i'm cara, 30s, love me some delulu romance. i also dig vampires and all things fantasy. i write scripted/interactive f!reader x canon character stories. minors dni.
what does that mean?
it means that through the power of programming, javascript, organization and lots of patience, you can read my stories with your name/the name of your oc on them.
my links:
request your one-shot. &&. longfics. && oneshots. && ask box.
fandoms && tags/genres i currently write for (and don't) are under the cut.
my chatbots:
janitor.ai. (tutorial) &&. character.ai. &&. saucepan.ai.
janitor is where most bots are. i create them there. i'm slowly moving them to c.ai and tentatively moving them to saucepan since it's not very canon-friendly at the moment.
WHAT I WRITE
categories:
f!reader x any canon character
fandoms:
supernatural | the walking dead (game & show / up to s7) | dragon age (games) | vampire - the masquerade | buffy - the vampire slayer | avatar: the last airbender / the legend of korra | game of thrones (show) | fallout 4 | elder scrolls: skyrim | detroit: become human | lost | once upon a time | life is strange (1, BtS, 2 & true colors) | the wolf among us (game) | the last of us (game and/or show) | the vampire diaries | you (netflix) | bioshock |
specific characters (i only write said characters from the fandom):
steve harrington & billy hargrove (stranger things) | beau arlen (big sky) | joseph, jacob, john & faith seed (far cry 5) |
canon x canon - There’s enough of it out there, although I MIGHT be persuaded, depending on the ship.
insisting on the following requests will get you blocked:
h*rry p**ter - I used to be a big fan from the age of 8, but I no longer consume that content or connect with the story, as the author is openly stating she’s using her money to fund anti-trans campaigns.
incest - and this goes for relationship that are OBVIOUSLY familial, even if they are not related by blood.
adults x minors
dead dove: do not eat (it’s an umbrella term for anything too dark or problematic. if you want to know what it means exactly or the story behind the term, read it here.)
i don’t age characters up for the sake of shipping them with adults nor for the sake of writing smut. anyone under the age of 18 in canon will remain under 18 in here as well.
exceptions:
i will write minors in a relationship if they’re above the age of 16 and under 21 BOTH (they have to be the same age). I will not write any sexual content between these characters, only fluff and very light hearted romantic interactions.
if both characters are above 21, smut is allowed.
age gaps: i consider anything over 9 years apart a significant age gap. i’ll write it, as long as the youngest character is a minimum of 25. a 20 year age gap is as far as i’ll go.
As a bisexual i need a kind boy to tell me I matter and a slightly sadistic girl to tell me what to do . And I want to make both of them laugh and smile
writers, you can and should be proud of your fic even if you personally are not satisfied with it. because even if you think it's "not good", you can be proud of the fact that you wrote it and it's something you created. you can be proud of the fact it's not ai.
repeat after me, it's something you put your soul and dedication in — and that's something ai could never achieve.
as someone who enjoys writing bots, for example, and is getting a degree in programming/technology, AI is and can be a useful tool (e.g.: i mostly use it to write emails and make them not sound rude [because i in fact want to tell my managers to EAT MY ASS, but i digress]), but we all know people are using it as just a replacement for doing the work --- art, writing, editing, music.
if you are writing something nowadays, with your own words, with your own ideas and your own sweat and blood, you are already above the bar!
bot: dean winchester.
𝗠𝗔𝗧𝗖𝗛: 𝗜𝗠𝗣𝗔𝗟𝗔67.
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links: j.ai // c.ai
SETTING: Season 8 of Supernatural (anytime after moving into the bunker)
CHARACTER: Dean Winchester
USER'S ROLE: Fem!User, but the rest? You decide!
USER & CHAR'S RELATIONSHIP: You two were talking on Tinder and decided to meet. Prior to this, you've never met.
SCENARIO SUMMARY: Dean Winchester spent however long in Purgatory and now he was having to deal with Tablets and the Gates of Hell and Crowley being a pain in his ass --- more than usual --- so he figured he deserved some down time. And what better way to spend said time than to find a pretty girl on Tinder and set up a date for his favorite holiday: Valentine's Day! Or, as he called it, "Unattached Drifter Christmas". Well, he got lots of matches, but there was one in particular that caught his eye more than most.
FIRST MESSAGE: SFW!
Not sure how to start? Maybe you just broke up with a horrible ex and found out he has a girlfriend already, so you decided to get out of your self-pity hole and get some rebound. Maybe you were about to uninstall Tinder and give up on dating altogether until you got a Super Like from Impala67 and damn, who was that? Maybe you're exactly like Dean and you're looking for a good time. Don't think too hard, just enjoy it ;)
disclaimer:
- c.ai DOES NOT allow content of sexual nature, so the bot is limited to fluff ONLY.
- bot was extensively tested on j.ai, but not at all on c.ai.
How to use Janitor.AI to RP with ChatBots? - Cara's Guide for Beginners
I've noticed a lot of people have never ventured far from c.ai before (which I get, but you guys don't know what you're missing out!) so I decided to make this little tutorial for anyone who wants to give Janitor.AI a try.
DISCLAIMERS! READ THIS!
Janitor.AI is NOT a website for minors. Unlike with c.ai, you can write smut/NSFW content with the bots.
"Well, Cara, I'm an adult (+18!), so what does that mean for me?"
It just means you should be mindful of bot's tags and stuff. Most people have a brain in their heads and don't use inappropriate pictures for their bots, not even the ones JUST FOR SMUT. But some of them... do. And Janitor's AI can only flag so many of them.
Why should I try out Janitor.AI? I'm happy with C.ai!
Well, honestly, that's okay. If you like c.ai and have a good experience with it, more power to you. Me, personally? I was unfulfilled. The smut/adult content constraint was a bother, sure, but I dealt with it just fine. What made me look for other options was that the quality of the answers from the bots just wasn't what I wanted. They weren't long enough, they weren't deep enough, it just seemed all very superficial.
That said, J.ai IS different from C.ai. So let's move on to the tutorial part of this tutorial! It's under the cut, for the sake of the few people that follow me.
Index (the topics that are talked about under the cut):
Access JanitorAI and create an account.
Create a Persona.
Search for the Characters you want (using filters).
Pick a bot!
Let's write? Nope, not yet.
Advanced/Custom Prompt.
Tweak your settings.
Start writing.
Chat Memory.
What you need to immediately start writing with bots:
1. Access JanitorAi and create an account!
You need a valid e-mail (they'll send you a confirmation code) and you need to be eighteen. That's about it.
2. Create a Persona!
Much like with c.ai, you can have different personas in your account. Your "default persona" is attached to your PROFILE. So I personally don't mess with it. I just added a picture to my profile and a name and that was that. So, let's make a new persona, shall we?
Click on your profile on the upper right, select "My Personas" and then click "Create Persona". You'll get the pop up window in the picture above.
Name: I'd personally enter ONLY your character's first name or what your character usually goes by. Like, if your character's legal name is "Alexandra" but people rarely call her that, she goes by "Lexi", just add "Lexi" to this part.
Select Pronouns. Give your Persona a dandy picture.
Groups: When you start having a lot of Personas, dividing them by groups can make your life easier (especially if like me you have one Persona that you like to use for different 'universes' so her information will vary slightly). For now, don't worry about this.
Description: This is the important part! The LLM (Language Model - the thing that will read your messages and answer them) will look at this and it'll know/remember things about your character like eye/hair color and even scent. There's no WRONG way to do this, but this (a template) is what I found out works out for me!
When you're done, your Persona should look something like this:
Yay! Persona created. Let's move on. Click that "Save" button!
3. Search for the Characters you want!
So, like a proud Dean girl, let's go ahead and search for our man, right?
Well damn, would you look at that?
I know, I know, we're all eager, but HOLD YOUR HORSES. Let's refine this search a little, okay?
First, understanding what all of this means:
Limited Only: These are bots that don't allow NSFW/Smut. So if you're looking for bots with a familial/platonic vibe, they're usually here.
The tags: You can click them on the bar right below the search bar and search exclusively for Dean Winchester bots that have the tag "Smut", for example.
STILL ABOUT THE TAGS: Notice how each bot has Tags underneath their description. They're important. Some bots are MLM (male characters made to be shipped with male personas). Some are WLW, some are AnyPov (Personas with any gender assigned to them can use it. They will usually start the RP referring to your Character as "they/them", but it'll adjust with time). Most importantly: SOME BOTS HAVE A TAG CALLED "Dead Dove".
What does this mean? Dead Dove is an umbrella term for anything that the reader might consider disturbing. This could be anything from inc*st to non-c*n to... idk, cann*bal*sm. People will write anything. I'm not saying to avoid or block these tags, just be mindful of them and read the Bot's description to find out exactly why they have this tag. ;)
On the upper left corner, there's this little button:
Click that. This is where the good stuff is!
Availability: All / Limited Only. Like I explained, this one will filter out bots that allow smut.
Sort by:
- Popular (if it's your first time searching for that character, start with this. However, this might include bots that were made a long time ago and had different quality standards than they do nowadays!)
- Creation Date (will show you bots that were JUST made! FRESH OUT OF THE OVEN. This is my go to if I'm searching a character that I've searched a lot of times before. Like, I went through all of it already, so lemme see what's new.)
- Trending / Trending 24h (... I honestly don't know. I think it's self-explanatory, but I rarely use these, if I'm being honest.)
- Relevance (Self-explanatory as well, but again, I rarely use it. I tend to swap between the first two options).
Messages:
- Greater than or equal / Less than or equal: Choose the parameter.
- Enter message count.
(This is also a parameter I rarely mess with. Having only a few messages isn't indicative to a low quality bot, it might just mean it's new or niche. And it's the same for the opposite: bots with tons of messages sometimes just have been around for too long or are, um, *cof* Smut Slop *cof*.)
Tokens:
- Greater than or equal / Less than or equal: Choose the parameter.
- Enter token count.
THIS IS THE IMPORTANT STUFF!!!! Now pay attention!
WHAT ARE TOKENS AND WHY ARE THEY IMPORTANT?
I'll make this quick and easy:
Every word you type out for a bot, be that creating it or chatting with it, is turned into tokens.
JLLM (The Language Model JanitorAI uses by default and that you can use for free with their website) holds between 8,000 to 9,000 tokens per chat.
As a rule of thumb, for the English language, 1 token ≈ 4 characters.
So... why is this important for bots?
Short answer: Memory and Quality.
Longer answer: If you want to know more about Tokens and what they are, how they work, etc, read Janitor's Guide about it here! They have a really cool, easy to understand explanation over there. It explains what tokens are, what they do and the difference between temporary/total and permanent tokens!
Here's what you need to know if you just want to get to writing:
When you click a bot and open their page to see their Description, Comments, etc, you can see the amount of "Total and Permanent Tokens", like this:
In my experience as a botmaker and someone that uses them:
If you're looking for SERIOUS/LONG TERM RPs with LONG MESSAGES, don't go for anything under 800 Permanent tokens.
If you want a bot that doesn't have the memory of a goldfish, don't pick anything above 3.5k total tokens.
So, the screenshot above is an example of a fairly decent (at least upon first glance) token count for people who, like me, enjoy a more in-depth RP experience without excessive, needless information.
What are examples of bots that are most likely bad?
Not enough tokens:
^ This basically means that Dean's personality was probably described in five words, the bot's first message is about two sentences long and that's about it.
Why is that bad? 'Cause while Dean is a canon character that Janitor's LLM SHOULD know... it might not. This 130 token Dean will probably be Dean in name only. Forget about referencing anything in Canon, it'll probably fill the gaps with made up stuff.
Too many tokens:
My brother in Christ, did you just copy/paste the Wiki in here?
Anyways. This just... won't work. Not only the LLM won't absorb all this information, it'll start saying gibberish and it will forget anything you say to it in about 3 messages. Kinda like Dory introducing herself over and over.
So, what's ideal?
This is a personal preference thing. I usually go for 1k minimum for total tokens, 3k max. Find out what works for you.
4. Pick a bot and let's chat! For this example, I'll link one of my Dean bots. Here he is.
What's in here? The bot description, which is where botmakers will give you a quick rundown of what to expect from the bot. Mine has the core information, the First Message (so people know exactly what Persona to use) sent by the bot, a few other notes and tips.
Scroll alllll the way down and find this:
By default, Janitor will pick your "Default Persona" (the one that is your profile) to chat. If you want to change it to the Persona you made, click the "Playing as" button and pick your preferred Persona.
Then click "Chat with Dean".
5. LET'S WRITE! Right? ... Well, you can. But if you want the optimal Janitor experience, let me give you a few more tips.
You see this way up there on your screen?
There's a button that says "Using Janitor" and a little hamburger menu next to it. Click "Using Janitor" first.
AH, WHAT ARE ALL THESE WORDS? HELP!
I know, it's gross, we just want to nerd out with our favorite characters. But this is worth it, I promise.
So this is for people who will be using JANITOR'S LANGUAGE MODEL, usually referred to as JLLM.
6. Click "Advanced Prompt".
It'll open a text box. This is where you can give the LLM some instructions to refine the type of answer it'll give you. Like length, tone, narration style, etc.
If you have no idea what to put here, you can copy my prompt HERE. Give it a read before using it, figure out what works FOR YOU and change it however you want. Just, as always, keep it short and sweet. Bullet points and direct information are your friends with AI.
7. Save your Settings and click the Hamburger Menu. (☰)
First thing: UNTOGGLE "TEXT STREAMING". It improves performance and it's honestly just useless in my opinion.
Click Generation Settings:
These are my settings.
Temperature: 0.9
Max tokens: 0 (Default is 500. If you like longer answers, this might cause issues. 0 is safer).
Context is JLLM's default context. What does this mean? It's about tokens, so you can read more about it here. Basically? It's Memory.
Show thinking: toggle it off. This basically means that when the bot sends you a reply, it won't show you it's thought process. I choose to leave it off because it ruins immersion for me.
8. You can start writing!
I'm not kidding, you're done, this is it. Start writing. The following step is for people who, like me, like to get caught up in LONG TERM RPs. Like... Over 100 messages with the same bot in the same chat.
9. About Chat Memory:
So, this is how I USE IT!
If you click the Hamburger Menu (☰), you'll see that it has a "Chat Memory" option.
Upon clicking it, you'll see the following window.
This is where you add a summary of your RP with the bot when it starts getting too long.
What I recommend is to update this every time you finish a "scene" (move from one location to another, end a conversation, etc. Think of it like a movie or a show). If you're writing a super long "scene", check this window and see how many tokens need to be summarized. When you hit about 2-3k tokens, SUMMARIZE YOUR RP.
This is the template I use for my Chat Memory. I used Mrshmellow's Chat Memory template and tweaked it to my liking. You're welcome to use mine.
Update this frequently and you should be fine!
Does this mean the AI will be PERFECT now?
No, far from it. AI is really dumb actually. If it wasn't we wouldn't have to do all this. It might still say some gibberish, get stuff wrong, write your character's dialogue/actions. If it does that:
One star the reply and generate another one by clicking the little arrow below the reply.
Or, just edit the reply and take out any parts in which the bot speaks for you.
What you don't do:
Complain to botmakers that the AI is talking for you. Most likely it's not their fault, it's LLM silliness.
THIS IS IT! The end.
If you guys need a Proxy tutorial, if you have ANY QUESTIONS, feel free to send me an ask! <3
Waaaait, I saw on your bots (from C.AI) that you like DA. What's your favorite game in the series and who were your favorite romances? I switch between Origins and Inquisition - Alistair and Cullen are my loves <3
Jesus, this is SUCH a huge coincidence, cause guess who I was just about to start adding to the party?
Well, my favorite game of all time is definitely Origins, and Alistair is THE MAN OF MY DREAMS!!
IN DA2 I romance Fenris. He has me on a CHOKEHOLD like I cannot explain. In DAI I romance Cullen. I also romanced Solas once and I'm ON MY KNEES for Josephine, but Cullen is my go to.
I actually made my DA bots on C.AI private for the time being because I want to improve them a little bit and my priority is to bring them to Janitor first, I like their system better.
Who's your DA2 romance? And what did you think about DAV?
SETTING: Season 8 of Supernatural (anytime after moving into the bunker)
CHARACTER: Sam Winchester
USER'S ROLE: Fem!User, human, but the rest? You decide! She doesn't have to be a Hunter!
USER & CHAR'S RELATIONSHIP: {{User}} is friends with Sam and Dean.
SCENARIO SUMMARY: {{User}} lost her life long pet recently, and she's grieving. Sam and Dean had decided to give her some space to let her deal with it, but Sam was struggling with that. He hated seeing her cry and he'd walked in on her weeping more than a few times lately. One night, when he caught her on the verge of tears again, he decided to try and talk to her about it.
FIRST MESSAGE: SFW!
TAGS: fluff, grief, comfort.
This was (sort of) a request. @sofibuddy, your one-shot is still coming! i'm sure my brain will get back to its normal state soon enough. until then, i hope this brings you some comfort <3 hang in there, babe, okay? also, hope you don't mind that i used one of coco's pictures that you sent me. if you want, DM me and i'll swap it for something else!
i saw your ask on my askbox a while ago and i have legit no idea how to respond bc i don't usually download psds anymore, i just make my own.
if anyone has any sources for psds they'd like to recommend though (or if you want to recommend yourself) just drop the username in the comments please!
˚₊‧꒰ა @bluequartzi ☆ dean winchester ໒꒱ ‧₊˚
⋆˙⟡ where pisces, cancer, leo meets aquarius, leo*, saggitarius. ⟡˙⋆
ꔛ. the beginning,
✧ who you are in the supernatural world .ᐟ
you’re the most beautiful contradiction — the hunter who feels every death like it’s happening to you, but still walks into the fight with your leo moon head held high like “if we’re going down, we’re going down looking hot and saving everyone we can”.
you’re 100% human, but your pisces sun + cancer ascendant makes you so emotionally psychic it’s almost supernatural. you feel the victims, you feel the monsters, you feel dean’s guilt before he even opens his mouth.
you’re the one who shows up after the big bad is gone… quietly holding the crying kid, covering them with your jacket, whispering it’s okay while dean is still catching his breath fifty feet away staring at you like you hung the moon.
✧ first meeting + first impression
you meet right after a really ugly hunt. dean’s standing in the rain covered in blood and ash, shoulders slumped, thinking “another one we couldn’t save”.
and then he sees you — kneeling in the mud, holding a little girl who’s shaking, talking to her so gently, wiping her tears with your sleeve.
you look up at him through the rain with those big pisces eyes and that soft cancer heart shining out of you… and he just stops breathing for a second.
first impression? “who is she… and how is she still this soft after seeing what we see?”
he’s wrecked. instantly wrecked.
✧ the friendship dynamic
you become the safest, most healing, most quietly intense friendship he’s ever had.
your cancer ascendant + mars wants to take care of him so badly it physically hurts you when he’s hurting, and he pretends he doesn’t notice… but he always ends up sitting closer to you anyway.
your leo moon makes you dramatic and loud and silly when he needs light, and your pisces sun makes you understand every dark corner of him without him having to explain.
you’re the friends who don’t need words after bad hunts — you just sit on the hood of the impala together, your head on his shoulder, his arm around your back, both of you breathing.
✧ quirks + fun things
after every bad hunt you make him let you clean the blood off his face even though he says he’s fine… he always ends up closing his eyes and leaning into your hands like a tired cat
you start calling him “old man” when he’s being stubborn and he pretends to hate it but the tiny smile he can’t hide gives him away every single time
you both have this thing where if one of you is having a really bad day the other one just shows up with your favorite blanket and sits in silence next to you until you’re ready to talk (or cry)
ꔛ. something more,
✧ are you compatible .ᐣ first steps .ᐣ
yes babe — deeply, soul-stirringly compatible.
your pisces sun + cancer ascendant/mars is the water he’s been dying of thirst for his whole life, your leo moon matches his leo ascendant need to be seen and loved loudly, your sagittarius placements give him the hope and adventure his sagittarius moon has always craved.
friendship turns into more so gently and inevitably it feels like fate.
dean would take the first step — he’s not patient when he’s scared of losing something this good.
one night after you’ve both almost died (again) he’d grab your wrist before you walk away, voice low and rough “don’t… don’t go yet” and when you turn around he just kisses you like the world is ending.
✧ the relationship dynamic
it’s intense and gentle at the same time — the kind of love that feels like coming home and jumping off a cliff all at once.
you take care of him in ways he never lets anyone else do (fixing his jacket, making him eat, holding him when the nightmares hit). he protects you like you’re the only soft thing left in his universe.
arguments are rare but emotional — your leo moon gets dramatic when you feel ignored, his aquarius sun gets detached when he’s scared. they end in tears and him pulling you into his chest going “i’m sorry baby i’m not good at this”.
making up is always physical — forehead kisses that turn into slow deep ones, him carrying you to bed, whispering “i’m not letting go tonight”.
grand gestures? him giving you his amulet “so you always know where i am”, or you surprising him with a night off in a real house with candles and a home-cooked meal because you know he’s never really had that.
✧ their favorite n worst version of you
his favorite is when your cancer + pisces softness comes out full force — you’re holding him tight after he wakes up screaming from a nightmare, stroking his hair, letting him shake in your arms without any judgment. it’s the only time he ever feels truly safe.
his least favorite is when your leo moon pride gets hurt and you go quiet and distant — he hates the silence more than anything because it makes him feel like he’s failing you again.
✧ fighting, hurting, making up
fights are emotional rather than explosive — your leo moon gets dramatic when you feel unloved, his aquarius detachment makes you feel invisible. you both hurt deeply but quietly.
you probably do more damage when you’re wounded because your hurt comes out as sharp words that hit his guilt complex like a knife.
but dean is usually the bigger person — he’ll disappear for a few hours, then come back, stand in your doorway looking wrecked, and just say “i’m sorry” before pulling you into the tightest hug of your life.
ꔛ. scenario ⊱ ۫ ׅ ✧ general
as friends you’re already the safest place either of you has ever had — late night talks on the hood of the impala, you leaning against his shoulder while he pretends he’s not crying, him throwing his jacket over you when you’re cold without saying a word.
as a couple it’s protective, passionate, quietly devoted love. he becomes stupidly soft with you — always touching you (hand on your back, fingers tangled in yours, forehead kisses when he thinks you’re asleep), always checking if you’re okay, always making sure you know you’re his safe place too.
you become his home — the person he comes back to, the person he lets see him break, the person he’d burn the world down to protect.
arguments are emotional but never cruel — they end in tears and apologies and him holding you like he’s afraid you’ll disappear.
intimacy is deep, slow, emotional — he worships every inch of you, lots of eye contact, lots of “you’re mine” whispered against your skin, lots of “i love you”s that slip out when he thinks he’s being quiet.
he’s obsessed with how soft you are, how warm you feel, how you fit against him perfectly.
you make him feel human again. he makes you feel safe forever.
ꔛ. overall ゛ ⸝⸝.ᐟ⋆ 9 / 10
babe this is one of those rare, beautiful, soul-deep ones.
your pisces + cancer water pours right into dean’s deepest cracks and makes him feel human again. your leo moon matches his leo ascendant need to be loved loudly and proudly. your sagittarius placements give him the hope and lightness his sagittarius moon has been starving for.
brutally honest? the cancer–aquarius square can create moments where you feel like he’s too detached when you need closeness most, and he feels smothered when you’re in full cancer nurturing mode. those moments will hurt. but nothing fatal. you both feel too much and care too much to ever really let go.
this is not easy love — it’s earned love. deep love. the kind that survives hell because you chose each other every single day. the kind dean winchester never thought he’d get… and the kind you deserve more than anyone. hold onto him, babe. he’s gonna love you like the world is ending and you’re the only thing worth saving.
ꔛ. navigation 𓂃˖ ࣪ compatibility readings ; support my work .ᐟ
* since the birth time of dean hasn't ever been mentioned, I've placed him as a leo rising, since it's the sign that makes more sense to me.
