what a dizzy dance

➳ amelia ♔ l 01.05.16 ➳ jesse ♕ l 06.27.19 ‣ coffee l nature l kind vibes ❀ ‣ anime l fandoms l art ✎ ‣ infj l capricorn ◐ ‣ just love everything! ♡

[amargedom]

“Nobody can teach me who I am. You can describe parts of me, but who I am, and what I need, is something I have to find out myself.”

— Chinua Achebe

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Got to see my bestie after 2 years! ♡ @myystorysofar

[remanence-of-love]

[howlerbat]

you ever listen to a song 47 times in a row and every time you’re like wow what a good song. I’m gonna play it again.

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crying screaming throwing up at these parallels

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Guess I’m still here?

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I talked with an old friend on the phone for a hour and a half tonight and it was awesome. I really missed her. It’s crazy that so many years passed where we didn’t talk and we were able to reconnect and joke, laugh, and talk about our lives and what we’re going through now. I don’t know, I just really wanted to post about it because I’m really happy!

[heavyrain-dc]

“Promise me not to hide yourself when you’re in pain, it’s unfair that we laughed together but you cried alone”

— Unknown

[lionfloss]

zeewipark

[mudanonaito]

KyoAni Month || Day 4: Favorite KyoAni Movie ↳ Kyoukai No Kanata: I’LL BE HERE - Mirai-hen

[truecrimefiend-deactivated20151]

The abandoned city of Pripyat, Ukraine.

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Biggest D you've ever had ?

Depression

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Kindergartener. ♡

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Amelia’s 1st Day of Kindergarten! ✧

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My little girl started Kindergarten yesterday! It was crazy emotional for a lot of reasons. Obviously beginning with the standard, “my baby is growing up so fast” feelings. Those really didn’t hit me right away. It wasn’t until she was walking through the gate to go join the rest of her class when she suddenly turned, ran back, and hugged me tight. She said, “Bye, Mommy. I love you!” and went back through that gate with confidence and a hunger for knowledge and adventure.

It was then. That’s when I felt it all.

I waited until I got to my car before I let it all out. That’s right, I was THAT mom. I sobbed. Ugly, messy, snotty, blubbering bawling.

But it wasn’t solely because the stress of getting her ready, physically and mentally, had fallen off my shoulders.

It wasn’t only because of the memories of holding her in my arms for the first time in the hospital, watching her take her first steps, hearing her first words. Not only because of how big, smart, and beautiful she’s gotten.

It was the realization that I almost didn’t get to witness this. That I wouldn’t have been here for this. My heart felt like it was bursting from all the love and appreciation I had for this moment. I thanked God. I got to take my daughter to her first day of Kindergarten. I got to see her smiling face, the twinkle of excitement and wonder in her eyes, feel the warmth in that last hug before school starts, and feel the love behind that, “Bye, Mommy. I love you!”. Throughout this entire journey, I have felt so humble and blessed, but this was so much more.

So yeah, I was THAT mom.

And I’m proud of it. ♡

[sugarmint-dreams]

my favorite drawings from 2021! 

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my shop

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Church girls! ☼