Like I promised, all selected works I announced on this post have been deleted.
There are 7 remaining works, with 6 completed, and one unfinished work recently published in October, 2021. I’m considering that part of this “new chapter” phase of my fanfic authorship. Though calling it an “authorship” seems kind of pretentious at this point…
Anyway. Thank you for understanding and being so supportive. The response has been full of kindness, patience, and gratitude that feels undeserved. Fanfic writers everywhere are lucky to have readers like you.
If you’re interested in the future of this blog, my AO3 account, and more to potentially come your way, read on…
Like I promised, all selected works I announced on this post have been deleted.
There are 7 remaining works, with 6 completed, and one unfinished work recently published in October, 2021. I’m considering that part of this “new chapter” phase of my fanfic authorship. Though calling it an “authorship” seems kind of pretentious at this point…
Anyway. Thank you for understanding and being so supportive. The response has been full of kindness, patience, and gratitude that feels undeserved. Fanfic writers everywhere are lucky to have readers like you.
If you’re interested in the future of this blog, my AO3 account, and more to potentially come your way, read on…
Like I promised, all selected works I announced on this post have been deleted.
There are 7 remaining works, with 6 completed, and one unfinished work recently published in October, 2021. I’m considering that part of this “new chapter” phase of my fanfic authorship. Though calling it an “authorship” seems kind of pretentious at this point...
Anyway. Thank you for understanding and being so supportive. The response has been full of kindness, patience, and gratitude that feels undeserved. Fanfic writers everywhere are lucky to have readers like you.
If you’re interested in the future of this blog, my AO3 account, and more to potentially come your way, read on...
I’ll be changing my AO3 author name and Tumblr username.
This one has been sort of a long-time coming. I’ve thought of a few names, but nothing has stuck as of yet. When that comes, I’ll announce what my new username will be on Tumblr, so that anyone who follows me knows that the name will change 24 hours after that.
The first new fanfic I will publish under this new name and phase will be a BakuDeku story.
The first chapter will be posted in September. I’ll be doing a week of announcements and plenty of teasers all throughout August regarding the summary, plot, etc. The outline is near-complete, and the story itself will end up around 20 chapters.
There will be an established publishing schedule to stay consistent.
I haven’t decided yet if it will be a one week or two week turnaround. It all depends on my work schedule, my personal life, and my original writing projects. I’ll have a better idea when the time comes.
Yes, there will be one fic I work on at a time. This will prevent the issue of impulsively publishing fics that I love that get a lot of attention, but end up never finishing.
I will only be working on one fic at a time.
This is part of me learning how to handle my mental illness more responsibly so I can better respect your expectations as a reader. I hope you can understand.
So when that new fic is published in September, I will focus solely on that until it’s completed.
I may start a Patreon account.
BUT ONLY IF... readers (both old and new) are interested in this.
This is by absolutely no means a requirement. This is only if people are interested in a concept like a private Discord server (to ask questions about fics, chat, share ideas, etc.), a view into chapters a week before they publish (depending on the schedule), or anything else that may come as exclusive.
I’m not even sure if I’ll do this, yet. Was just an idea that might be fun if readers want to feel a part of a community. We will see.
Let me know if this is of interest. If not, I’ll sweep it under the rug and never bring it up again.
I’ll be way more active on Tumblr to answer questions, talk to new readers, engage with communities I’ve left for a long time, etc.
I’m still very much a fandom loner, but I want to be more open in engaging in conversations if that’s something of interest.
Want to say another thank you.
To the readers, writers, and celebrators of storytelling who have not only supported me, but anyone else who has chosen to go through these tough decisions and are deciding to reinvent themselves for a new chapter.
I want to write better for you, and deliver stories that you deserve.
It has been painfully long since we have spoken, but I want you to know that I still think of you often and wonder how the years have treated you and your incredible creativity. I am glad to hear that you are still writing and honing your skills!
I have followed your fan works long enough to have an idea of what an intense perfectionist you are, so this announcement for me does not come as much of a shock. I want to say a huge, "Thank you!!" however, for the ample warning period. I visit Tumblr rarely these days, and I very nearly missed seeing your post entirely. Thankfully, I saw it in time and was able to download everything last night.
Your writing is still very special and nostalgic to me. Even if I do not end up rereading your old fics at this time, I know I would deeply regret it if the ability to revisit them was lost to me forever. I am uncertain if your announcement should be interpreted to mean that you are considering a return to the fandom front, but even if you choose not to return, know that you always have my respect and support for whatever future endeavors you choose to pursue.
All the best!
~Tasarë
Hey Tasare. Good to hear from you, and yes it has been awhile. Thanks for sending this kind message. Pretty sure you followed me from Fanfiction.net back in the day, too.
That's some wild dedication, haha.
I'm glad you were able to download anything you may feel nostalgic about or want to read eventually.
Your support has always been appreciated beyond measure.
If not (or you’ve simply moved on) feel free to go on ahead and pretend you never saw this.
But, to the rest of you – and in “you” I’m addressing every single one of the wonderful, kind people who’ve reached out to me in private messages and/or have read and reviewed my fics on AO3…
I’m starting over.
As in, almost every single one of my fics across all fandoms will be permanently deleted in one week’s time.
The only fics I’m keeping up on my profile are Wayward Souls (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon), a drop of rosewater (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon) Before Midnight (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku), Shadow of the Day (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku), When the Sun Falls (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon), and the most recently published work Fragile (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku).
This has been a huge burden on my shoulders and this decision in particular has been painful to think about.
The last thing I want to do is cause disappointment, pain, annoyance, hurt, etc. over deleting these stories. If this is the case for you, I’m so, so sorry.
Even then… this is what I need to do. Selfishly.
I’m simply not the same writer anymore.
I can’t write when I’m perpetually unhappy and loathing what I created years ago, in a different space, different mind, and different time.
I’m not happy with the works I’m about to delete. Years have passed, and I have been utterly silent without an update in sight for these fics. I would rather get rid of them than leave false hope in the air.
All that being said…
I want to make it clear that if any of you want to keep these fics around in your lives, I’m giving you until next Sunday (July 25th) to download each fic as a PDF. That way, you’ll have it in your possession for as long as you want after I delete it from my AO3.
I also may be changing my author name soon.
I’m giving this another go, with an open mind, new ideas, and at a point in my personal life that allows breathing room for this space.
If you’re angry, upset, or simply don’t care, I more than understand.
Your feelings are valid just as they always have been. Please understand that every single one of you are appreciated, adored, and treasured beyond measure. It doesn’t matter to me if you’ll swear to never read anything from me again; I’m so grateful that you’ve been around at all.
A firmer reminder: on next Sunday, July 25th, all of my fics except for the ones selected above will be deleted permanently.
LAST DAY to download any fic I’ve written you want before they’re gone forever. I’ll be taking the ones I’ve mentioned above down permanently on 12:00 PM PST on Sunday, July 25th.
If not (or you’ve simply moved on) feel free to go on ahead and pretend you never saw this.
But, to the rest of you – and in “you” I’m addressing every single one of the wonderful, kind people who’ve reached out to me in private messages and/or have read and reviewed my fics on AO3…
I’m starting over.
As in, almost every single one of my fics across all fandoms will be permanently deleted in one week’s time.
The only fics I’m keeping up on my profile are Wayward Souls (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon), a drop of rosewater (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon) Before Midnight (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku), Shadow of the Day (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku), When the Sun Falls (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon), and the most recently published work Fragile (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku).
This has been a huge burden on my shoulders and this decision in particular has been painful to think about.
The last thing I want to do is cause disappointment, pain, annoyance, hurt, etc. over deleting these stories. If this is the case for you, I’m so, so sorry.
Even then… this is what I need to do. Selfishly.
I’m simply not the same writer anymore.
I can’t write when I’m perpetually unhappy and loathing what I created years ago, in a different space, different mind, and different time.
I’m not happy with the works I’m about to delete. Years have passed, and I have been utterly silent without an update in sight for these fics. I would rather get rid of them than leave false hope in the air.
All that being said…
I want to make it clear that if any of you want to keep these fics around in your lives, I’m giving you until next Sunday (July 25th) to download each fic as a PDF. That way, you’ll have it in your possession for as long as you want after I delete it from my AO3.
I also may be changing my author name soon.
I’m giving this another go, with an open mind, new ideas, and at a point in my personal life that allows breathing room for this space.
If you’re angry, upset, or simply don’t care, I more than understand.
Your feelings are valid just as they always have been. Please understand that every single one of you are appreciated, adored, and treasured beyond measure. It doesn’t matter to me if you’ll swear to never read anything from me again; I’m so grateful that you’ve been around at all.
A firmer reminder: on next Sunday, July 25th, all of my fics except for the ones selected above will be deleted permanently.
OK I’m logging off once more until people stop defending book piracy in my mentions and inbox because it’s 4572495824 degrees celsius today and I need to expend that energy on sweating
The audacity and entitlement of some people to demand and acquire free entertainment from professional writers and pirating their books instead of paying them for hours and hours and HOURS of writing, editing, deleting, rewriting, and so forth is absolutely shameful.
If you feel entitled to someone’s art (from a creator who is explicitly selling their work and not offering it for free) and that they shouldn’t make money from their blood, sweat, and tears... shame on you.
The backlash @teashoesandhair has likely received from this is outlandish and awful.
If not (or you’ve simply moved on) feel free to go on ahead and pretend you never saw this.
But, to the rest of you – and in “you” I’m addressing every single one of the wonderful, kind people who’ve reached out to me in private messages and/or have read and reviewed my fics on AO3…
I’m starting over.
As in, almost every single one of my fics across all fandoms will be permanently deleted in one week’s time.
The only fics I’m keeping up on my profile are Wayward Souls (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon), a drop of rosewater (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon) Before Midnight (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku), Shadow of the Day (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku), When the Sun Falls (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon), and the most recently published work Fragile (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku).
This has been a huge burden on my shoulders and this decision in particular has been painful to think about.
The last thing I want to do is cause disappointment, pain, annoyance, hurt, etc. over deleting these stories. If this is the case for you, I’m so, so sorry.
Even then… this is what I need to do. Selfishly.
I’m simply not the same writer anymore.
I can’t write when I’m perpetually unhappy and loathing what I created years ago, in a different space, different mind, and different time.
I’m not happy with the works I’m about to delete. Years have passed, and I have been utterly silent without an update in sight for these fics. I would rather get rid of them than leave false hope in the air.
All that being said…
I want to make it clear that if any of you want to keep these fics around in your lives, I’m giving you until next Sunday (July 25th) to download each fic as a PDF. That way, you’ll have it in your possession for as long as you want after I delete it from my AO3.
I also may be changing my author name soon.
I’m giving this another go, with an open mind, new ideas, and at a point in my personal life that allows breathing room for this space.
If you’re angry, upset, or simply don’t care, I more than understand.
Your feelings are valid just as they always have been. Please understand that every single one of you are appreciated, adored, and treasured beyond measure. It doesn’t matter to me if you’ll swear to never read anything from me again; I’m so grateful that you’ve been around at all.
A firmer reminder: on next Sunday, July 25th, all of my fics except for the ones selected above will be deleted permanently.
If not (or you’ve simply moved on) feel free to go on ahead and pretend you never saw this.
But, to the rest of you – and in “you” I’m addressing every single one of the wonderful, kind people who’ve reached out to me in private messages and/or have read and reviewed my fics on AO3…
I’m starting over.
As in, almost every single one of my fics across all fandoms will be permanently deleted in one week’s time.
The only fics I’m keeping up on my profile are Wayward Souls (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon), a drop of rosewater (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon) Before Midnight (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku), Shadow of the Day (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku), When the Sun Falls (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon), and the most recently published work Fragile (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku).
This has been a huge burden on my shoulders and this decision in particular has been painful to think about.
The last thing I want to do is cause disappointment, pain, annoyance, hurt, etc. over deleting these stories. If this is the case for you, I’m so, so sorry.
Even then… this is what I need to do. Selfishly.
I’m simply not the same writer anymore.
I can’t write when I’m perpetually unhappy and loathing what I created years ago, in a different space, different mind, and different time.
I’m not happy with the works I’m about to delete. Years have passed, and I have been utterly silent without an update in sight for these fics. I would rather get rid of them than leave false hope in the air.
All that being said…
I want to make it clear that if any of you want to keep these fics around in your lives, I’m giving you until next Sunday (July 25th) to download each fic as a PDF. That way, you’ll have it in your possession for as long as you want after I delete it from my AO3.
I also may be changing my author name soon.
I’m giving this another go, with an open mind, new ideas, and at a point in my personal life that allows breathing room for this space.
If you’re angry, upset, or simply don’t care, I more than understand.
Your feelings are valid just as they always have been. Please understand that every single one of you are appreciated, adored, and treasured beyond measure. It doesn’t matter to me if you’ll swear to never read anything from me again; I’m so grateful that you’ve been around at all.
A firmer reminder: on next Sunday, July 25th, all of my fics except for the ones selected above will be deleted permanently.
I'm the anon who reread before midnight and thought it was going away. I'm so happy to hear it's staying! I wasn't going to save it bc it's never really been my thing to do so I was just going to keep the memories haha. I hope you have been well and wish you the best in your new works! 💞
If not (or you’ve simply moved on) feel free to go on ahead and pretend you never saw this.
But, to the rest of you – and in “you” I’m addressing every single one of the wonderful, kind people who’ve reached out to me in private messages and/or have read and reviewed my fics on AO3…
I’m starting over.
As in, almost every single one of my fics across all fandoms will be permanently deleted in one week’s time.
The only fics I’m keeping up on my profile are Wayward Souls (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon), a drop of rosewater (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon) Before Midnight (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku), Shadow of the Day (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku), When the Sun Falls (Hunter x Hunter | KilluGon), and the most recently published work Fragile (My Hero Academia | BakuDeku).
This has been a huge burden on my shoulders and this decision in particular has been painful to think about.
The last thing I want to do is cause disappointment, pain, annoyance, hurt, etc. over deleting these stories. If this is the case for you, I’m so, so sorry.
Even then… this is what I need to do. Selfishly.
I’m simply not the same writer anymore.
I can’t write when I’m perpetually unhappy and loathing what I created years ago, in a different space, different mind, and different time.
I’m not happy with the works I’m about to delete. Years have passed, and I have been utterly silent without an update in sight for these fics. I would rather get rid of them than leave false hope in the air.
All that being said…
I want to make it clear that if any of you want to keep these fics around in your lives, I’m giving you until next Sunday (July 25th) to download each fic as a PDF. That way, you’ll have it in your possession for as long as you want after I delete it from my AO3.
I also may be changing my author name soon.
I’m giving this another go, with an open mind, new ideas, and at a point in my personal life that allows breathing room for this space.
If you’re angry, upset, or simply don’t care, I more than understand.
Your feelings are valid just as they always have been. Please understand that every single one of you are appreciated, adored, and treasured beyond measure. It doesn’t matter to me if you’ll swear to never read anything from me again; I’m so grateful that you’ve been around at all.
A firmer reminder: on next Sunday, July 25th, all of my fics except for the ones selected above will be deleted permanently.
Hello! It was by a stroke of luck that I am rereading before midnight before its gone lol. I wanted to tell you how amazing the characterizations are and how great your writing is. I'm amazed how I got so invested in your au and wanted to thank you for fic and beautiful writing. I'll miss this fic dearly but I'm excited to see what you have in store for new stuff!
Hey there Anon...
I'm actually keeping Before Midnight. I decided to keep some of my completed fics (which were only two multichapter ones, and a few oneshots), so that one will actually still be up there.
I thought that, keeping my personal feelings for it aside, it would be silly to remove a fic that still accomplished many milestones and is easily the most widely-read work I've ever published. I think taking that one down would lead to riots.
Thank you for your unbelievably kind words! I'm glad you're enjoying it enough to even reread it. That blows my mind.
I agree with shawn! I don't know you personally, but I know that the decision you made had to be an extremely tough one. I'll be sad to part with the mentioned fics, but the fact that you gave me (and other readers as well) to STILL save them as pdfs, regardless of your feelings about them, is just. so kind of you. like genuinely thank you. I can't wait to see where you'll take this new slate :)
Anon, thank you for the kind words, and for understanding so graciously. I'm just glad that people are happy with downloading them and keeping them after they're gone from the site.
You're thanking me? *rolls* I want to thank YOU a million times over for being part of the amazing community of readers that have supported my work for years. Without you guys, none of them would've been written, shared, talked about, etc.
I'm eternally grateful for you, and people like you.
Hey dear! You’re going to have no idea who this is. It is most DEFINITELY not Shawn.
Just want to say that I just caught up on your asks and finally got a chance to read the post that’s been eating at you a while (not that I would know anything about that), and I just wanted to express bow proud of you I am.
Every single day, you continue to amaze me in how much you grow as a person, and push to achieve your goals. If anyone on this site needs inspiration on how to better themselves, this lovely human right here, and my best friend, is a prime example of who you should look up to. In everything you do, you work so hard to be the best that you can be.
I know making that post wasn’t easy, and with a fic following like yours, it was probably downright terrifying. But you did it anyway, and the fact that you’re even giving people the chance to download them before you do is something that shows just how kind you are. We’re all blessed to have such a talented writer in the HxH and BnHA world. Love ya dear ❤️
You asshole, you made me tear up like a little bitch. This was actually completely unexpected. Thank you, Shawn. I don’t even know what to say to this. You’ve been my biggest support system since we met, four years ago, now. I wouldn’t be here at all without you. I wouldn’t have the courage or desire to pursue this again without your influence.
Realizing now that the people who may be reading this have no idea the support system I’ve had in just one person.
For those of you who don’t know, this one right here has the power of one million people in terms of emotional, mental, and soul-driven support. He provides that feeling for so many, and it’s a privilege that he exists.
So lucky to call you my best friend. Thank you for this, Shawn. This was the best thing to read before turning in.
Hello, I just wanted to drop in and say that I really love your work! Reading them was very enjoyable and I wanted to thank you for sharing them. I was also wondering, will you continue writing for the same fandoms/ships after you delete your current fics?
Hey Anon. Thank you for the kind message. ❤️And yes, I will be. :) BakuDeku, DabiDeku and KilluGon are pretty much the only ships I care to write about.
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