I have been looking at these transits for soo long because I am in my Jupiters return right now, which is only once every 12 years. Currently t squaring my sun for what feels like forever. I was so curious what would be happening right now…now that it’s happening I understand.
It is true that I am having a glow up
It is true I am growing career wise and al literally at work right now
But the primary thing happening is that I’m feeling like shit and being put through a heart wrenching situation that is forcibly making me acknowledge my worth. Not just acknowledge but forcing me to act in alignment with it. A lot of lessons around “self respect”…but I always had this understanding and internal self respect I guess just implementing it or externalizing it has been hard. But this is excruciating. This jupiter return opposing Pluto…I am literally working today but barely wanted to show up. Unhappy, a lot of attitude. Depressed and feeling like shit. Even though I genuinely like what I do. I miss coming and reading cards for people when I’m not doing it.
It is very validating and giving me a sense of purpose where I am otherwise kind of feeling worthless.
As much as I want to see into the future right now, all answers are being blocked. And I understand why and I know why and I can’t help it anyway. I’m trying to bypass and get ahead of myself. There is a major transition and turning point happening and I just want it to be over and see what happens next. But it’s not going to work like that. I have to cook in the misery. I have to process. The other people involved too. Time needs to pass, space, evolution, before the next part is revealed. I KNOW it’s not time yet and yet I keep searching for answers to quell my agony.