i think its really kind of tragic that recent transgirl culture is clinging to kinks like dogs, dolls, robots, etc. because its a clear effect of being conditioned our whole lives that we are less than human and i think we have backpedaled into accepting that as long as it means someone will love us. we will tear off our limbs and strip ourselves of our dignity and lose all conscious thought if it means we fit the parameters of something worth loving. we will deny ourselves just to be loved unconditionally. on the other hand i also want to be loved unconditionally as a doll or dog or robot so idk
On the other hand I find it delightful that we took the absolute meat grinder that is our shared experience and turned it into something joyful
My girlfriend is a wonderful human being who deserves all the love she was denied and all that I can give her.
She's also an adorable puppy who trotted up and handed me her leash after I fell in love with her.
It stunned me that I could also be worthy of that much love and trust. To have another human being tell me "treat me like an owned thing, I trust you not to hurt me."
I love her unconditionally just for being the person she is, and I puppy her for her comfort, to ease her worries and make her happy.
My own trauma left me feeling empty, like I could not be loved. I could provide love, but I didn't even have puppy/doll/robot kink to fall back on for the possibility I might be loved if I changed enough. There was no way I could change enough to be loved.
And this wonderful trans puppygirl, who could not have known this about me because I hadn't realized it myself at the time, said 'I love you' and rewired my brain.
