I love how being obsessed with livestreamed Minecraft role play for a period of my life has granted me access to seemingly endless interpersonal dramas I can tap into at 7 in the morning. Ex-girlfriend at the function pov
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I love how being obsessed with livestreamed Minecraft role play for a period of my life has granted me access to seemingly endless interpersonal dramas I can tap into at 7 in the morning. Ex-girlfriend at the function pov
yes I'll play genshin again for snezhnaya as a ruslit nerd but honestly after this I'll forever be annoyed by "alyosha? like the genshin character?" AW FUH NAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Highly incomplete Alyosha ratings 🔥
You know the hyperfixation goes crazy when you have to make an infographic explaining it.
Also there is so much good art of angels out there to make studies of. Thousands of years of it, from all kinds of art movements and regions.
The first drawing of Michael is based off of the Oneto family monument statue by Giulo Monteverte. The statue is sooo beautiful...
Rakitin rot bcs I kinda miss drawing him
Just finished the part with Mitya getting questioned and arrested and I think it's due time I express my adoration for the one and only... Grushenyka! Genuenly, I love her so much 🥺 Like, how only one simple act of genuen kindness brought out the best of her, how bitter and resentful she was about her past but also how ashamed and later even guilty of herself and how she even took the blame along Mitya... 😭😭😭 I want to give her a hug and tell her she's the best so bad 😭 And she's genuenly so sweet and good and loyal and aghhhhakksksksk I also think it's quite neat how both she and Mitya suffer from shame and guilt but found genuen love in each other hajsjs love her, she's best girl 🥺
And pav i guess (i still dk how to draw him)
Bang-bang Pavel's silver hammer
Came down upon his head....
(i love the fact that John is english version of the name Ivan and Paul - Pavel)
Commission art for Brothers Karamazov
Tarot-inspired, the Moon (Ivan) and the Sun (Alyosha). I ship 23, and these two drawings are paired.
The works are commisoned, I'm not the original author!!!
Still going trough Tbk aaaaaand Ivan's got a? devil the? devil in his head... 😭😭😭 I did have a very surreal expirience reading that chapter and... Idk, it's one of those things you really feel it was very... crazy? Eery? Uncomfortable to witness? All those at once I suppose and more. Idk, I'm kinda speechless, especially his fit with Alyosha at the end... It was just so alaoodisijqjwjw Dostoevsky I WILL burn your grave, I swear 😭 Like I have so many feels Idk what to say, but I do want to say that part explaining the "everything is allowed" did remind me very much of Kirilov (the whole god-human thing). Very much, especially funny considering that book is called Demons. Like, this chapter was so insane and jaksksksk Idk I can't right now. On the + side tho, I, in all honesty, cared for Ivan the least out of the bros before this, but after this whole Brother Ivan (also yea, why tf is he constantly referred to as brother Ivan? What is Mitya? A neighbour?) chapter thingy I understand why he's the favourite for so many, shit, he might become MY favourite bc of this
The Brothers Make Friends
demons (2014) redraws
Reading is HARRD. Like actually much harder than writing especially when you've been out of practice of reading for pleasure.
I finished chapter 3 of a 100+ chapter book 😩😩 (I don't know how many chapters are in this book, I know it's in parts)
Anywho this chapter was interesting... Prince meets the husband of his estranged relation, the general. Actually before that he meets his... assistant? Of sorts...Ganya. Ganya reluctantly introduces prince to the general who immediately thinks "this guy wants something..." Which....valid, being the omniscient veiwer it feels like prince is very cleverly manipulating the situation into his favor. He seems to play on the "invalid" thing hard. Ultimately, through modern eyes, it seems like the only thing prince suffers from is...I don't even know actually...
Anywho prince's insistence on not needing or wanting anything from the general was enough to get the general to get him a job AND a place to stay. I wish I was this charming😂😂😂
The diatribe between Ganya and the general about nastavaya (sp?) Was incredibly funny to me; if I understood the story correctly it seems like Ganya had a thing for her and she had a thing for him and another guy. It sounds like Ganya found out -insert the "it was never gonna be you" meme- and was finna crash out about it. Prince autistically showing off his penmanship and saying oh she did that to a guy I know named Rogozshin (sp?) kind of made it funnier.
Sidenote: them having that full conversation while prince is 10ft away is nuts but I get it. Dostoevsky's choice to include basically the full conversation is interesting hopefully with payoff.
And speaking of payoff, is Prince's letter/business (that he tried 4 times to tell him about) the Chekhov's Gun of the book, or at least of part one of the novel?
"No one would have said that he was ugly, and yet no one would have liked his face."
Ivan Karamazov has been my favourite character from TBK all through the book and I feel I must explain why. I'll be impressed if anyone actually reads this tragic essay. That is how I see him:
He's a complex portrayal of a man tortured by his own genius, one who seems to be ashamed of his own mind and yet covers it up with what seems like unyielding certainty and pride. But as we can clearly see he is led by strong emotions most of the time and is capable of impulsive acts, especially when he is in a moment of passion or anger (ex.during his conversation with Alyosha in the tavern). It almost seems as if he forcefully tries to put his brain above his heart, but is unable to, which creates an odd balance between the two. His beliefs exist solely because of how deeply he cares — his anger at God is caused by his rage at human, especially children's, suffering. The logic behind it is quite simple, if a God who is portrayed by the church as pure good allows cruel things to happen to innocent souls, He either does not exist or isn't worth praying to. Although this vision of God might seem egoistical — for humans to possess free will and yet blame God for all the cruelty in the world — it is a reasonable conclusion, one that someone desperate for an answer and of his intellect would come to. He believes that when Christ refused to offer humanity "happiness and safety" and therefore making the whole humanity "bow down to him", the church, Inquisitor, stepped in to offer said things, since "humanity will always feel the need to bow down to someone" who "provides the bread" (heavily paraphrasing). His beliefs are obviously not praised in the book, seen as more or less of some sort of a 'Western trend' that has possessed Russian intellectuals (which is influenced by Dostoevsky's personal attitude towards faith) but they are not villianized either, since he is given a 'human side' unlike, for example, Smerdyakov (due to the fact that Dostoevsky most likely spread his own personality pieces between all the characters, seemingly excluding Smerdyakov). Perhaps it is because he is open to an concept of God, not a purely good one, but still a God. The frist thought of his we encounter, "if there is no God everything is permitted", doesn't seem to be a ideal of his, since we clearly see that not only he, again, doesn't deny that there is a God in his further words and works, but also doesn't possess the lack of morality this line would imply, since he doesn't excuse Smerdyakov's actions with it (although it could come from his personal complicated 'hatred' for the man) nor he excuses the things people do to children, when he brings the topic up to Alyosha.
When it comes to his feelings towards other characters, the only ones that seem clear to me are his feelings towards Katya and Alyosha. He clearly deeply loves both and desires to be loved back by them, although in different ways, one being love in the romantic sense and the other being in the platonic sense. He desires to be understood by each of them, although he only directly expresses it to Alyosha in the book. When it comes to his relationship with his father we can only assume he had an internalized hatred for him, which is both shown in his approach to him and his certainty in being trailed alongside Smerdyakov after he confessed his crime to him — obviously, it was due to Smerdyakov's manipulation, but would a man of his intellect truly believe he wanted his father dead, if he didn't? Sickness might've taken a toll on him, but I'd say the desire for the death of their father is present in every Karamazov sonz excluding Alyosha. His relationship with Mitya doesn't seem as deep as his bond with Alyosha, perhaps due to growing up apart or quite large difference in personality and I'd risk saying that the escape plan he has prepared for Mitya comes from his underlying need to take responsibility over the situation, not brotherly love. His relationship with Smerdyakov is an even more complicated one — on one hand, we cannot deny the mutual hatred between them, on the other hand we cannot say it is only what Ivan feels towards him. He seems to be drawn towards Smerdyakov and despite his best efforts he always ends up being less harsh than he would like. Due to his general attitude, it's almost impossible to tell if it's a strange affection, an underlying sense of kinship or he's simply pleased that the latter admires him and his ideals — all of those possible aspects may be tangled with each other and looping back to his pride.
T.B.C? I don't know if I'll feel motivated enough to continue....