clark.

18, he/him, 🏳️‍⚧️.

[dochisworld]

— binary trans male, latino﹙🇧🇷﹚, late diagnosis autistic, adhd 'nd shit.

— i say whatever shit I feel like sayin'. there's not exactly a pattern. there'll be tags related to each regard; feel free to explore my profile & progress.

— i have: executive dysfunction, dysgraphia, echocalia, auditory processing disorder, hyposensitivity.

🌡️ ; RANDOM NOTING

🌋 ; VENTING

🫀; MEMES

[dochisworld]

It's been so long since I've been here.

[dochisworld]

remember recent events: 🤨😐😒🤮😩

remember events that happened more than 10 years ago in extreme detail and quality: 🙏💋❤️‍🩹😝😁

[s1xseasonsandamov1e]

Making a tag game cause I can

Rules: post 4 fictional characters you relate to and assume something about the person you reblogged from based on their characters

No pressure tag! @sidneyoftheblackwoods @mqstermindswift @stars-and-birds @zenilvar @forever-chained-to-myself @themidnightarcher @skeelly @thepencilsnameissteve @thislove-taylorsversion @thislifeissweeterthanfiction @swiftieannah @a-pessimistic-swiftie @catastrxblues @jellycanon @what-about-wendy and anyone else who wants to join<3

[s0lace-1n-s0l1tude]

A single word:

Depreshun

Pulled a lil sneaky on ya

@windyskiez @kaiserkisser @lvcisaliaa @patiori @1-d0nt-w4nn4-b3-m3-4nym0r3 @simplylian @hes-quiet-today @ninenet @aperol-spritzzz @mene-morphosis3 @agnarid @atlantis-just-drowned

[atlantis-just-drowned]

Oh wow you are NOT doing well mentally

(I barely know those characters but they give me Mental Illness Vibes™️ I'm sorry-)

Anyway thanks for the tag here are mine!!

Uh. Anyway. No pressure for the tags as always

@arsuns-ramblings @schrodingers-most-anoyingsubject @amarynthian-fortress @vivian-violet @fictionalsimp09 @antonymeanonyme @dochisworld + anyone who wants to join

[dochisworld]

The kind of crazy person that people are skeptical about, but simultaneously, can't stay away from for long.

[dochisworld]

“You never gave any signs”

also me in every game pretending to be a cis boy and compulsively playing only with male characters:

[khloethecatsworld]

Trump basically declared disabled people ‘unfit to work’ as he put it by revoking the Equal Employment Opportunity Law of 1965. It means employers no longer have to legally give accommodations to disabled employees. This will render so many Americans jobless and barely anyone is talking about it because disabled people like me are treated as expendable.

[dochisworld]

This guy is disgusting.

[dochisworld]

It's strange to think that practically 90% of my personality is formed by my autism and ADHD (along with traumas and personal experiences) and I don't even realize it most of the time. Only after I stop to think about it.

[dochisworld]

I like seeing some people deny my neurodivergence JUST based on the fact that I’m very opinionated, straightforward and have no-little tolerance for disrespect/manipulation, when all they expect is for autistics to be gentle, harmless, “:3 kawaii” creatures.

No bitch. I'm not a pliant, malleable pookie bear. I'm an adult grown-ass man, and if you try to fuck me, i'll fight back.

[atlantis-just-drowned]

THIS exactly.

Autism pattern recognition + traumas can actually make you very good at picking up manipulative or unhealthy patterns. The downside is that you actually start to see them everywhere, all the time. And you can't just un-see them.

I think there's also a part of "autism black and white thinking" that plays in the strongly opiniated part. I had conversations with an autistic friend that could easily escalate into a full on angry argument if I challenged his worldviews on the smallest things. It could also play in the little-to-no tolerance for disrespect (which I'm not saying it's a bad thing ofc) because "disrespect is bad" isn't nuanced by "my reaction should be proportional to the amount of disrespect shown to me", and so even the smallest disrespectful comment is treated with the same seriousness as is someone just rolled over your grandma's groceries just to piss you off.

In short, you get invalidated because of actual autistic traits. Just because they don't fit the stereotype.

[dochisworld]

I create such complex sentences in my head, but I can't form a sentence with more than seven words verbally. Life is crazy. 😂

[whump-in-the-closet]

when a powerful figure is reduced to kneeling. when the lord is forced to bow. when the exile stumbles into an unwelcoming bar. when the “beast” is chained by their horns. when a god is dragged behind their enemy’s chariot, a captive and trophy. when the loyal “guard dog” character is muzzled and the silver-tongued thief falls silent in horror.

that’s the shit

it’s about the contrapasso. the reversal of roles and the sudden, plunging terror of being unable to hide.

[dochisworld]

I like seeing some people deny my neurodivergence JUST based on the fact that I’m very opinionated, straightforward and have no-little tolerance for disrespect/manipulation, when all they expect is for autistics to be gentle, harmless, “:3 kawaii” creatures.

No bitch. I'm not a pliant, malleable pookie bear. I'm an adult grown-ass man, and if you try to fuck me, i'll fight back.

[dochisworld]

Honestly, why do some people think they are being more morally correct and mature than me when they see me expressing myself by swearing or intensity? 🤨

[disableddyke]

[dochisworld]

It's amazing how most of my anxiety attacks happen at night. Because I know I'm gonna have to be around my aunt without my mother around — ‘cause she’s working —, and the thought makes me sick. She never listens to me when I'm having an attack, she always downplays what I'm feeling, makes it seem like I'm just being dramatic. That I'm just overreacting. That calming myself down is much simpler than she thinks.

I've had to take my mother out of work several times ‘cause of this. Not only is she unable to take care of herself, but she also has to drag others along with her in her misfortune. She thinks I owe her respect because she's older than me for totally unreasonable things, completely forgetting that I'm a human being with opinions and I have every right to ask questions about anything. When all she did my entire life until I realized I had to start standing for myself was disrespect me. And you know what makes this clear? I feel great when I make her feel bad. When I can throw something I've always wanted to say in her face. When she realizes how trashy she is and that she urgently needs a psychologist. How relieved I am that she has to work all day and how much better I felt when I was away from her in another house — just as much as I felt worsier when I had to see her again (involuntarily).

Sorry mom, sorry grandma, sorry cousin. But I can't stand that woman. I want her to die — for real. I’ll never, never, ever have any sympathy for her.

[destielgaysex]

[foreskinniest]

This is what it feels like to be a sensitive young man with a heart of gold in this cruel world

[specks-of-time]

[inkwell-illustrations]

Me in public: (I think I'm doing a good job masking! I'm probably passing off as somewhat neurotypical!)

How I look: