Zeke

He/Him, 19

[transfemme-shelterdog]

Hey so you know how people always talk about transmasc erasure? Coming across that paper on Tumblr discourse on transandrophobia reminded me of something.

When I was doing my criminology degree, I went to several professors with several thesis ideas, and all of them were denied. These were all ideas based on transmasculine crime and victimology stats. Every professor shot down every thesis I had on ideas related to transmasc victims of various crimes.

Their reasoning? There's no need for this. This is useless. Nobody is interested in reading about trans men and transmascs being victims of crimes. They wouldn't even let me do my thesis on estimating more accurate stats on transmasculine victims of homicide. Which is an INCREDIBLY important thing!

So yeah. Next time someone talks about how trans men and transmascs aren't victims as much, remember this. Researchers don't want to research this. They won't allow people who want to do so, to do so. I couldn't get anyone to advise me on these papers.

[cosmicallyawake]

do they make mothers without complex relationships that kill you slowly inside? just curious

[amrv-5]

Does anyone know what to do about the temperature and also the prices

[nightonblogmountain]

[ijustneedmorecats]

Before Pride Month ends I just want to say thank you religious and spiritual Queer people for existing! You're so awesome and so so loved

Remember the world is better with you in it

(This post is inclusive of non-Abrahamic beliefs!)

[normal-with-adhd-is-a-joke]

Conservative beauty standards are back with a vengeance which means it's especially important to go out this summer with bellies out and bodies unshaved. Also be unapologetically disabled with mobility aids and wearable medical devices and stim toys and ear defenders and all that stuff. You need it. People need to see it. Everyone needs to be reminded that life is unquestioningly more enjoyable when you're not living inside an arbitrary set of rules created by people who are offended by all the wrong things.

[decompose1]

being a system & not being the original is like. i don’t know you. i remember being you. you’re in my head and you’re like a little sibling to me. i’m still grieving over you. i know your favorite color and i still list it as one of mine. we’re the same person. no we’re not, i’m completely different. your experiences were mine but i could never expect you to face the world i do. please come back. please never front. i miss you. i don’t like thinking about you. i got your favorite cereal today. i’m sorry

[speakthewordonly]

«  she should be in the club » everyone knows your late twenties are for becoming increasingly offputtingly religious

[rabioheab-deactivated20200416]

earlier this year 2 boys got expelled from my school for going on a teachers email and sending another teacher an email that says “you’re a disgusting little man” and i laugh about it all the time because imagine opening an email from your coworker and thinking it’s important and then it says that

[theconcealedweapon]

[estro-boi]

we gotta get back to torrent distribution, i just watched someone eat eight grand in bandwidth charges because they ran a direct-download piracy site with local file hosting through cloudflare. torrents were invented literally for this exact reason

[estro-boi]

torrents work like this

i have a file or folder on my pc that i want to share with other people. let's call it gayshit.mp3

unfortunately gayshit.mp3 is 750mb and im not paying for discord nitro so i need another way to send it

i put it into qbittorrent and it makes a torrent file. this is essentially a very small file that points to gayshit.mp3 so other computers can find it. kinda like a treasure map

i send this tiny file to my friend, who loads it into qbittorrent. their computer takes a moment to find mine over the vast expanse of cyberspace and then (as long as my pc is running and the file is still where it should be), it gets copied from my hard drive to theirs

this is the cool part: if somebody else loads that tiny file, they can download it from both of us. if i'm offline but my friend is on, the third person can still get it. this also means that if two people have separate halves of the file, they can download the other half from each other. as long as some combination of people have the pieces between them, they can all have the whole thing.

crucially this does not require a server!!! you can just upload the file to a few people and as long as they keep it, it's still accessible. as long as somebody, somewhere is still connected, it's available forever. the only way it goes away is if everybody disconnects from it.

please learn to torrent

[macleod]

How to Use Torrents (with Pictures) - wikiHow

An expert guide to get started using torrentsTorrents are one of the most popular forms of file sharing on the internet, accounting for over

always use qbittorrent, do not use bittorrent or utorrent.

[zk-j]

“Where are the trans men in history?” See. When you're born a gender that was forcefully married off, who had to live most of their life indoors, when you had to raise children, and had a lobotomy if your family thought you were a tad too odd, it's kinda hard to come out as a trans man now ain't it.

[teefiesworld]

forever my lineage would use his wrong pronouns but not me

[can-i-make-image-descriptions]

[Image ID: Tumblr tags reading: I have an ancestor who 'pretended to be a man' for years, according to my relatives he did so in order to go to school to become a doctor, and he was eventually found out and wed off to a man and had a family, and forever would be revered for being able to get a degree 'posing as a man', but apparently even after marriage he still dressed in men's clothes and preferred to be seen as a man, forever my lineage would use his wrong pronouns but not me, I see him and I hope he smiles upon me knowing I am living a life he would have dreamed just getting to be a trans man, without being forcefully wed off and forced to have children for the sin of being born with a vagina, such is history with trans mascs, I once saw someone online say:, 'if history has a gaping hole where a minority should be, it's not because they did not exist/did not contribute, it's because they were erased', and I think about that a lot when I see stories like my ancestors knowing that our history has constantly been defiled, just like this /End ID]

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

my 5 year plan is to get back my joy

[paper-mario-wiki]

do not forget the patron saint of these weeks that we celebrate ourselves proudly and openly in the streets

her name was Marsha P Johnson, and we have her to thank for so much.

remember, the first Pride was a riot, and she was one of the brave souls who endured it to help carve the path which so many of us walk today. she helped found several activist groups regarding LGBT safety and wellbeing. and she was absolutely radiant, too.

thank you, Marsha. we remember you.

[isuggestrespecttranspeople]

We stan Marsha in this house

[opalescent-apples]

[kael-writ]

Really there needs to be more attention given to supporting homeless folks right now (as equals, on their own terms), because if you listen to the rhetoric of the right they are absolutely gearing up to disappear homeless people. They are deliberately fear mongering about how "unsafe" homeless people inherently ARE, using the stigmatization of addicts as inherently dangerous irremediable monsters as well... and they are actively opposing actually HOUSING people.

So what is their solution? Imprisonment.

Have yall seen the conditions of ICE concentration camps? They're barely being fed edible food, it's horrible overcrowded, and they literally die of medical neglect. And ICE prisoners are going on LABOR STRIKE because they have are being held AS SLAVES.

Americans need to stop accepting the horrific conditions of US prisons in general where inmates are too often killed, raped, and tortured, and yes also used as slave laborers for profit. We need to liberate and abolish this prison system.

No one should be in prison FOR BEING HOMELESS or an addict. THEY SHOILD SIMPLY BE HOUSED. Studies of housing assistance programs for homeless people prove they work!

And that is what Marsha did, with her best friend Sylvia Rivera who ought to be included more frankly; those women and other older queens performed extra sex work to provide not just for themselves but for teen girls so those girls didnt have to.

They took responsibility for their community, they risked their own safety, they didnt limit their activism and survival to being perfectly lawful, and they survived as best and as long as they could and saved lives.

We need to be a fraction as brave and do a fraction of the work at the very least.

btw, how were these women treated at later "respectable" Pride events? Not well. Here is Sylvia shouting down haters and winning over the crowd.

[this-is-anti-homeless]

"Don't ever give homeless people money, they'll just buy drugs with it. Give them food instead." Number one, if they want to use the money to buy drugs and make life on the streets just a bit more tolerable, not my business. Number two, accepting food and drink from a random stranger is playing Russian roulette for homeless people, because people will tamper with the food and drink they give. Sometimes it's things like ghost peppers to give them a nasty shock, other times it's razors, needles, pieces of glass, rat poison, and other things that can send them to the hospital or morgue. It happens far more often than most realize and homeless people have to be aware of that. So they probably won't accept or consume food or drink you just hand to them because for all they know, there could be antifreeze in it. Or they might have dietary restrictions.

They can't eat that hamburger you handed them. What they can do is take that five and go and buy a hamburger they know they can safely consume, or they can buy necessities like hygiene objects, or they can pay for a medication they need, or it can go into a savings account, or it can even help them find shelter for a night. The five is far more helpful than a hamburger they can't eat for their own safety. Give them the five.

Exactly, giving a homeless person money is the most helpful thing you can do.

[inkskinned]

Every day I handle more money than I will ever make. Every day.

At the start of my employment, my boss showed me videos of people stealing, and we both had a chuckle about it. How silly they were! There was a camera overhead, and it’s not to watch the shoppers. See, we can’t actually stop shoplifters. They get away with it maybe nine out of ten times. But we, who are watched and tallied and witnessed? We are always caught.

At first it was hard to hold one hundred dollars bills. An amount I had never seen before. An amount that didn’t exist in my household. It’s normal now. Here is something that is not for me.

“What the hell, I’ll take another,” says the man, pondering our 200 dollar watches. What the hell. Total comes to 580 and not even a flinch in his face. I have been working for 11 hours today and made only 110 dollars. It will go to my rent. Today I work for free, it feels. When I get my check, I will have 35 dollars left for food and saving.

The six hundreds he hands me go into the cash register. For a moment, I imagine having money. Then I put it away, counting out his change.

I know for a fact we sell our products for double what they are worth. That I could be making commission. That they could hand me those 580 dollars and change my life and not even mark the difference in their checkbooks. He’s not the only sale they make today, but I am the reason they made it. He’s not the only one spending 600 dollars, but if I hadn’t spent two hours with him telling me about his life, he wouldn’t have spent any. I go home. I don’t own a watch.

I have watched and rewatched a video on how to make salmon four ways. My shopping list is always the same. Pasta. Rice. Tuna. If I can afford butter it was a good week. I dream of the world I will never walk in, where I can throw the best fish fillet in the cart with a shrug. I hold hundreds in my hand and look up at the camera. I put them under the cash drawer.

I go to work. I scrap together my savings. I eat my bowl of rice slowly. My manager takes a paid week off from work just for his birthday. He owns a yacht. 

I’m not worth the cost of a watch.

[inkskinned]

i wrote this while i was working at orlando’s walt disney world parks.

i was part of their college program. i moved to the state for it. they legally owned the building i was living in and still charged me rent. i ostensibly was being charged to work for them. it was a 2 bedroom apartment and they placed 6 adult women in it in forced triples.

as many as one in ten disney employees have experienced homelessness while working for the company. despite huge efforts to unionize, strike, or otherwise demand fair treatment; disney has refused to increase employee quality of life.

disney admits publicly that a good portion of their success is because the employees (“cast members”) are dedicated, passionate, and selfless. this is never reflected in pay. even “face” characters (ie those that are princesses etc) make barely above a minimum wage.

at the time that i worked there, i made $8.50 an hour. at one point i was asked to create a human shield around a bag because a bomb dog had alerted to it. for eight fucking dollars an hour.

i now work a very cushy office job. i have bought the salmon and cooked it all four ways.

i go to the store. i am nice to the person behind the counter. she looks up at the camera while she counts out my change. there is nothing fundamentally different about her and i.

we are both worth more than the watch, anyway.

[whereserpentswalk]

Fuck hostile architecture, I want unhostile architecture. I want benches to be designed to be as easy as possible to sleep on. I want little places for pigeons to nest to be purposefully put on buildings. I want people designing public spaces to think about what they'd be like to skateboard on. I want "Please loiter" signs. I want people to be kind. I want...

[prunejuicepls]

I pan handled from the end of 2017 to the middle of 2018 and here 10 of my notes

1. The Midwest has the most caring racists. The amount of sleeping bags and hot chocolate was surprising and heartwarming, the amount of racism was alarming.

2. People love to give you stuff in Las Vegas

3. Christians love to record themselves giving you a water bottle or a slice of pizza. This is a trap they are going to talk to you about god, and yes some (all) think you are homeless because you are a sinner

4. Most teenaged panhandlers look older than they are (dirty, stressed). Remember they're kids. Most aren't drug addicts. Most are abused for one thing or another. Most of the time it's for being queer.

5. Dont trust RV people ever

6. Dont sleep anywhere where you won't hear people coming and wake up. Trash, sticks, whatever makes noise when people rustle through it. Car camping is so much better.

7. Cops aren't people, they're some strange demon sent to fool you with riddles and drag you away. Treat them like the Fae

8. No one gives handouts in the Northeast

9. No one calls 911 if a homeless person is ODing in California

10. Humanity is so much more about love and connectedness than any of us can understand. Sometimes you have to take advantage of that to eat.