Let’s take a closer look at this endgame screenshot:
In this photo Steve has came to visit Natasha and he’s entered just after she got off a call with Rhodes, Carol etc and the call was about tracking bc down Clint and keeping the earth in check. It resulted in no progress and Natasha Romanoff having a little break down.
The most perhaps obvious thing are her ballerina shoes. In the Red Room where she was trained, dancing was a daily routine and it taught her how to fight aswell as dance. This could be a soothing technique or simply her mind going to a darker place.
The next not so obvious picture included what appears to be a small cylinder which usually contain tablets. These could be anti-depressants, paracetamol or sleeping pills. Who knows.
This shows what looks like a few large sheets of paper with unclear sketches on them. People can draw or write to release their anger or sadness. Could this be her way of self help?
Linking back to the tablets screenshot, you can see a light sheet draped over a couch at the back of the room. She could be sleeping in her office or have someone crashing over but she’s most likely sleeping on the couch and probably up all night and day.
In this screenshot there is a coat or blanket draped over the chair besides her. This could be Natashas and she could’ve been cold or lonely and having a coat or blanket here suggests she’s been sleeping at her desk.
At the last one we can see another pill tube. This could be empty or she could be having it with her peanut butter sandwich. Next to it looks like a beer bottle which we know she drinks from the party scene is Age Of Ultron, it could also be a range of other things.
In conclusion Natasha clearly is a lonely woman and is doing her best to hide it from here friends and family that are left. In that short video we see her chin tremble and her smile fade. We see her break down shortly in the scene. Unfortunately she then sacrifices her life for the soul stone. She did this because Clint had a family. However it has been actioned out that we know she thinks she doesn’t deserve love or happiness and perhaps this was her easy way out.
Whatever happens she will always be a hero.
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