I get bored and make weird stuff @daeth - Tumblr Blog

I wrote this in November and debated posting it till today. I had a good friend read it and realized it was worth something. The first line is from a Twenty One Pilots song, it started as a poetry slam sort of thing and then turned into what it is now.

I wait on my crime I wait on my punishment I wait Inside my mind The world stops Time forgets its hold on me And I think I think of what it means What I have done I think of why I did it I think Was it worth it? I can answer that for you And it’s no every time But I still choose to rebel I know what will come I know who it hurts And in the end I do it I’m not good Don’t ever mistake my faking for that I’m not who you think I am See I have destroyed far more I have killed far more Than my mask will tell you Underneath the lies I hide behind my eyes I decide what lives and what dies And I thought that taking life Would make me feel alive But I I have taken my own life I’m not alive Desperately trying to hide what’s inside The decaying remains of a beautiful child Killed by the world Killed by my hand My hand My hand that I have to lift up My hand that I have to reach for the sun Why didn’t we come with instructions? I should have known better but I didn’t I did it anyway My life is gone And now I’m too scared to raise these blood stained hands up Because I don’t deserve it I’ve ruined all my purpose I get down on my knees Crying When a wave of grace drowns me I scream I have killed the sun Yet still it shines on me His blood is on my hands But everyday he greets me I killed the sun But he couldn’t stay dead He rose again Just like every morning And here you find me Too overwhelmed to move Lying on the floor Screaming How do you not hate me?

I am the creation of my desires Because I can never say no

-Amanda M.

indiedrone

but mom how will other people know that you, a white Texan, are a Christian

fullblownpanic-deactivated20141

same

paroxetini

Jesus

ahs-delrey

I bet those two are couple now..

fullblownpanic-deactivated20141

I’m gay

indiedrone

me too

kateordie

This is such a great story

Gotta study for finals

#Finals #Netflix #Yay

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abbietheowl-deactivated20170822

God can’t hear you, They won’t fight you Watch them build a friend just like you

Honestly one of the best outfits and just. AHHHH

stellab1738

PLEASE SPREAD THIS LIKE WILDFIRE!!!! Maggie has multiple medical issues that prevent her from going to concerts. It is her dream to meet josh and Tyler when they come to Minnesota.

spektordetektor

this doesnt have enough notes come on guys

brainbubblegum

acutelesbian

A lot of people ask me what my biggest fear is, or what scares me most. And I know they expect an answer like heights, or closed spaces, or people dressed like animals, but how do I tell them that when I was 17 I took a class called Relationships For Life and I learned that most people fall out of love for the same reasons they fell in it. That their lover’s once endearing stubbornness has now become refusal to compromise and their one track mind is now immaturity and their bad habits that you once adored is now money down the drain. Their spontaneity becomes reckless and irresponsible and their feet up on your dash is no longer sexy, just another distraction in your busy life. Nothing saddens and scares me like the thought that I can become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in my eyes.

fat-thin-skinny

this fucks me up every single time

acutelesbian

I never expected this to be my most popular poem out of the hundreds I’ve written. I was extremely bitter and sad when I wrote this and I left out the most beautiful part of that class.

After my teacher introduced us to this theory, she asked us, “is love a feeling? Or is it a choice?” We were all a bunch of teenagers. Naturally we said it was a feeling. She said that if we clung to that belief, we’d never have a lasting relationship of any sort.

She made us interview a dozen adults who were or had been married and we asked them about their marriages and why it lasted or why it failed. At the end, I asked every single person if love was an emotion or a choice.

Everybody said that it was a choice. It was a conscious commitment. It was something you choose to make work every day with a person who has chosen the same thing. They all said that at one point in their marriage, the “feeling of love” had vanished or faded and they weren’t happy. They said feelings are always changing and you cannot build something that will last on such a shaky foundation.

The married ones said that when things were bad, they chose to open the communication, chose to identify what broke and how to fix it, and chose to recreate something worth falling in love with.

The divorced ones said they chose to walk away.

Ever since that class, since that project, I never looked at relationships the same way. I understood why arranged marriages were successful. I discovered the difference in feelings and commitments. I’ve never gone for the person who makes my heart flutter or my head spin. I’ve chosen the people who were committed to choosing me, dedicated to finding something to adore even on the ugliest days.

I no longer fear the day someone who swore I was their universe can no longer see the stars in my eyes as long as they still choose to look until they find them again.

conceitedtrash

This is so fucking important and I think it’s something I needed right now

alexander

This is one of the best uses of the internet I have ever seen

theadultswimpage

evanedinger

Whenever I open the fridge

justbrosthings

teamwork at its finest

@daeth

MATH JOKES! YES!

Haha!

halsey // control

plantmanstevens

you've heard of guitar hero now get ready for

ukulele villain

sk8ordiedude-ueithersk8-deac

blurryface came out like 3 months ago

vygandonut

for some reason there’s a meme playlist on 8tracks and i was just doing my thing and letting 8tracks go off on it’s own and i somehow ended up listening to the meme playlist and i didn’t even know i was listening to it until uptown funk came on and i just heard waluigi’s continuous WAH and i was like “that’s not bruno mars”

eburneansky

there isn’t just one, i looked and there’s almost 700

vygandonut

one day we will all pay for our sins

godlessheathenhippie

diablosita-blog

The Best Birth Control In The World Is For Men by Jon Clinkenbeard

If I were going to describe the perfect contraceptive, it would go something like this: no babies, no latex, no daily pill to remember, no hormones to interfere with mood or sex drive, no negative health effects whatsoever, and 100 percent effectiveness. The funny thing is, something like that currently exists.

The procedure called RISUG in India (reversible inhibition of sperm under guidance) takes about 15 minutes with a doctor, is effective after about three days, and lasts for 10 or more years…

Oh, and when you do decide you want those babies, it only takes one other injection of water and baking soda to flush out the gel, and within two to three months, you’ve got all your healthy sperm again.

The trouble is, most people don’t even know this exists. And if men only need one super-cheap shot every 10 years or more, that’s not something that gets big pharmaceutical companies all fired up, because they’ll make zero money on it (even if it might have the side benefit of, you know, destroying HIV).