my opinions matter to me

who cares if they don't matter to you

[dootdootskelle]

I'm mad. And I just need someone to validate this anger.

Im mad that I'm not skinny

I'm mad that Walmart won't process a return for an order I never received bc it's out of the window but they told me to wait and then now won't process the order. Fuck those guys

I'm mad I can't afford a house bc boomers suck.

I'm mad bc it feels like everything is corrupt as fuck so I'll never actually be able to get ahead.

I hate rich ppl that are greedy

I hate that I feel like corporate America is basically modern day serfdom. Like when is the French rev part 2?

I hate that I'm not rich. I just want money.

I hate rich ppl who are like you gotta earn your money when they were just born rich. I want to be entitled too!

I just want to do things that make me happy not for money but for happiness.

And I hate that I feel stuck in my life

[luntfontanne]

everything is truly so terrible but i just remembered doreen ketchens playing clarinet for her infant grandson and then i was kind of okay again for 36 seconds

[1xtralmillz-deactivated20250209]

I have to reblog this when it comes back around.

[walerihq]

[gsweazel]

a new knight :)))

blue gouache wash and black India ink

[accessible-art]

[ID: a semi-realistic painting of a knight in full plate. they are in profile, and they hold a curling flowering plant painted to look flat like a book illustration. this is on a black background and done in blues and greys. /End ID]

[alenseress]

"I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from Perdition"

or whatever gay people say

[pbeeanjay]

fish out of water

[averyoddfishindeed]

This is like...transcendental. Goddamn

[dootdootskelle]

How do I get a print of this?

[shanesloverboy]

Book accurate season two

[leupagus]

by Resonant

I haven’t read this essay in… twelve years? I think? But someone (ETA: that someone was @whetherwoman who deserves the credit) linked it today and rereading it was a) a treat and b) honestly really helpful. If you, like me, want to write smut but often find it difficult, this essay may help a LOT.

[leupagus]

Reblogging this as I periodically do because it’s still relevant (especially with so many new writers coming into fandom spaces who are SO ENTHUSIASTIC but maybe need some pointers?) and because I myself need the reminder. Wherever you are, Res, I hope you’re doing great.

[petymology]

yay! Thanks, @leupagus !

The tips are on ao3 now, and I’m Res but on tumblr.

How To Write a Sex Scene (2619 words) by Resonant Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Original Work Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Additional Tags: Meta, Don’t copy to another site, Writing Summary: Four tips for creating better sex scenes in erotic romance.

[leupagus]

omg

[weewoo911]

Loads of Hollanov fics have them getting walked in on while making out etc which is great

But I’d love a fic where one or both of Shane’s parents drop by the cottage for phone charger/laundry pod reasons and find Shane snuggled on the couch fast asleep on Ilya’s chest and that’s how they find out

They’re dressed in soft casual clothes, sleeping like the dead and wrapped around each other like vines and Ilya’s hand is in Shane’s hair and Shane looks so so comfortable and relaxed

Meanwhile his parents are staring slack-jawed at the sight of their son using his archenemy the Russian Rage Machine as a teddybear/pillow

[pastabot]

today is not my birthday

[pastabot]

reblog if your birthday is not today

[giveemhales]

Criminally Underrated Hollanov Fics

I’ve seen some other people make similar lists and wanted to share some of my fav Hollanov fics that deserve more love! So here are 10 fics with under 10k hits and under 100 comments. Also I tried to tag authors if they have a tumblr but pls lmk if I missed anyone! Please check these fics out and remember to leave a comment if you enjoy ❤️ I have so many more hidden gems so i will do a part 2 if ppl enjoy this list!

Wooing One Ilya Rozanov (On Shane’s Behalf) by @aftgst (2.8k, T) - jj realizes shane has a crush on ilya and makes a plan to wingman him. i love this concept so much, supportive jj ftw

Black Tie Optional by @proseandpulse (3k, G) - shane admits to ilya he almost wore a suit their first night together. tooth-rotting fluff!

put me under by prismpearl (4.5k, T, locked) - soft dom ilya taking care of an exhausted shane with non-sexual submission. so soft and gooey

all of our midnights by @jswander (4.5k, E) - ember and ice crossover. finn and dane appear in shane and ilya’s world. where my fellow E&I lovers at?? not sure if it will make sense w/o listening to the audiobooks, but i personally cannot get enough of this au

Always Meet Your Heroes by @find-me-in-the-ivy (5k, M) - pov of a russian rookie on the metros during the first ottawa v montreal grudge match since shane joined the centuars. love this oc and love how protective and sweet ilya/ the centaurs are

Been So Long Since He Called Your Name by @goldenraeofsun (7k, M) - after ilya’s plane crashed and he had to survive in the woods, he reunites with shane at the cottage, but shane is acting very weird… fic is a lot less depressing than the tags make it sound and is actually very sweet! (I think this actually just hit 10k hits but shhhh)

go walk into your dawn by @astronomical-fog (9.9k, T) - ilya invites cliff over to tell him he’s moving to ottawa. usually read cliff as a silly character so this is a very nice exploration of cliff having genuine emotions about his bestie and captain leaving the team and revealing a massive secret.

Enough by @complicatedsquishy (25k, T, locked) - shane is worried he’s not a good omega for ilya and tries to fix himself, not realizing just how distressing that is for ilya. love fics where shane gets to be a non-traditional omega, and this one is special bc he doesn’t hate his gender, he’s just worried about how ilya will feel

things that go bump in the night by orangemoons (29k, M) - shane hunts feral vampires, ilya is a vampire who sometimes swoops in to help, and they can’t stop sleeping together. but there are greater forces than they realize trying to keep them apart. honestly i went a little feral over this fic. the plot is so juicy and i am flabbergasted it isn’t more popular, this fandom is sleeping on supernatural aus!! (heed the tags, this does get dark at parts)

Compromised by @ggfj84 (30k, M) - shane is a secret agent captured by the russian mafia and ilya is tasked with extracting info from him. this is complicated by the fact they are in a relationship and in love. intrigue! suspense! plot twists! this fic kept me on the edge of my seat (heed the tags)

Happy reading ❤️

[toasted-rivalry]

A ‘Bears walk in to Ilya’s house and see him napping with Shane AU’ where Ilya somehow manages to still keep Shane’s identity a secret.

Ilya always had been a light sleeper, so no matter how lightly they stepped he was awake moments after the first shocked gasp.

Ilya knows it’s over for him. There’s no mistaking that there’s a man asleep on his chest in a clearly non-platonic cuddle. Usually Ilya would be punching the intruder, threatening violence to try and ensure they kept their mouth shut but he has quickly realised something far more important. With the way they are sleeping, Ilya on his underneath on his back and Shane on his stomach on top with his face pressed into the gap between Ilya’s neck and the couch, they can’t see his face.

He quickly pulls Shane’s hood up over his head to hide hair and rests a hand over it to gently discourage Shane from moving it should he start to wake up.

So Ilya just stares down his team and goes “you can be upset, but are going to be fucking quiet about it because if you wake my guest I’m sending all my blackmail on you to your wives, and then start fucking them to help them get over the divorce.”

So the whole “You’re fucking gay!” “No, I’m a fucking bi who is fucking a gay” conversation happens at a furious whisper, with Shane blissfully sleeping on Ilya’s chest as life implodes around him.

Shane may be a deep sleeper - and the argument in whispers - but even he starts to stir at the noise.

Ilya can’t have him moving his face into visibility now, so he just scruffs the back of his neck harshly and pressed him deeper into his shoulder.

Shane lets out a pleased (and not at all quiet) moan, and - worried that he is going to start talking - Ilya realises he needs to shut him up.

So he glares at the Bears to be quiet, while suddenly putting on the softest voice they have ever heard him use as he goes, “shhh quiet time now mоя любовь. Back to sleep.” And then shoves his fingers into Shane’s mouth.

When the Bears leave soon after, some of them have LEARNT some things about themselves. But crucially, none of them have learnt who their captain is fucking.

[paramar]

The Animals - House of the Rising Sun (1964)

Silver Jews - New Orleans (1994)

wdhmbt’s tumblr post (undated)

[mesopelagos]

there are at least three houses in new orleans

[solarsyrup]

[dootdootskelle]

Question for the cis women out here, do you guys also think about how much you want a penis sometimes? Like is that normal? I think at least once in my life I want to cum like a man. But idk is that a trans thought? Or like I am bi and I watch a lot of of male pov porn so I think I want a penis??? Like sometimes I think I read all this gay fanfiction bc I want to be a gay man? Like I wanna fuck but also get fucked? Actually okay I think I'm just really queer. If someone could confirm that with a second opinion it would really help a gal?¿ out. Lol. I crack myself up. But I'm also having gay panic now so send troops

[dootdootskelle]

In case anyone out there is listening. I am still waiting for the next chapter/content dump of Wolfbird. And I yearn for Shane and ilyas love. I haven't forgotten and I check the fic at least once a week patiently waiting for the next chapter. Dear Opal Apparition, I will consume my weight in toasted sesame bagels and dip them in red sauce even tho I am from New Jersey and tearing a bagel and dipping it in anything is low-key sacrilege lol. Guess I'll have to dishonor my ancestors to feel closer to my favorite fic.

[bleu-blanc-rouge]

I have no one to share this with,

Anyways here’s my top 10 nhl gif’s / photos.. .𖥔 ݁ ˖

( that I’ve recently been collecting )

[dootdootskelle]

I'm feeling rage. I was just reading a fanfic while I'm waiting to fill the hole that wolfbird has left in my heart and it made no sense and there are lines that are repetitive and like confusing and at some point I realized it was ai. And what I'm deeply struggling with is that people were out here saying that wolfbird was ai? Bc you read it and just know a real person wrote it with genuine feelings and emotions and it makes sense and oppal-apparition is so intentional with how they build in plot points.

Also FUCK ai written fics. But I know that wolfbird is real and I miss it. That's all maybe I'm not angry maybe I'm just sad