★EakiTurtle @eakiturtle - Tumblr Blog

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞

i'm eaki (pronounced e-key)

i'm a big fan of Rain World and Outer Wilds and Project Hail Mary some minecrafts and i also do original art

replies to asks or messages not guaranteed but i shall try :S

#eaki art - for my art

#asks - asks i've answered

#strawpage - posting strawpage gimmicks i get ^_^

#yapping - textposts and whateverrrrr

my sideblog: https://www.tumblr.com/eakirb

my strawpage: https://eakiturtle.straw.page

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𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞

(updated june 28 2026)

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eakiturtle

i am learning how to struggle again and i feel helpless and just born and stupid. new programs. new forms of art. i don't feel any sense of wonder or freedom or exploration, i just feel wrung out. how does anyone do it

eakiturtle

i can't do it i dont think im capable of living a meaningful life

eakiturtle

ok you probably already gathered but im being dramatic and i just need to be patient . i am learning how to struggle again

eakiturtle

i am learning how to struggle again and i feel helpless and just born and stupid. new programs. new forms of art. i don't feel any sense of wonder or freedom or exploration, i just feel wrung out. how does anyone do it

eakiturtle

i can't do it i dont think im capable of living a meaningful life

i am learning how to struggle again and i feel helpless and just born and stupid. new programs. new forms of art. i don't feel any sense of wonder or freedom or exploration, i just feel wrung out. how does anyone do it

#yapping

billiamdoor

how else was he supposed to drink it?

wavezies

big fan of strattland being a little too comfortable in each others' space and weirding everyone else out completely straight-faced

coppersunflower

streetwear couriway with bunny hat

i love having excuses to draw runners in fun clothes

#awesomessss..#couriway #mcsr #i almost could replicate this fit i just need the Jorts

guerrillatech

utah-mountain-drifter-deactivat

poorghost

no one follows the trees warning

rapidashrider

You know the parable about how the foolish man built his house upon sand and the wise man built his house upon rock and it’s always about having a sturdy foundation well there is also the fact of location which is that the sand probably used to be rock except it’s been eroded to sediment because it’s a FUCKING FLOODPLAIN

whereserpentswalk

flood Plain perfec t size for put town in to b\uild! inside very Soft and Comfort town safe happy put town in Floodplain. Put Town In Floodplain. no problems ever in flloodplain because good Shape and Support for town roads weak of big town citizens. Afloodplain yes a place for a town put town in floodplain can trust floodplain for giveing good place for town. friend flood

possuminnit

no more infighting if ur queer. idont care no more. you will be deleted from the world if u start to even open ur mouth to say some shit about another queer person and their identity. no more.

clowndraws

movie night 😀

boxheadpaint

eakiturtle

@carpsoup avhe you seen this

annabelle--cane

yknow I'm feeling a bit brave so I will venture to say what this blighted essay's pitch actually is: reading project hail mary (novel and film) as a ravishment fantasy. in both main threads of the narrative grace is brought wildly out of his element and pulled into the orbit of a mysterious foreign stranger who is significantly stronger / richer / more powerful than him, forced to accept unsolicited lavish gifts and personal praise despite protests and discomfort, and made to live in isolated locations in extremely close proximity to these people with no say in the matter, all of which are common motifs in ravishment fantasies. on her own, stratt also brings in other common motifs of restraints, drugging, being above the law, multiple kidnappings (I'm doing crazy things with the classical definition of "rape" as in "abduction" and its shared etymology with "rapture" as in "being taken to the heavens"), and the very specific yet still common motif of "otherwise trustworthy partner goes too far and doesn't take 'no' for an answer." rocky on his own brings in the overprotective flavor common to a lot of dark romance novel heroes, i.e. "I make sure you sleep and I like to watch you while you do it, I make sure you eat enough even if you've got baggage about it, I make inhuman displays of strength when you're injured, and as long as I'm around I'll make sure nothing bad ever happens to you ever again."

the issue I was running into with researching this a few weeks ago is that almost all of the scholarly writing on the content of people's forced-sex fantasies focuses solely on women's fantasies and starts with the research question of "why would women enjoy imagining such a horrible misogynistic thing?" despite surveys often showing that men have force-fantasies (where they are the one being forced) at very comparable rates to women. my hypothesis for a bit was "either men's fantasies are exactly the same as women's or they're completely different in [x] way," which was disproven interestingly when I did finally find something about men's force-fantasies: in content they are almost exactly the same as women's fantasies but the emotional motivations are often different in [y] way, which I hadn't expected. and [y] also super applies to my buddy ryland, perhaps even more than my original [x] hypothesis.

my hopes for writing this are twofold: a) to address the question I sometimes see phm audience members come away with of "if grace likes his life by the end and doesn't seem that mad about all of that, is the message supposed to be 'violation of bodily autonomy is good, actually?'", and b) to lightly resist one of the prevailing notions in the study of forced-sex fantasies, that ravishment fantasies are solely abstracted and fantastical and pleasurable and are completely 100% separate from fearful paranoid imaginings of / flashbacks to realistic sexual violence.

annabelle--cane

oh also: the most common interpretation of why people have ravishment fantasies is that it allows the fantasist to disavow a desire they feel ashamed of because, in the fiction of the forcing, they don't *want* it at all, they're being made to do whatever it is and can't be considered at fault. as I allude to in my final paragraph of the original post, I think it's a tad more nuanced, but there's definitely a lot of truth to that. grace can tell stratt that he's not smart or important or capable or brave or selfless enough to do what she wants, but she'll ignore it, make him do it anyway, and kit him out with skilled staff members and expensive lab equipment and coffee just the way he likes it. it's a fantasy of being respected and heroic and good whether he likes it or not.

with rocky, the fantasy is of being forced to be loved and protected. rocky decides to initiate contact, he decides that he's moving into the hail mary, he decides that he's always going to watch grace sleep even if grace says he doesn't need it, he decides to gift grace the fuel to get home even when grace pretends he doesn't want it, and he decides he's not going to let grace die to save him even when grace says he's made his choice. the two scenarios allow grace to experience the rewards of being selfless without needing to be so gauche as to ever say he thinks he's that good of a person AND to experience the rewards of being selfish without saying he thinks he deserves to be cared for.

#phm #incredible incredible analysis