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and trying to get the best out of me!

[eialeen]

I am lost....

The last few weeks didn't go well for me. Even with a good balanced diet I wasn't able to stop to binge on some days. And at all I am very dissapointed of me because I could have seen so much better results this year. I had some improvments in my training, I was able to increase some weights but this isn't a excuse for eating like shit.

I know this may be stupid but I decided to live with this feeling until the end of the year and then I will start over again. I will make up a plan for next year and I also want to see a nutritionist.

Until then guys I try not to gain to much weight and I will go to the gym at least once a week, to not lose all my progress! See you next year and keep your chins up!

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Last week I tried so many new dishes ! Healthy cooking makes so much fun and you get to taste so many new things! And the best is it isn't hard to cook healthy, each meal took me less then 40min.

And the best half of my meals were vegan :D

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I found a new way to make my veggies yummy :D I just throw them in the oven with oil and some spices and it's done! I really don't know why I tried this earlier XD

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So after 2 weeks of doing no sports and eating what I wanted I got back on track this monday.

I did buy only clean food excluding the dark chocolate for really hard cravings 😅 I really need to focus on my goals again thats why I try to eat no sweets or any stuff that has a lot of sugar in it. I am still convinced a balanced/ flexible diet is the best but I can see that I have a little problem controlling my sugar/high calorie intake. That's why I will cut them almost completely for some time until I can say that I don't need them to be satisfied or tomfeel good.

And I also want to try a vegan diet. I mostly cook vegan but I always add some meat to get my daily protein. Like toady, some zoodels with onions, kidney beans and pork sausage. But I want to try to get my protein somewhere else, so if you have practical knowledge please tell me!! I do know in which foods I can find a lot of protein but I think I can't eat that much veggies or legumes or can I?!😂 Of course I will keep you up to date when I start my vegan expierience!

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Guy's I'm back in Germany! And I already miss Italy, the land, the food and the beaches everything was so amazing. On our first night we started with sushi not very Italian but it was so tasty. The next days I kept it traditional with pasta, pizza and tiramisu. I tried so many different dishes and Italy truly has a great cuisine. And I had gelato ( ice cream in italian ;)) nearly every day XD

For my first vacation ever it couldn't have been better. I swam in the ocean, I learned a little Italian and I also got a tiny bit drunk in Italy :P

I think I only overdid it with breakfast. I always ate so much that I was satisfied until dinner! Which wasn't the best because I felt uncomfortable some days but we walked so much (over 20k steps and more a day) that I compensated all the extra calories hopefully XD And even not who cares the food was the best I ever had in my life!!!

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Guys Italy is amazing all the pasta and pizza!!! These are my very first vacation and will not worry about how much calories I will eat (at least I try😅)

Tomorrow I will go jogging at the beach and our hotel is only 1 minute away from it!

I'm going to make great memories and I know if I think back to these days I won't regret anything!!

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Update: Week 1 without tracking

Yepp it didn't went so well... And I knew this would happen. I ate way to much especially sweets but hey I am just human and we get easily addicted to sugar...

But hey there will be the next week and I will rock it. I ate so many things this week that I really wanted (and othet things ) that I will be satisfied for some time,hopefully.

I know the common mistakes that I make and I really want to get over them. I have gotten so much knowledge about eating healthy and creating healthy habits I just have to use them!!!

So I'm super motivated for the next week, the only bad thing... I will go on my first vacation with me flying for the first time. And the worst part it's Italy, a city with one of the best kitchens in the world. XD

One positive thing I did my strength training 3 times a week. At least one thing that is consistent in my life. I will get my shit together and then I will see the results that I'm looking for💪

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For my last day of calorie counting I made something special a savoy quiche!!

It was not that easy to make and took a lot of time but it was worth it. One piece has 486cals.

The last week was really hard because everyday I thought "Stop now the last 2 days are not important" but Inwas stronger. I wasn't able to stuck to my daily caloric deficit but all in all I was below my maintaince calories :D

And today my first day without counting went quite good. Ok I will be real I ate a lot of "bad" food today but it is okay because I ate them just to enjoy them not because I was hungry. My breakfast today were some grilled toast with ham and cheese and the other one was with banana and organic peanut butter and jelly and I was satisfyed. The next time I was hungry again was 5 later and I ate my quiche with some buttermilk and again I was satisfyed. I just snacked some nachos and chocolate gazed peanuts and mochis in between because I can :P

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8 days left before I stop counting calories! This time it was really easy for me to keep the counting going (not like the other two times I tried😅) You can see in the pictures that I was able to reduce overeating the last two weeks. This is because of my new strength training routine I think and because I want to reach my goals as fast as possible. And even when I overeat on one day I still was in a defecit at the end of the week.

And how you can see my food pictures got better thats because I bought a Samsung Galaxy Tab S3! Because the Tab S3 got a mode especially for taking pictures of your food. AMAZING!!

This time I used the rest of my vegan tofu pan and added full grain rice, coal fish and some veggies with butter. And this meal had 535cals.

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I had a school day off because our home teacher got sick. So I used the day to get my hair cut and I also buyed some new clothes. And now I enjoy a little snack bowl. I mixed hot strawberries with some oats and quark and topped it with chia seeds and some bio full grain chocolate crunchys (465cals)

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A few days ago I saw a video where someone made a pizza with a dough made out of quark and I had to try it. What I did and it was so good. I got 2 portions(8pieces) but I was so full after 1 portion because it had so much protein (see macros in the picture).

Dough:

150g low fat quark

150g spelled flour or any you want (I used sunflowerseed flour)

1,5 teaspoon of baking powder

Just a tiny bit of water

Salt

Sauce:

200g canned pizza tomatoes

1 tablespoon of tomatoe paste

Basil,salt, pepper (any other spices you like)

Topping: anything you like! But I recommend to choose a low fat cheese like mozzarella or if you have use skyrella. It is a mozzarella made of skyr and it hase a lot of protein! Preheat the oven to 200°C and bake it for 25 minutes.

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This week I got my new training plan and oh boy it's tough. I got what I wished for a lot of heavy weights but I really like my new routine. I do things like deadlifts, dips, squats, lunges and a lot more. Right now I do my new training (whole body ) 2 times a week and my old training (back) one time a week. My trainer also said that I should raise my caloric intake to 1900cals. He also asked why I eat in a caloric deficit and I said because I want to lose some weight especially around my belly (I know you can't spot reduce). And his response was so flattering and it made me feel really good, he said:"Where do you want to lose weight?! You have a good body." I was really happy and I also got motivated for my new training.

But not everything is working out for me. I still count my calories but I will stop it when I reach 100 days. Because the problem is that I binge more often than before. No big binges but I tend to eat over late at night because I really crave something sweet. And I don't kniw why because I fit in sweets in my total calories and I eat very healthy over the day with a lot of protein but at the end of the day I want more. That's why I decided to stop counting calories soon. I want to go back to intuitive eating because I believe this is better for me. And because I have to learn again to stop eating when I feel full not when I reached my calorie goal.

Now to the picture! This time I made something vegan. Shiritaki noodels with smoked tofu, zucchini, carrots, tomatoes and spring onions. I made the sauce with soy rice drink an soy sauce and spiced it with cumin,salt and sweet pepper.

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After 4 long weeks I started my strength training again! But I will ask my trainer if he can figure out a new training plan for me. Because I don't like the old one and I also want to try to train with free weights. So after a good sweaty training I did what I always do, I cooked :D Today I had Shirataki noodels with chicken and veggies in a selfmade currystyle sauce. I uses coconut milk and light soy sauce and added a lot of curry and other spices and it turned out sooo good. And to have something crunchy I also made some baked chickpeas. This meal had 398cals.

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I made this some days ago, salmon with beans and smashed potatoes. Since that I kinda lost control over what I eat. My main meals are still very healthy but I do snack/binge to much. I still track everything but right now I just feel bad about everything especially about my body.

All my friends are telling me that I look good and that my body has the right proportions. But I can’t see or feel like them. After I lost about 5kg I felt awesome but now I have the feeling I didn’t achieve anything. And that I didn’t went to the gym for 4 weeks is also showing. My back pain is back and I have the feeling I gained some fat back.

When I look in the mirror I can see that I have a normal body not perfect but ok. But in my head everything I can hear is:“this is way to much bellyfat and it’s so jiggly and your thighs are way to big…” I hope that I can overcome this bad thinking about my body image and that I can accept myself a little bit more.

Weight loss and gaining confidence is a thing that needs time and sometimes one comes faster than the other unfortunately.

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Why is it sooo hot🔥🔥🔥 You guy's we have reached 37°C which feels like 45°C or more here in Germany. And the only think you can do is lying around or go swimming. Yesterday I decided to stay at home and to do nothing and even this was to much, I did sweat so much. So to cool me down I mixed some Raspberries with a little bit of alpro coconut drink and it was heaven and it only had 72cals ;) And because cooking would had made feeling even hotter I just took a Pizza Margherita and added a lot of veggies and some Fleischwurst. This had 721cals but it was filling enough. And with my 521cals breakfast I was also 200cals under my daily goal (1750cals).

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It's so hot right now in Germany that I didn't went the gym for 3 weeks! The weather is just too good to not go swimming after or before work. But I did take the bike everyday to work. But I hope I will get the willpower to start my strength training soon again. One thing that I am still doing regularly is counting my cals. That's one portion of green veggies with coal fish and when you add the second portion of veggies you still have only 400cals!!!