23 || any pronouns || writer ItaFushi enthusiast !! fanfic creator !! idgaf about the jjk canon because it makes me sad !! gege and i fight for custody of those fictional gay ppl every day
I guess I'm mainly using this blog for JJK content and to highlight my writing...?? but here's some other random shit about me for anyone who's curious:
☆ I'm currently 23 years old !!
☆ I am the first-born & eldest daughter in an immigrant family. My 2 younger sisters are little shits but I wouldn't survive without them
☆ my friends & family have always made me who I am. I am not an individual; I am everyone I've ever loved.
☆ I graduated with a B.A. in psychology and double-minors in feminist studies and human rights, which really bleeds through in my writing (especiallyyy the psychology, oml). (My senior thesis was on queer attachment theory) (this will be very clear in my fanfics).
☆ Queer is a political identity and I don't generally find microlabels very useful to describe who I am. Asexual Grey-Panromantic Demigirl is the closest I can think of for myself, but even that's not 100%. At the end of the day we are just people.
☆ Everything is inherently political, actually. We must be anti-imperialist and anti-capitalist if the world & people in it are going to survive. Liberation and decolonization aren't just metaphors. Don't ever mistake me for a liberal. Lock the fuck in.
☆ I play the guitar and love tons of music, but always find myself returning to 2000s/2010s pop punk and alternative rock
☆ Before I dislocated my left shoulder for the 3rd time, you best believeeee I was in the pit at a metalcore shows
☆ other fandoms I'm in but not as insane about are Chainsaw Man, PJO & HOO, Paramore/Hayley Williams, and Waterparks
a series of canon-divergent stories that reimagine the development of Yuji and Megumi's relationship w/o the major jjk arcs. The actual jjk canon make me fucking sad, so I chose to make my boys traumatized in a unique way (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)
1. I'll Find Forgiveness In Your Heartbeat
https://tiny.cc/IFFIYHeartbeat
(mature rating // 64 chapters // 317k words)
Megumi & Yuji slowly realize their feelings for each other and navigate the relationship that follows amidst Yuji’s looming execution.
This fic explores boundaries between love and self-sacrifice; the inherent tragedy of loving deeply. It’s about how to grieve a prolonged death // how to love a doomed life.
Grief is love persevering, but ItaFushi has always been about grief and love conjoined in real time. There will be tears.
2. Last Night in London
https://tiny.cc/LNiLondon
(teen rating // 1 chapter // 19.6k words)
Yuji and Megumi agree that they need some time away from home after the events of the last year, and London seems just far enough away to give them a brief reset.
But after a lively, unpredictable, and fun time in a queer bar with their friends, their night takes an unfortunate turn as they walk back to their hotel…
Yuji wants to save everyone but himself; Megumi only wants to save Yuji; they argue about it.
3. Favorite Thing To Taste
https://tiny.cc/FTtTaste
(explicit rating // 14 chapters // 70k words)
What doesn’t kill you makes you weird at intimacy.
This fic explores dissociation, post-traumatic healing, and sex; the discomfort of having to be embodied to fully accept intimacy. What it means to seek pleasure after trauma // how trauma sometimes becomes directly written into our pleasure.
ItaFushi are in their mid-20s & just trying to figure out life after all the shit I put them through in the last fic. Oh, and they love each other a lot (obviously).
Ryomen tried to scowl, tried to look away from Fushiguro because it was clearly doing something to Itadori, but he couldn’t. For some reason-
No, it couldn’t be- / . ..
Ryomen blinked, trying to clear his vision, which had started to fall backwards as if- but no, the brat should be-
No.
…… .. . ….. ...?
NO.
Ryomen tried to stand, struggling against Itadori, but Yuji didn’t let him, hyper-aware of the four special-grade sorcerers and entities that surrounded them. He wasn’t going to cause any more hurt. He was going to go easily, and gladly slip the rope around his own neck.
Fushiguro spoke just loud enough to be heard over the commotion, his voice uncertain and fearful. “Yuji…?”
Yuji squeezed their eyes shut in pain. He didn’t want it to be true. He didn’t want to be here. Ryomen snapped them back open.
Because in that moment, something viscous and leathery stretched and snapped around their midsection, pinning their arms to their sides and rendering them immobile.
Fushiguro was crying and Yuji couldn’t bear to look at him any longer. He wanted nothing more than to look at him. He couldn’t-
The thing trapping them was some sort of dark-red material that felt just a little bit too thick to be human skin.
Ryomen noted the 8 cube-corners suspending the mass of red flesh, and recognized it as the cursed object, Prison Realm. He chuckled to himself; maybe this was the end for him after all.
Yuji just needed this all to be done. Too much harm had been caused. He didn’t deserve to be alive any more. Thankfully, it seemed like they were finally going to kill him.
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excerpt from chapter 57 of
“I’ll Find Forgiveness In Your Heartbeat” on ao3
https://tiny.cc/IFFIYHeartbeat
where we briefly get Sukuna's pov, but it's overwritten with Yuji trying to re-gain control of his own body
Itafushi where Yuuji’s never even been anywhere close to a relationship, so he’s lwk stumbling around and trying his best to be romantic and court Megumi properly, and Megumi is so far removed from the idea of anyone liking him in that way, that he just thinks this is how Yuuji is sometimes.
Yuuji invites Megumi out countless times and each time Megumi asks if Nobara is coming and Yuuji has about three seconds of fumbling for an excuse before mumbling about asking her if she will come too. The days that Nobara vehemently disagrees are the only days that Yuuji is content with Nobara’s disinterest in his fixations.
Megumi is also foreign to the idea of friendship, so he just thinks Yuuji is trying to be a good friend by inviting him out so much.
It’s only when Yuuji invites Megumi into his dorm to binge the Human Earthworm franchise and Yuuji starts being…too close does Megumi realize this might be more than just friendship. Yuuji is by no means coming onto Megumi, he’d never do anything without explicit permission. But he keeps knocking his knee against Megumi’s and hesitantly brushing their hands together and shifting close so their shoulders are touching.
That night, Yuuji falls asleep during Human Earthworm three, and he is clutching Megumi’s hand so tightly in his sleep that Megumi can’t help but notice it.
So Megumi hesitantly asks Nobara for some kind of assistance, and Nobara is like “😨 I thought you were fully fucking aware of the way Yuuji was hitting on you. It was awkward and hard to watch, yes, but you let him do it?”
So the next time Megumi is invited out, he’s much more keen on paying attention to Yuuji’s advancements. The way Yuuji tries to hold his hand and then ditches at the last second. The way Yuuji clearly wants to be held when they watch movies, but clearly has no idea how to ask or motion for it. The way Yuuji watches couples on TV or on the streets and tries mimicking them with Megumi before cringing at how hopeless he’s being.
It all clicks for Megumi, and instead of being normal, Megumi goes “why are you trying to hit on me?” And Yuuji takes that as sharp rejection. In reality, it’s Megumi being confused as to why Yuuji would like him of all people.
So Megumi gets really confused when Yuuji gets awkward around him, clearly craving the lack of personal space but clearly trying to stop himself for Megumi’s sake.
It takes a week before Nobara angrily pulls Megumi aside and is like “I understand that you two are just dense but good lord Itadori has been sulking for days, whatever you said wasn’t the right thing to say” so Megumi has to scramble to explain his miscommunication, expecting Yuuji to be irritated only to find Yuuji is absolutely delighted that Megumi wasn’t rejecting him.
Yuuji is elated that he can keep awkwardly courting Megumi, along with sprinkling in some self-esteem boosting acts to make it so Megumi can start believing that someone would want him romantically.
It takes them an embarrassingly long time to start actually dating, and by the time they do, Nobara contemplates throwing a party.
