bought (see the link in the injection section for a few options), but often at a high cost. Depending on source, it will cost you between 100 and 500$ a year.

Making estrogel is relatively easy, thankfully. All that you will need is some hand sanitizer (easy to source, and estradiol powder (quite cheap). Finding a source for that powder may be harder, but you can find it at Dragonordnance, a relatively trustworthy source, or, from recommendations, Purple panda lab. Gel generally doesn't last very long, so you'll have to make it relatively often.

You can find topical spray, sublingual oil, pills, or gel on some stores (diyhrt.market)

Go forth and feminize yourselves!

Footnote: Buying diy hrt means often needing to pay in cryptocurrency. You can learn how here.

Remember: adjust your dose based on how it feels, and the effects you feel, not on hitting or missing some target.

Footnote 2: You can find a more advanced guide to making your diy here.

#trans

ffxivcryptids

vaps-junk-yard

“Mama…This is what you wanted, right ?

This is my promise I made to you.”

#inspo

jyosubii

I'm at my lowest point rn

[rendered sketch]

#designs

zlo-sovs-lifeboat

I gotta remember how to model, and animate, and uv unwrap, and rig, and texture, and have gay sex, and

emily-e-draws

a tasty hoard for a tiny beast!🍓🐉✨

missallanious

Merrrrrrrr-lyne

monsterism

Jakub Różalski (jakubrozalski.tumblr.com).

sapropel

Apolitically killing bandits and savages in my video game with no messages

diet-poison

asked the skyrim bandits why they were living in a cave and they explained the war effort has buried the economy so they can't find work and lost their homes. I use my shout to blast them across the cave and find a preeeetty nice sword among their belongings

orthusisintheforest

Hi this reminds me of the skyrim quest I always think about constantly.

It happens during the whole vampire questline. It's not related to vampires. I may misremember details so forgive me for that. But you have to go through old dwemer ruins and you meet the last living snow elf in Skyrim. You know, the snow elves. Who were enslaved by the dwemer and went blind and feral and still live in the ruins long after the dwemer are gone. The falmer is what they're called now. Here's the last one who's in their original form.

And oh hey, to get to where you need to go you have to take a path that's an old snow elf coming of age rite of passage. And he's going to take you through it and you're going to learn about this dead culture, this culture that was killed.

And now you've got what you came for and there's one way out. Now that you've learned what the falmer used to be, where they came from, what was lost because of the dwemer enslaving them, you have to go through a falmer village.

It's a narrow canyon lined with huts. There's no way to avoid it, in order to get through you have to kill them. They attack you because that's what they do to people invading their territory. You're invading their village. You have to kill them or they'll kill you. It's the only way out. You feel terrible.

If you stop to loot one of the huts on your way out you'll find a book full of unreadable text. Take it to the winterhold college and give it to the librarian and he'll tell you that it's a remarkable find because it's evidence that falmer have retained intelligence. They're not just mindless feral monsters. They have this book, they've kept this book even though they can't see. They have a culture. Maybe they still remember what happened to them. Maybe that's why they're so mad.

You just killed so many of them. You're going to have to kill many more.

Anyway.

Video game with no messages.

grecoromanyaoi

george forgets which neopronouns his partner uses. elaine starts dating a guy with her birthname, and discovers his birthname is elaine. jerry takes newman’s comment that he isnt “really” butch because he uses bath salts to heart. an ominous horoscope drives kramer to audition for rupaul’s drag race.

3dmonstermaze

JERRY: Well, maybe it’s any pronouns.

GEORGE: No, Jerry, it’s not any pronouns! I’d know if it was any pronouns! If they used any pronouns, I would’ve defaulted to “she” by now!

JERRY: Yeah, you would have, wouldn’t you.

(LAUGH TRACK)

GEORGE: Look, Jerry, please, you gotta help me. They’re gonna be here in less than ten minutes, just ask them while I’m in the room. Ten seconds, over and done with. Please.

JERRY: You want me to ask for pronouns?

GEORGE: (FALLS UPON KNEES) JERRY I’M BEGGIN’ YOU!

JERRY: …Tell me I look butch.

GEORGE: WHAT?

3dmonstermaze

JERRY: You heard me. Tell me. I look. Butch.

GEORGE: Jerry, I - I can’t -

JERRY: See, you hesitated! What is it? Is it the shirt, the hair -

GEORGE: Jerry please, we don’t have time for this! JERRY: Ten seconds to ask your new partner what their pronouns are, and you can’t spare any time to tell me what about me passes as femme? GEORGE: …The deodorant is a bit much, I mean, peach-scented deodorant -

JERRY: I KNEW it!

(KRAMER enters through the front door, dressed in nothing but a bra, flesh-colored leggings and a long, blonde wig) KRAMER: Do either of you have any spirit gum? It’s kind of an emergency!

3dmonstermaze

KRAMER: You know I hate to intrude, but uh, what kind of pronouns would you mind me using for you?

(Both JERRY and GEORGE turn discreetly to listen) BRICK: Oh, thank you for asking! Any pronouns are fine!

GEORGE: AAAGH!

(GEORGE stumbles to the floor.)

lil-peebo

ELAINE: So they broke up with you, huh?

GEORGE: She didn’t buy my story about fleeing a sudden fire.

JERRY: You’ve got to stop defaulting to she/her.

GEORGE: ANY PRONOUNS, JERRY! She/her is a perfectly valid pronoun! I could’ve had a she/her, a they/them, a xe/xir, Jerry I could’ve had it all.

ELAINE: Still, she/her for Brick? I wouldn’t have guessed, I mean, they were more butch than Jerry.

(JERRY drops his spoon in his diner soup. George and Elaine are unphased. Laugh track.)

GEORGE: So, your relationship is going SO great, huh? With Mr. Deadname?

ELAINE: Yeah, well, I’m probably gonna cut things off. I mean, I got rid of that name for a reason, yknow? Too much baggage.

JERRY: You’re jealous he was born an Elaine?

ELAINE: Look, I don’t see what’s so bad about being an Elaine! I mean, look at me, am I not the picture perfect Elaine? I was born to be Elaine. My parents didn’t know what they were THINKING not naming me Elaine, but does he care? No. Just tosses Elaine aside like an old sandwich.

GEORGE: An old sandwich?

ELAINE: Yeah, you’d toss that out, right?

GEORGE: How old?

ELAINE: I don’t know, a week?

(GEORGE sits in quiet thought)

JERRY: Maybe he’s thinking the same thing about you.

ELAINE: What do you mean?

JERRY: Well, maybe he’s been wracking his brain trying to figure out why you’d throw away a name as perfect as…

(ELAINE glares at JERRY)

JERRY: …You know.

ELAINE: No. There’s no way. With a name like that he’s lucky anyone is even interested.

GEORGE: They have a point-

ELAINE: Default back to she/her.

GEORGE: She has a point, Jerry. Not only can I not imagine Elaine’s parents picking a name like that, I can’t imagine being an adult and choosing that name. It wouldn’t be anybody’s deadname, it shouldn’t be anybody’s name. It’s just one prolonged mistake.

ELAINE: Better name than George.

(LAUGH TRACK)

JERRY: Maybe it’s the opposite.

ELAINE: What do you mean?

JERRY: Well, maybe he picked you up because he misses having Elaine in his life.

GEORGE: You don’t think he’s…?

JERRY: No, just likes the name. Maybe he realized he’s got some attachment to the name, but he doesn’t want it for himself.

ELAINE: …I could live with that.

(LAUGH TRACK, KRAMER enters in a torn green sequin dress, wig cap, smeared make up, and holding a blonde beehive wig under one arm.)

JERRY: How long did you last?

KRAMER: I didn’t even make it on. I got into a fight with Katya Zamolodchikova.

GEORGE: Over what?