Bystander

Watching the world as life plays out

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Crumble

I can only imagine what you’re going through For though at times I think my world crumbles It never crumbled the way it just did for you: How can anyone have the strength to get past What you need to get through? To get a call in the middle of a usual day When your mind is oblivious to what can be And be told that he is gone. gone. gone. Your other half, not even 40, forever gone: How will that…

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X Marks The Spot

X Marks The Spot

It was a conversation I wish I never had. A dare against convention I thought was brave and rad. I let you see my future It was a big mistake. A call for you to nurture Became a mess to make. A year into that moment, I’d like to mark the day I chose to be transparent And what you took away.  

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Seething

My emotions are running wild I can’t seem to rein them in. They just flow out my skin Like lava when a volcano erupts. I can see the smoke belching Out my ears and out my nose. My head aches like it’s on fire And ready to explode. My heart is contracting It’s pumping black, not red. I am so mad at you And you don’t even know.

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Don't

Don’t

Don’t just trust people to do right by you on their own. Demand it.  

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Poker Face

You wear your heart out too much, Your emotions a neon show. Is there a way you can hide them? They look so raw. You say you’re being honest You think you’re being just. They get what they see But do they honor your trust? You can’t just open all your cards And let them play as they please. Hold some aces to your heart They deserve much less.

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Onslaught

The letdowns come one after another And at times together As if one will not hurt enough. And the tears. The tears keep falling Like they are your silent screams. The one who set this in motion You trusted him. You know you’ll never forgive.

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The Wrap

I can’t say good riddance, It wouldn’t be fair. We did have nice things That do deserve a cheer. But you were also unkind I couldn’t catch a break. You pounded with letdowns That were a lot to take. So I am glad you are over Please don’t cross the line. I’d like to own this new year The way you should have been mine.

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The Break-up

The heart still breaks Each time I think Of the day you broke it. The wound feels fresh As if it’s only yesterday That you inflicted it. It tears me up to endure Staying as we are, Knowing we are no longer. It drives me nuts Keeping the ties together When we both know We’d rather not.

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Eternally

It was a gesture I didn’t expect A voice coated in kindness. It was a timing no less perfect A light lit up my darkness. I must have done something great To pique your choice interest. I must not be completely beat If your support is in earnest. No matter how tough this journey can be Your act will get me through eventually. No matter where this road takes me I will be grateful to you eternally.

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Surrender

It was a promise You pinned your hopes on. It was a future You knew you owned. But it doesn’t happen Like it’s supposed to. It came crashing down Like a brick on you. So for self-respect You refuse to just take it. And for self-preservation You choose to quit.

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Irrevocably

Second chances Will not come into play Between us this time. We’ve crossed a line That will never let us Cross back. Faith and respect Can never be restored The way they were last. The betrayal was reeling – Even time will not dare Heal it. The bond we built Has become a waste – It shattered into pieces. Our ties are cut completely We might as well Be strangers.

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Alternative Reality

It’s the kind of world Where you can be bold, To call the shots Or drop the ball Without a care For repercussions. It’s the state of being Where you can be whole, To reign in the hurt Or not feel the hate Like your heart Is at a breaking point. It’s the form of escape Where you can be free, To live without worry Or love truly and fully As if life is not Your current reality.

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Let You Go

The moment he made that decision, He already chose to let you go – Shut the door in your face, With a loud, “To hell with you!” You knew it was coming, You understood why it came. Knowing does not make it right, however, And the pain not any less. But what can’t kill you Can only make you stronger. What can bring you down Can also take you higher.

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Tease

It appeared like a star In a very dark night. It promised like a god That you will be all right. It lured you like a temptress To a place you’ve never been. It stirred you to a restlessness Such as one you’ve never seen. It warmed you up to a vision Where you live your heart’s desires. It then left you disillusioned When it vanished as you caught fire.

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Keep In Line

For some reason you found The bravado to defy the rules. And so you wandered far, And lost yourself. The liberty you tasted Was the kind that intoxicates. You thought of no consequence To the choices you made. But such a life does not last The universe will demand a price. And its payback is the kind That will take you back in line.

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Broken

You walk around Like all’s well with the world – Your world. Life goes on Even if deep inside You wonder if it should. You keep about Despite that gaping hole In your heart. The piece that persistent Unkindness Tore apart. You tried hard To rise above the struggles And the pain. Life goes on Until it does Not. Inspiration – 13 Reasons Why 1

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