DONNIE HOLLOW

Bipolar eating disordered loser

[diaryofaborderlineman]

“I have thoughts in my head that can never be spoken.”

They’re destroying me

[everythingfox]

Just a casual fox laying on a bed

Juniper’s Instagram

[angelicimpurity]

Paint me like one of your french foxes.

[everythingfox]

Kekekeke *fox laugh*

Photo by Louise Beech

[serious]

[donniehollow]

2 weeks ago, I was in a terrible depressive episode. I wanted to die and couldn't see a way out. Last week, I placed a deposit on a shiba. We pick her up tomorrow.

Hello mania.

[starlight-ana]

perks of being underweight

- tiny wrists, delicate hands

- no periods! ever!

- feeling dainty next to your s/o; everyone says you’re the perfect couple

- slender legs that go on for days

- a jawline as sharp as a knife

- not hating what you see in the mirror

- being cold all the time, looking thin even under layers of sweaters and scarves

- drier, clearer skin, no more excess oil

- falling asleep so easily, being exhausted at the end of the day

- when people hug you, they often comment on how they can feel your bones

- knowing that all this is your reward for being so determined, so dedicated to weight loss

- finally being comfortable in your own skin!!!

[realityofana]

[daintydiarist]

proana is a LIE

[skinnyfreak12]

Cold hard truth but sadly I seem to bypass all these worries and still continue…

[fragilesadness]

This version is better than the first one

[vitamin-death]

[danaranicole]

don’t let people tell you that you are childish or immature if you have bpd.

bpd is a cluster b personality disorder and it’s just as dark and lonely and scary as the other cluster b’s

this disorder kills people

[memes-to-show-my-therapist]

[catrasavedme]

I’m so tired of having disorders that you cant treat and just play and endless game of symptom whackamole

[ichor-suggestion]

do you still hear the stars?

[donniehollow]

I'm just so tired

People who glamorize mental illness don't have a fucking clue who would want this shit

Numb. Can't sleep. Can't eat.

Existing not living.

[burning-it-away]

[mmeliora-deactivated20231108]

[lovetragic]

[donniehollow]

I really don't know if I'm paranoid but every time you do something I think it's aimed at me 🙃

[feministism]

you are always worthy

[bpd--daisy-blog]

That’s why I started restricting. I was in an abusive relationship where I wasn’t allowed to take up space, but especially emotional space. I wasn’t allowed to ask for anything, but especially not attention of any kind. Any space I took up, or anything I asked for, was “too much.” I was “too much.” So I had to make myself smaller. I lost 50 pounds in 6 months. I went days without eating, my only calories coming from vodka. I always tried to make it to 100 hours, that was my perfect number. I became underweight. And no matter how small I became, I was still “too much.” She said I was selfish for having an eating disorder. I was not worth it to abuse anymore. I became too difficult because no matter how much I drank, no matter how much I didn’t eat, no matter how much I cut myself, I still had a hard time accepting the abuse. At the time it made me hate myself severely, like why couldn’t I just be better. Then the abuse would finally stop, wouldn’t it? If I stopped needing anything. If I was finally not “too much.” I was discarded when it was not worth it to abuse me anymore but they still took my money and abused me until I gave in and gave it to them. I could never make myself small enough, ever. But I survived. And eventually, I found someone who did not think I was “too much.” Someone who encourages me to eat when I’m hungry. Someone who does not starve me of affection and demand I pay them for that. I found someone who doesn’t hurt me on purpose and make me apologize for that. I made it out alive.