Selenophile

she's a poem you'll never understand

[dangerousselene]

Life has been well. I’m still alive, thank God. The pandemic is still fucking everyone’s lives. A lot have lost opportunities of having a better life. I finished college, thankfully. Working as a technical support representative for months, and I don’t know until when. A lot happened this year. I disposed the trash i used to right about. Found a man and we’ve been dating for 5 months. Everything’s fine. I’m happy and contented with what we have right now. We both have a career to focus on. I just hope that everything will be as good as what we have right now. 

[dangerousselene]

He fucked up after 2 years. We are still together, but the trauma and pain, I don't know if I could ever forget it.

[dangerousselene]

Life has been well. I’m still alive, thank God. The pandemic is still fucking everyone’s lives. A lot have lost opportunities of having a better life. I finished college, thankfully. Working as a technical support representative for months, and I don’t know until when. A lot happened this year. I disposed the trash i used to right about. Found a man and we’ve been dating for 5 months. Everything’s fine. I’m happy and contented with what we have right now. We both have a career to focus on. I just hope that everything will be as good as what we have right now. 

[dangerousselene]

It has been a long time since I opened my Tumblr. Seeing the posts I did for the past years made me laugh. I was so dramatic and funny. Writing for men-trash. Good things I was done with them. Congrats self, you disposed a trash, well done. I hope you learned your lessons well.

[dangerousselene]

I hope you will find someone who will constantly give time for you. I hope you will find someone who will consistently love you, no matter how hard the situation is. I hope you will find someone who will make you feel that you are more than enough and you are amazing.

[dangerousselene]

You deserve to someone's everything.

[dangerousselene]

I want to cry my heart out.

[tackled]

[dangerousselene]

We were solid as rock, what happened?

[dangerousselene]

Why?

Why do i have to remind you the things that you should in our relationship? Why do I have to feel the unbearable pain before you realize that I have done enough? Why do you have to change?

[dangerousselene]

You were choked  by my greediness, my greediness of wanting you, loving you and holding unto you. Did I ask too much? Are they too much to ask? If the only thing i have wanted was your love, attention, and time. 

[dangerousselene]

Sad people often write, not for empathy  nor sympathy but to let out every pain all of you, refused to see.

[dangerousselene]

You will know how i feel in every lines.

[dangerousselene]

You are still my muse, but why is it that everything i write makes everyone sad?

[dangerousselene]

I love you, but i am not as happy as i was before.

[dangerousselene]

i needed a savior, you were there, but you did not even try to save me.

[dangerousselene]

As i looked at the picture, i saw myself staring at you. My eyes were dreamy. I wondered when I had stopped looking at you like that.

(Photo not mine)

[adrenaline]

[dangerousselene]

will you miss me when i’m gone?

[dangerousselene]

would rather be fucked by someone than fucked by life, life fucks harder and painful baby girl.