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I'm sorry I always do things wrong and mess everything up

not to b #depressin but my entire life is becoming just a huge blur n i honestly cannot remember like literally…anything for shit lmao

#honestly #dissociated

[child of rage, a story of abuse]

#child of rage #cptsd #cocsa #actually abused #actually traumatized #actually ptsd #actually bpd #tw child abuse

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#tbpdfw #borderline #bpd

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If my mom calls me crying again I’m literally going to kill myself. She constantly expects me to take care of my sisters AND her!!!! She’s always depressed and crying so she can’t take care of business and I have to do it. (Mind you, I’m only 19 and VERY unstable mentally) but I have to keep this house together while I’m secretly falling apart I can’t take it I really can’t take it much longer!!!!! I’m struggling so badly and I can’t tell my mom because she’ll just start crying again and my sisters don’t help I’m ready to die. I can’t seek help or treatment because who will take care of things???not my mom that’s who.

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Update: my mom came home crying to me and expects me to fix everything She's acting like I'm her mother and she's a small child. I know this sounds dramatic but I'm literally SO close to running away and killing myself.

#tw suicide plans #tw suicidal

If my mom calls me crying again I'm literally going to kill myself. She constantly expects me to take care of my sisters AND her!!!! She's always depressed and crying so she can't take care of business and I have to do it. (Mind you, I'm only 19 and VERY unstable mentally) but I have to keep this house together while I'm secretly falling apart I can't take it I really can't take it much longer!!!!! I'm struggling so badly and I can't tell my mom because she'll just start crying again and my sisters don't help I'm ready to die. I can't seek help or treatment because who will take care of things???not my mom that's who.

#tw suicide #tw suicide plans #unstable #mentally unstable #ptsd #cptsd #bpd #tbpdfw #actually traumatized #actually ptsd #actually mentally ill

Every time I do this I end up feeling more hurt than before. I want you to leave me alone forever but once you try to, I always beg you to come back. Why do I keep going in circles?