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“In a world full of temporary things, you are a perpetual feeling.“ ~ Sanober Khan
Temporal Signus ~ To permanently bind yourself as temporary person in others lives, no matter how significant or important their relationship with you might be.
Something I’ve learned over the years, is that there are so many people in my life that no longer exist in my daily reality. From family, to friendships, even coworkers I’d see every day become a faint memory and a whisper in the wind. Everyone comes into your life for different seasons, and some will leave for different reasons. Some you’ll fall out with for good reasons, but they don’t stay. I’ve been coming to terms with that in my own life. I just recently turned twenty-five, and going full frontal lobe development mode.
I’m being more honest in accepting myself and wanting to be more vulnerable. After cutting off a relative and recently getting back in touch with them after two months — it feels odd. I don’t plan on conversing with them daily, but I also have to accept the lessons they taught me… sure there’s lots of baggage and trauma there, but it's a lesson nonetheless I had to learn to grow into the person I’m slowly blooming into. A friend I made on Tumblr in 2023 randomly ghosted me several months ago, it was surprising, but it needed to happen, given how toxic we were to each other. We were two people who were too similar and came from different walks of life. We viewed things from different perspectives and with constant arguments and ‘somewhat’ friendly debates, them ghosting me and blocking me needed to happen, and I’m ok with that… or should I say I just became “ok” with it after the initial reveal.
And as I’ve sat back this entire year, I’ve come to this realization, that maybe I’m just a temporary person in everyone’s life. Whether good or bad, I’m just not meant to stay in everyone’s life. 2026 is my year of new beginnings. Nothing is ever going to stay the same for me anymore, and while it is scary, it’s a little bit exciting.
What I’ve learned, is that people who have cut me off did it for valid reasons. I have very self-deprecating views of my self-image, and that can be a lot for people who are secure in themselves, I on the other hand, I’m just not there as of yet. I know that I can have harsh opinions on others, as well as myself, and be very blunt and matter of fact, especially when my intuition proves me right. I can be self-destructive and sabotage certain moments that may be good for me, because of fear and previous experiences. I’m not ashamed in saying that I’m definitely NOT the greatest friend, and I know I have a lot to work on, especially when it comes to reciprocity. I can be petty and not talk to you if I feel as if you never reach out to me, and that’s because I used to be so content with being a people pleaser. Nowadays, I truly couldn’t care less if I let someone down or not.
People have come into my life in different ways, and it’s always during a season of growth and character development for me. Most of them will stay, but for how long? That’s not up to me to determine. Everyone is temporary in my world unless proven otherwise, and that’s okay. Permanence isn’t forever, because we as humans don’t live forever, nothing stays forever. The truth of life is learning to let go and let things just be as they may. You can’t force connections that aren’t meant to stay forever. You can’t force people in your life to stay forever. Someone came into your life at a point when you needed them most, and then they left. That’s the beauty of temporary connections. We all grow and change from day to day, month to month, and year to year.
Don’t let the heartache and sadness that comes with someone leaving your life keep you down. If it’s a friend who moves away to another city/state, or a coworker you liked that finds a new job, be happy for them and let the memories you’ve had together remain, even if you guys don’t talk often, or slowly fade apart.
Life happens to all of us, and it has a funny way of guiding people into our lives and splitting us apart when we’ve learned certain lessons we needed to learn from them. To some, this may seem like a coping mechanism, but it’s not, that’s just the reality of being a temporary person and having temporary connections. Not everything is meant to last forever…
Cinema Starview Presents: Curtain Call, The Last Act
(Alt title: What The Amazing Digital Circus Has Taught Me As A Struggling Twentysomething…)
The Amazing Digital Circus, controversial in all the best ways, has left a lasting impression on animation and the indie scene as a whole. With it being one of the first-ever YouTube-born indie animated releases being shown in theaters for its high-top, drama filled, series finale.
Created by Gooseworx and Glitch Studios, this indie animated series follows 6 humans trapped in a surreal, circus-themed VR world run by a chaotic AI named Caine, who forces them into bizarre adventures as they struggle with their new reality and try to escape. This series going as viral as it did, led it to be the unofficial pioneer into what could be considered, the golden age of independent animation and creators turning their stories from figments of their imaginations they obsess over, to becoming a viable career path.
This series, and Glitch Studios as a whole, have helped in redirecting creatives from going down the pipeline of working for big studios that won’t take your idea seriously, or strip your ideas as a whole, to putting the tools in your hands to make your dreams become a reality. Will it be hard? Of course, everything in life is, but that shouldn’t deter you from making your passion a possibility and not a probability. What I love about this show, is the diverse cast of characters we’ve come to love and adore, how they all fit together perfectly in this liminal plane of existence, while questioning the very reality of their existence in this virtual reality experience. We get introduced to the main character, Pomni, who is a focal point in the story, being the character that drives the majority of the plot, on how to escape the circus. Originally going from an anxious and neurotic character to a character of empathy and compassion for those in need.
All of the characters in this show remind me of different aspects of myself and the human experience overall. Which is interesting, because I believe all of these characters are meant to represent the different struggles we as humans may face in our daily lives. I relate to Ragatha because I too have a toxic relationship with both my parents. I suffer(ed) from emotional neglect and being tossed aside like an old tattered ragdoll from one parental figure. To then become the victim of my other parent, who would berate and fuss at me about the littlest things, never feeling good enough, and becoming a bit of a people pleaser to make up for it.
I relate to Gangle because I myself am an artist that dreams with high ambition, and yet life has consistently played in my face or let me down, causing me to give up on my dreams, even for a few months to a full year. Stuck working at shitty retail/customer service jobs I couldn’t care less about, finding myself succumbing to imposter syndrome and masking how I truly feel to appease others.
I relate to Zooble because I too struggle with body dysmorphia, never feeling at home in this flesh suit I was born in, and to some extent never feeling manly enough to be the male I present myself as. As of lately, I’ve been questioning what my identity is in terms of gender and self-realized concept, and I’m currently trying to figure that out. I love Kinger, because despite all he’s been through, he’s accepted all of it, and his wisdom and experience has made the circus not feel so terrible. Helping others grapple with the reality of what’s happening, while probably being the GOAT amongst all of the characters. So much so, that Pomni has become a second character that is as wise as him, helping others with the tough feelings they try to navigate on a daily basis, adding a layer of empathy that is needed for such a difficult reality they exist in.
And good ole Jax, the jackass bunny we love to hate. Them being a character that was highlighted this entire episode was an interesting narrative choice. The one thing I wish was that we got to explore the character's reaction to his abstraction, maybe even a final group trip where everyone went with Pomni to explore Jax’s mindscape, seeing her for who she was, and learning about her past before The Circus. I’m using an array of pronouns for Jax, because while we know Goosworx confirmed that Jax is a transfem character, it seems as if Jax has tried to subdue that aspect of themselves for YEARS while being in the circus. Even their human counterpart, Lee, is portrayed as masc-presenting, but we know they use “she/her” pronouns.
I can shockingly relate to Jax’s situation of how she came into the circus — running away from home, toxic relationship with her parents, becoming homeless for a bit until she found herself in the circus. Jax is a very complex character that self-sabotages their way through life in fear of ever being judged or ridiculed for expressing the way she feels, something her parents never made her feel comfortable expressing. And that’s a very depressing revelation to face, especially when we saw the fallout in their relationship with Ribbit and how much the guilt of being the person that made Ribbit abstract caused her to restrict herself from ever getting too close with anybody ever again. She reverted to hurting people in the same ways people hurt her in the outside world.
Does any of this excuse Jax’s character flaws? No, and she deserves the outcome of what happened to her, but there can be grace held for what she went through and how that led up to the person she became whilst in the circus. I hope Jax/Lee is living a better life in the outside world and finds the security and courage to embrace who she really is on the inside.
Speaking of, I think it was so dope to see all of the Circusmates and their human counterparts continuing with their lives beyond what the circumstances were. Pomni/Abby still does accounting and does YouTube on the side, Ragatha/Suzie seems to be a successful equestrian rider and farmer, Jax/Lee is a delivery driver, Gangle/Zoey is a designer now, Zooble/Riley runs their own bar called “The Triangle”, and Kinger/Grant lives a happy life with his wife Queenie/Destiny and their kids Anne and Sam.
If there’s anything you can take away from The Amazing Digital Circus, as a twentysomething, it’s that nothing in this life remains forever. Sometimes you have to be ok with certain outcomes and learn to be content with them, while also finding meaning in the life you are currently living. People move on, life goes on, and what remains as a temporary situation for some can be a permanent reality for others. Their human counterparts are out living a life they always wanted, meanwhile their digital counterparts are in the circus forever, unless they abstract, which is always likely. The best they can do is just continue living and growing despite the odds of their circumstances… and I think that’s a bittersweet, yet perfect message to incorporate in our lives, however the cards may fall.
Some art of the gang ahead of the finale dropping in theaters tomorrow. I can't believe this is the last time we are all waiting for a new episode together, I feel quite sentimental. What a ride it's been. If you're seeing it tomorrow, godspeed. And remember, be good to yourself and be good to others <3
Honestly, whatever messed up shit the writers put Korra through (again) I’m very excited to see how these two’s relationship will be.
Korra’s either gonna have a hardened exterior from the weight of carrying guilt or she’ll be like Katara in her older years. As for Pavi, I think she’ll be very similar to Aang in terms of personality and having the weight of the world on her smol shoulders.
I’m predicting it now, these two will have a gender swapped dynamic that Roku and Aang had.
