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[ojibwa]

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Running my tongue over the empty spot over and over and over

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Hi I'm fine but I also want to go over every detail of the horrible things that happened and also the fact that it was so horrible has set a precedent for the way I receive new input and handle feelings now idk

[babeandbegone]

I could be hornier (threat)

[homunculus-argument]

I'm not a "will help, no questions asked" kind of friend. Because I will ask questions. I'm just not gonna question your answers. Like yeah if we're friends I can help you get rid of a body, no problem, but I still want to know who it was and what happened. Not because I don't trust that you'd kill someone who didn't need killing or would help someone you shouldn't be helping - we wouldn't be friends in the first place if I didn't know you well enough to trust your judgement. I'm just curious as hell and I want to know things.

[engenever-beaver]

I love how this implies you chose your friends by their ability to kill right people.

[tropiyas]

weaponized competence

[tropiyas]

learned helpfulness

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Everything is a lot and we are coming to the end of the calendar

I'm sorry for the things I got wrong and all the saved drafts and unsent texts on my phone and the times I was too loud or weird or suggestive

I'm also not sorry at all and I hope you aren't either

This year I learned:

Some lessons I already should've, you'd think by now

How to drive a boxy van with no rearview mirror

How to give sub cutaneous fluids, and IM injections, and tube feeding

Many facts about water creatures

Muscle groups

Bones

How specifically horses are nightmare creatures as a whole and about the different types of worms that live inside of them (they are unstoppable and if you own a horse you also own a whole lot of worms)

(like basically from my understanding they were like ok yeah we gotta stop cyclically deworming bc they're just always there and we're creating SuperWorms)

Refugia

Basic chemistry

[phantomrose96]

Dealing with burnout is sooooooooooooooo easy all you need to do is operate at 40% indefinitely and be kind of mad at yourself the whole time.

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Talkin to my brother about period stuff and he was like "maybe you just need to plan your life around the phases and like when you need to really get shit done or make big decisions you schedule it for the right time" (bless him) but I was like oop well actually as it turns out next Monday I will solidly be in follicular and feeling like myself right when I need to take my biggest vet a&p final sooo fantastic

[homunculus-argument]

There's something deeply funny about putting a identity censoring bar on an image of an animal. Like sure this bird is a criminal but we're not going to fucking doxx them.

[dusty-pause]

I have moved outside of routine and homes and cities and states of being and forevers, worked hard, learned, and it's worth it

There is a pit and it feels like it's looming closer and closer, and I am fighting it dirty tooth and nail and looking it in the eye, because it's worth it and it's not the end, this pit is not my grave

December feels like dark mornings and greasy fingerprints and tachycardia and fake smiles and trying too hard and never enough sleep

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[enki2]

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I really thought for a minute I had beaten away the holiday season big Sads with all the studying and soup making and activities, like I really was all weeee and then *explosion noises*

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"I'm all yours" nope, you belong to you, I belong to me

The time and grace and affection I give you is not owed, and the time and grace and affection you give me is not owed

These are gifts

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I need to get way up in the air or have my body subjected to some g forces or have some deep sound resonance vibrate way down into my whole skeleton... like real soon. Like yesterday.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Sucks that all the animals that are as smart as we are don’t have highly developed language centers. I just want to discuss the finer points of philosophy with a parrot.

[what-even-is-thiss]

I wanna live in a world where I can yell at a raven to get off my roof and it can tell me to fuck off.

[what-even-is-thiss]

In their language or mine. I’m willing to learn Raven language if it means that I can tell them where the good trash bins are.

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Might fuck around tomorrow night and go look at the night sky debris