My Way from Darker to Brighter days
Yes, I have seen the times when the depressed mind turned my surroundings into darkness, when I was able to see only two paths, one which told me to`give up’and second which `asked my soul to rest in peace.’
It was the time when my feelings were unknown from everyone. I never liked to share anything to anyone and my mind was working in two parts, one was thinking that what was going on with me, while the other one was questioning me that,”why are you like this?”
The loneliness made me cry and I had no one around me to hug. I was not brave enough to share that pain to those who never cared about my feelings.
I saw people praying to God when they suffer from pain and I thought to try the same, but as that believe and prayer was not from the depth of my heart, it failed. I never had a complete faith on God and as everything was getting so puzzled, I felt like... this thinking and behavior of mine is wrong.
I was filled with demotivated thoughts and decided to choose the second path.
I knew I was wrong, but I was unable to think about anything else. Still, when I found myself just a step far from that darkest destination, I suddenly changed my mind.
And it happened because fortunately the best childhood memory of mine recalled in my mind and, it was special because I had spent it with my closest best friend, my brother. I don`t know exactly why...but I just thought to share it with him
I moved back from that path and tried to contact him. I shared all the bad happenings with him and he made me realize that I`m never alone.
I got motivated, I learnt, I observed and now I have it as an experience, which I call “a small but powerful journey.”
I learnt that those darker times are not curse; they are challenges which life gives you, because your life knows your potential. It knows that you are strong and you can face that challenge. And you need to fight it, not to prove anything, but to show that you are stronger than your life and people around you think.
I remember once my brother told me,”If you speak in front of fools, they may stay quite or laugh, while the wise people will always appreciate.” He is right, when I told everyone that I don`t have complete faith on God then they laughed. I understood that I don`t need to tell it to anyone I will follow what I believe, and I believe that anyone can have faith on anything or on any person they like, but that believe should be true and without any misunderstanding, then no matter if you believe on God, person or any sculpture. If it’s from the depth of your heart it will always be there for you. And yes, this never meant that I don`t respect others believe, if I respect what or whom I follow then I must be kind enough to respect others faith too.
From that incident, the most important things my mind understood was... not to give up....and to share things...with whomever who motivates...
When a river flows then it don`t stop due to the stones which come in its path. Similarly, we should just keep moving carelessly on our path, without thinking about those who tries to stop you. Because you don`t need to prove anything to anyone, you are already defined by you, to yourself and that`s enough.
Now I know that, in this world... if thousands of people oppose you from taking your decisions and you have only one to support, then no doubt, you will win.
Because those thousands can only comment, while you can act.
