there was nothing for you out there

real life angel boy who needs to escape this place

[digitalangelica]

old blog name: rainepuddles

hello, im called perseus on this blog but thats obviously not my real name in real life.. not yet anyway.

im an angel that is in no way holy and theres constantly weird stuff happening to me

heres some more info

im a trans boy (enby transmasc to be specific)

im bisexual with a preference for males

im underage BUT i am honest about things. if pedos come near me i will block. I am not allowing myself to be used or manipulated. this is purely a place for thoughts, nothing more.

im pagan i guess. i kinda just believe the world is more than we understand and that theres things looking out for us

i pray to rain and storms

my favorite insects are dragonflies

my favorite number is 143

i love video games and music!

Mental health issues

i have autism and adhd (diagnosed)

like i said im ftm so life isnt fun

i live in a dysfunctional household

i have very bad chronophobia. do not talk to me about years. if im stressed it can cause me to fall into depressive/anxious episodes

[digitalangelica]

im very lonely

[digitalangelica]

youre going to die out here.

[digitalangelica]

okay cool now my echolalia has attached itself to this pressure quote and im repeating it over and over again in my brain thats cool lmao

[digitalangelica]

this aged poorly

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i have no religion but i pray regardless. i rub my palms together until they stick and but my hands up to my head to let the universe hear my plea.

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i think things are truly getting better but its still gonna take some time

im on T now and nothings changed but it will, time just needs to pass lol

[digitalangelica]

sorry for little posts, can you believe its been 3 years since i made this account?

[digitalangelica]

im so alone

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I wanna be on stage and save people with my voice like my heros unknowingly did for me. if i cant do that, i will die unhappy.

[digitalangelica]

i dont even want to clean my room anymore. the clothes ive worn out are piled up. my mums confused why im not cleaning and i guess it makes sense. im just so tired

[digitalangelica]

ive always been alone.

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always see those ftm couples posts being like “oh i love fucking my little puppy” or some other shit and it lowkey grosses me out (no offense to anyone into that)

but i can also never ever take it seriously cuz of that stupid fucking deku cosplayer video of him eating fried chicken saying “here puppy, have a bite!”

[digitalangelica]

im 16 today.

i want to go home.

[digitalangelica]

sorry for little posting. been travelling.

i cant wait to get back home and see my beautiful baby kitty

[digitalangelica]

dont EVER talk to me on new years dont EVER tell me what year it is DONT EVER DO THAT.

im going to gaslight myself into believing time doesnt exist. sorry. i can do whatever i want.

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idk what happened to me on christmas but every little thing is making me really scared as of late. maybe its because its nearly the end of the year. or im gonna leave the country in like 2 days, lol. im sure ill be ok.

[digitalangelica]

all these angel mfs on here are the #girlblogger people, wheres my trans boys that bum around and watch youtube all day

[digitalangelica]

in my personal mythological/folklore stuff, halos aren’t exclusive to angels. For me, i don’t have one. and some people arent angels and have halos. Anyway i think that halos just represent extreme purity and holiness which means an average mf can have one

being an angel, however, shows that you are free.