the thing that always gets me about the failed proposal story is how affected daniel is by it. an unfortunate memory, to be sure, and certainly painful at the time, but he did end up marrying alice after all, so they got over whatever supposedly "gave her no reason to trust him" at the time. if anything, there should be some sense of pride there. sure, the 32-year-old daniel molloy was not worth a "yes", but then he earned it, he "fixed" whatever needed fixing. i guess you could argue that the subsequent divorce stacked on top made him feel like the failed proposal was a premonition and a representation of his ultimate failure in the relationship, but it just doesn't feel like it. the memory of paris is what seems to hurt the most. and why is it what hurts the most? why did he feel freer to hold "alice's" hand there? why did armand's face from the past come to him like a vision as he was forced to recall the memory? why does it still almost bring him to tears, so many decades later, having married alice after all? why does it fracture him so easily? why does armand's attitude shift at the same memory? why does he pull "alice's" own feelings in the moment out with such ease? why, why, why...















