buddie brainrot

jack - they/them - 25 - multifandom, non-specific, bit of a mess - side blog so can’t follow back! (header from @theprideful)

[perlaret]

the idea that we are gradually building toward eddie having a slow but explicit feelings realization first fills me with such unbridled glee because it’s such the opposite of buck’s chaotic, denial and sublimation fueled coming-out? just eddie on this slow steady journey towards the event horizon where the accumulation of years of friendship and little intimacies and grand gestures build up until it’s right in front of him and he can’t ignore it anymore. and oh. it’s buck. of course it’s buck. the same buck who saved his son. the same buck that patched his walls. the same buck who gave up his home so eddie could bring his son back to it. eddie knows what it’s like to be hit by a truck now, and it’s not like that. it’s like opening his eyes in the morning daylight and realizing his whole world is right there, just sitting in arm’s reach the entire time

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

(x)

[buckmybeloved]

no i mean it's driving me crazy. like buck and eddie bicker about "chain of command" suddenly in the opening scene of an episode. they bicker like a married couple again about the same thing right before the episode ends. and like okay, haha silly buck and eddie. fighting like husbands. and then nothing for a while and then BAM. right in the middle of a devastating episode, buck makes the little " you and that chain of command " joke, head tilting, a slight smirk playing. he's flirting. and eddie exhales the biggest breath that he has been holding forever because that's his baby boy. he made it out of new mexico and crawled right back to him. and they're gonna be okay. and what if we all jumped off a cliff together.

[gaydadeddie]

MY EDDITO 🩷

[bucksgreyhairs]

You and that chain of command

[starrynet]

anthony stolarz scruffs trevor zegras like he's a naughty kitten

[pretty-fishy]

I do think the Truck conversation confirms my theory Buck only has a stupid Giant Fuckass Truck because Eddie likes them

[dungeonsex2026]

all the townies clocking buddie and i really thought we were gonna get an “it isn’t like that” from one of them but the hits just kept coming…how am i ever meant to recover when there are bikers calling eddie diaz princess and eddie is pissed not at being called gay but at the insinuation there’s anything wrong with the way he and buck are acting and he and buck sit in suffocating silence afterward bc how do they even begin to broach what just happened and their first instinct after the accident is to look for each other and the sheriff is likening eddie to his wife and eddie barely reacts and doesn’t even correct him and that waitress is hitting on eddie and it’s laughable bc eddie is so disinterested he’s LOOKING FOR BUCK and he’s hotwiring cars and holding a woman at gunpoint and nearly getting killed and buck’s using himself as a bargaining chip and then they SAVE each other and they’re laughing and smiling and holding on to each other and man i can’t even go on. what the FUCK was that

no it’s like we basically got everything we wanted and speculated about….everything from the bickering to the husband levels so astronomical they’re clocked by everyone in a 10 mile radius to buck trying to sacrifice himself to protect eddie to eddie screaming bucks name over and over and cradling his face like no one has ever won like this…..

[buckleysibz]

Evan Buckley & Eddie Diaz

9-1-1 S09E13

[sunsetbuddie]

they're in the car on the way back to la and eddie's like, you know. it was kinda nice. that they thought we were a couple. and buck's like, who? and eddie's like, the folks in new mexico. the sheriff thought we were married. did you notice? it was kinda nice. being your husband. and buck's like, it was nice? and eddie's like, yeah. and buck's like, uh. well Homophobia aside. and eddie's like, oh i fuck i forgot about that part

[sunsetbuddie]

[thirdwheelravi]

they’re actually so stupid they could have just rebooked their tickets out of. Idk. Memphis. Driven like 3 hours to get there, 3 hour flight to get home. Home in like 8 hours tops.

[bucksbeagle]

buck ragebaits eddie during sex for sure

[buckslasagna]

S04 E09 // S08 E12 // S09 E13

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

[meatdiaz]

they make it three hours before they decide to pull over and get a room at a roadside motel. one room, one bed, a heavy door and a heavy set of curtains that will help keep away the sunlight and buck's headache at bay. they help each other peel their clothes away and take turns trying to at least somewhat clean up. there's dried blood behind eddie's left ear and more dotting his hairline, and buck scrubs at all of it gently with a warm, threadbare hand towel while eddie keeps his hands wrapped around buck's waist, making sure he doesn't strain his ribs too much. it's intimate in a way that sits at the back of eddie's throat like syrup, choking him up even though he wants to scream himself hoarse. he almost lost him, again, and now they're in a fucking motel room and they're not fighting, but it still feels like they're going to, probably as soon as they make it back into that piece of shit car. sometimes it feels like it's all they do these days. fight. because that's the only way they can dig their fingers into each other without actually touching; without acknowledging everything that's fallen apart in the past year, everything they've been trying to build back up with twine and rock and love. besides, it's not like they're won't go back to their usual push and pull five minutes later. it's fine. they're going to laugh again because buck will say something outrageous, they will look at each other, and it's going to feel easy. or, like it could be so easy, so fucking easy, if only eddie wasn't— if eddie wasn't a coward.

he sure feels like one right now, in this shitty bathroom with buck standing between his spread legs. if eddie was as brave as buck likes to claim he is, he'd push down on buck's shoulders, ignore the fact that they're both half-asleep and half-dead, and unbuckle his own pants the way he's been dreaming of for the past year or three. if eddie wasn't a coward, he'd let himself be selfish again and not worry about the way it usually ends for him. he'd take and never let go, and buck would stay on his knees and with his mouth full as long as he'd like.

it makes eddie feel sick. but under the bathroom light that's both too harsh and too dim, it's almost as if there's a part of him that's jealous of the woman who simply reached out and took buck like she had any right to do that. eddie wishes he could do the same thing, in a way; wishes he could take buck and keep him somewhere where buck would have to stop moving for just a second, stop running, stop deflecting. someplace eddie could look at him and hold him still, and keep him away from everything that's been chipping away at them in all those unnamed, uncomfortable ways.

and the worst part of it is, eddie's pretty sure he wouldn't even have to take. with the way buck's looking at him, warm and now dirty towel in hand, eddie's pretty sure buck would come willingly. maybe he'd even ask to be kept, if only eddie would say something first. if he dared to move.

but eddie's a coward.

[sunlightbuck]

the idea of eddie having killed for buck tho …. , like….. the mix of emotions he woulda felt….and eddie doesn’t regret it at all bc he will do anything to keep buck safe but yeah it scares him a little, the lengths he’s willing to go, also tied up in “i love you so much it scares me sometimes” bc loving something that much means part of yourself is lost to it, at its whim….and then buck feeling guilty bc he would make it his fault, for putting eddie in that position, that eddie now has to live with forever…………but he also feels a shameful twisted thrill at the fact that eddie would do that for him…….and he hates himself for it bc here eddie is struggling and bucks feelings turned on and that’s fcked up right? but eddies keeping a secret too………part of him feels electrified at the thought….that he could go the ultimate length for buck….save buck by any means necessary….who else would do that for him..who else can protect him and care for him like Eddie can?

and they don’t know it but they meet in this space , all potential buzzing energy , back at the hotel and neither have said much, eddie still has dirt and bits of dried blood under his fingernails, buck still has grass and dirt in his hair….buck sees eddies hands shake and he can’t say it out loud so he shows his appreciation for what those hands did for him , gently holds them, kisses the knuckles looks into eddies eyes and tries to say every vulnerable bare sick honest thing he’s thinking and he thinks eddie gets it, bc eddie surges forward in a kiss, holding buck like he’d do anything to never let him go….now they both know how true that is

[lover-of-mine]

Eddie, baby, my most beloved, Buck is responsive and talking to you, do you really need to be checking his pulse? Because like, you don't have a watch, so I know you're not checking anything as a medic. You're just feeling his heartbeat. He's talking to you, why do you need to feel his heartbeat??? Is it because you thought he was dead and need to convince yourself he's not?