Day 1 - 14/06/21. Starting again
I want to be gentle with myself, and also, it’s a Monday! The best day to start something. So I’m setting myself some targets for week one, and I’m going to record my (hopeful!) success at sticking to them over the next 7 days:
I want to slow my brain down. I want to do the things I want to do. I think these two goals will help me achieve that.
Firstly, with no YouTube, I’ll have to opt for slower things: crocheting, reading, writing, dressing up, tidying my damn room, even. I’m finding that YouTube is once again becoming my biggest time-drain, and usually I’m not getting much out of it. I’m definitely addicted to a few social media platforms, but YouTube has the strongest grip on me and is also easily the thing sucking up any productivity from my evenings. Every time I resist the urge to watch a Youtube video, I find myself choosing to do something more productive. So this week, I’m going to attempt to go cold turkey. There are going to be exceptions e.g. anything I need for work. Also, crochet tutorials. But I have my cardigan tutorial presaved in a tab, and a chrome extension to block recommendations, so I think that’s fairly safe. It’s all a matter of self control.
Secondly, I’m choosing to attempt to get 9 hours sleep for a few reasons. Firstly, I haven’t been sleeping so well lately, so it would probably be really good for my body to try and reset. Secondly, it’s a large enough number that I have to actually plan around how I’m going to achieve it. Thirdly, circadian rhythm - I should be aiming for 7.5 or 9 hours every night, really. So I’m going to try and go to sleep at 10-10:30pm every night this week and wake up 7-7:30am.
There are lots of other things I’d like to do, but they’re desires more than requirements. I’d like to try getting back into meditating, and doing a Headspace meditation every day. I’d like to do really well at work and meet my team. I’d like to go out for drinks with friends new and old! I will try to do all these things! But the two goals above will be what I’m really focussing on this week.
Lastly, because even I’m not reading this waffle this far: I want to celebrate all the things I HAVE achieved since March, even though I haven’t recorded them here.
I feel so much more confident at work.
I love my friends and family and do my best to make that clear (yesterday I crocheted with mum on facetime, and then A ran round the garden with me telling me about ants, and it was so lovely! I have a father’s day card for Tom, and I’m organising a surprise party for H’s birthday!)
I have made new friends! I definitely consider some of my work friends friends now e.g. the strawberry coffee break crew, and I went out with my housemates last week and had a genuinely lovely time, and I’m meeting my boyfriend’s brother and another grad this week for drinks! Also, I should be meeting some uni friends later this week <3
I’ve started taking some photos in EGL, and I honestly like them. I’m also going to a meetup in early July!
I’ve lost weight and am eating healthy and feeling pretty fit! (Also, imo, looking pretty fit ayyyy)
The London life is starting to come along<3 (Also, I’m getting my first vaccine next week!)
So... here goes, I guess. I guess I should have added a third requirement: