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so um, I guess I´m moving my cosplay stuff over here from insta, since the algorithm (and inactivity during lockdown) pretty much killed me

(also I feel like ppl from fandoms will more likely find me here than on insta or twr, so…)

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I´ll repost/reupload some older stuff first before I start making/posting new content again so please bear w/ me 🥺

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The Similarities between the witchers and transgender people

So— I made this "list" but it's purely self-indulgent as my attempt to cope with myself so please don't scream if some points do/don't apply to you — but don't hesitate to add some of yours if you think of something and wanna share!

Anyway, here we go:

First of all: the mutations. I feel like this one may need some further explaining so let me elaborate: Literally every person "mutate" a little bit in their life during puberty, but in the case of trans people, I don't really wanna talk about that and what happens to your body when you start HRT (I'll get back to that later, tho). Right now, I'm thinking more about the mutations that "make" you be trans. (Disclaimer: I'm not sure if this also applies to AMAB trans folks (but I'd say yes?), since my doctor only explained "my case" to my parents when I brought them over for The Talk™ and she used me as an example and I'm AFAB transmasc). Anyways, as I've my parents have been told by my gender therapist, there's a rare mutation that occurs on one of the unborn baby's chromosomes during the first trimester of pregnancy that causes may be the cause why the baby is born into the wrong body, with "male brain" but female body. (If I remember correctly, nobody knows for sure yet if that's The Cause™ of transgenderism but they're kinda sure it's somehow connected. Or I just may be completely off and wrong because I know jack shit about this and I'm just trying to interpret what I remember from the therapist's talk 🤷‍♂️) BUT! you could say my genes actually mutated some extra bit to make me who I am. Now, witchers are mutated after birth when they're kids/teens, true, so it's not exactly so similar even tho they've also mutated an extra bit. Also yes, witchers' mutations are intentional while trans folks' "mutations" in this case are accidental, but the witchers didn't really choose to be mutated and become witchers and I also didn't choose to be mutated and thus be "born wrong" so this counts.

Witchers are sterile. So am I (so will be I, more like - it's not done yet, but it'll be done, soon), so must be all trans people in the country where I live in order to be officially recognised and allowed to change their name and have access to HRT and GRS. Yes, you're reading that right - sterilisation of transgender people is still mandatory in this godforsaken republic. We're still fighting for a change of this "law" that says that trans person must be sterile in order to change their gender and be legally recognised as such. (quick note: I personally would actually still choose it even if it wasn't mandatory. Because of multiple reasons.) But there's a lot of people who don't have to feel the same and thus, I still want it to be a choice for everyone to make on their own, not a fucking necessity.

Battle scars. Yeah, we're survivors.

Witchers and trans people are both being hated and often feared (and in both cases —or at the very least in the case of trans ppl— it's for no fucking reason and I just hate it.)

Prejudice.

Rumours. Stupid untrue harmful rumours.

Hostility & hate crimes.

Just like witchers in their world, transgender people are (sadly) still seen as something "unnatural".

Witchers are often seen/referred to as something that was "made" or created (artificially). I always interpreted it in a way that there was a lot of work done on their bodies -on them- so they could do their work and be good at it and possibly not die and/or be killed easily. I feel like this also applies to trans people - there's so much work, so many changes done on our bodies (if we choose to transition) in order for us to pass, live and survive (I hate how often this applies literally.)

Up next: the witchers' potions. Witchers take those to enhance their bodies and senses and capabilities some more to help them during the fights. The potions give them a little bit of extra help they still may need even with all their mutations and witcher training - they mutate their bodies some more. And doesn't that sound just a little, teeny weeny bit familiar? It kinda does, right? So you could say the witchers' potions have some similarities to, say, HRT, right?? I mean, both the potions and HRT "enhance" the body and change it to be a little bit more "useful" at not dying; it "helps" the body to be a little bit more "useful", really. But the effects of both the potions and HRT also wear out after a while so you need to take it before every hunt regularly. True, HRT is more about the appearance and (wanted) physical changes while the potions are more about the capabilities and senses and physical changes are usually just byproducts/side effects. And true, witchers won't reverse their mutations if they don't take the potions for a longer period of time and yes, they can also choose from multiple potions and take only those they currently need at the specific moment, but hey, we can't have everything ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (not saying that wouldn't be fucking awesome, tho). Also! witchers' potions are deadly for "normal" regular humans. HRT isn't really poisonous to "normal" cisgender people, but I'm pretty sure they really wouldn't want to take it since it would change their bodies in a way they most like wouldn't want to & will probably give them body dysphoria.

Lastly, The Witcher is loosely based on Polish (and overall Slavic) mythology, sceneries and settings in general - and I'm Slav (even tho I'm not from Poland) and I grew up in a small village surrounded by fields and forests so similar to the ones shown and described, so like, it's really hitting home for me. (this one has literally nothing to do with the list of similarities, I just really wanted to say that)

so uh, that would be it?

Again, I'm doing this for myself as a way of coping with myself. I'm not trying to enforce this on anyone. Relate if you want or don't, it's solely up to you, everyone is different. Being disrespectful was never my intention.

(all I'm saying is that I'm basically a witcher, ok??)

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We always were

And we will always be

#slavic #slovak #czech #folklore #lgbtq #mlm #wlw #čumblr #🥺

a question for trans men and trans masculine people on HRT:

after starting T, how long did it take for your voice to change/get lower and finally stay like that? /s

Because I've been on HRT for about a year now and my voice did get a little lower yes, but it still sounds like shit and it's giving me an intense dysphoria because I'm being misgendered mainly because of my voice and I'm just worried that it's gonna stay like this...

any opinions?

#trans #trans man #transmasc #voice dysphoria #trans male

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and this is how it ends...

not with a B A N G, but a whimper,

and ringing of cruel, cruel

L A U G H T E R .

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two versions because back then I just learned how to edit text in paint.net for bloody Windows XP

fun fact: if the coronavirus didn´t fuck everything up I would have had a cosplay collab with an AMAZING Joker cosplayer that I absolutely admire and who himself reached to me after seeing these on my insta. BUT NO.

blank wall version under the cut >>

#jason todd #robin jason todd #dc comics #my cosplay #jason todd cosplay #batman #joker #robin #robin cosplay #dc cosplay #red hood #we´ll get there eventually #welcome to our basement #tw// blood #fake blood #my mother took these...#I made this #cosplay

Children of the Dark

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part 2 of this set

photo by Akemi´s Photos (ig: lost.shadow.photo) — please don´t remove the photographer credits

there´s like 50ft fall behind the railing that I´m currently dancing on

#I have no idea what my what my face is doing most of the time #I was nervous there were people #urban #dark #aesthetic #vampire #ish #modern vampire #mine #alternative #dark city #March 2020 Prague

The Dark City

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photo by Akemi´s Photos (ig: lost.shadow.photo) --- please don´t remove the photographer credits

This was in March 2020 right before the pandemic. I felt confident enough to wear a see-thru shirt in public but not confident enough to wear only one of those, hence the second fish-netted one because I still had some deep rooted body image issues back then. I got better.