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I uploaded this on Destiel Day but I figured I’d post it here for people lol

#destiel #deancas #dean winchester #castiel #dean and cas #spn #supernatural

if i was a youtuber and i saw someone making gay fanfiction of me i dont think i'd neccescarily enjoy it because i'm aroace as fuck but i'd also be like oh hell yes i've made it. i'm in the yaoi big leagues now. sign me up for that markiplier money im riding this stock to the moon.

#i can understand this and tbh i would feel the same abt MYSELF #but the problem is it rarely ever stops at fanfiction and it always ends with parasocial stalkers being assholes to real people #other people in their lives that 'get in the way' of the 'ship' that they now 100% believe is real for some reason #obviously not all rpf and not all rps but it almost ALWAYS ends with a vocal subset of “fans” being insane #which sucks.

depsidase

#wooooahhh so scaryyyyy! things that help the working class people !

commiefaggoth

so embarrassing to watch yourself become obsessed with a character that feels tailor made for you specifically to become obsessed with. feels like i fell into a trap made just for me. like damn they got me. those are all the things i like and go crazy for

#this is kinda me with hayden pike lmao #kinda stupid sidkick with the best intentions but is kind of ignorant (not willfully)#ugh

softest-punk

A thing no one talks about re: ADHD is that you can't... gain experience, the way other people do.

I don't mean you can't get good at things through repeated practice. You can do that, I have done that, but I don't trust it.

I was driving this morning and thinking about how I have never developed the blasé contempt for it most people seem to despite never having caused an accident in 20 years because my sense of time is such that I might as well have been driving for a week. I'm a good, safe driver, but I do not have a heap of confidence in my driving despite having regularly done it for two decades because my sense of time is such that those two decades may as well not have happened.

I finished editing a novel today. When I publish it, it will be the 64th novel I have published in the last 10 years, not counting ghostwritten work. You'd think after a decade and 63 novels I'd be confident that I was capable of writing, editing, and publishing a novel—even be confident about the timeline for this—but no. No, I feel like I'm doing it for the first time, every time, and I was surprised to have finished the editing at all, let alone on time. Because those other 63 novels were published in a past I have a vague at best concept of. I have a record that says it happened but I do not feel it.

I cannot trust my future behaviour because for me there is functionally no past. I know it occurred, I have records, but I don't feel it the way people without this kind of memory issue do. I feel inexperienced at everything I've ever done and I cannot accurately estimate my skill level at anything, particularly not on the fly.

I don't have a solution to this I just find it an incredibly frustrating phenomenon.

#this is so frighteningly accurate #adhd

derinthescarletpescatarian

#anti ai

ivviannaa

shane comes to dinner with hayden and jackie alone, explaining that ilya had to go to a meeting with wiebe or fulfill some other captain duty, and makes a joke about how hayden must be happy that things are 'back how they used to be.' and obviously hayden laughs along and agrees, but internally he's horrified because his immediate reaction was disappointment. he misses ilya. he doesn't know when the hell he began to count on ilya's presence, but he clearly was now

cue later that night with hayden nearly in tears being like "we're friends, jackie. i am FRIENDS with ILYA ROZANOV. this is awful" and she thinks it's the funniest thing ever

#this is everything to me #yes yes yes yes to all of this #heated rivalry #ilya rozanov #hayden pike

hollanov123

Hayden and Ilya are actually friends by The Long Game. They're Vitriolic Best Buds, a very old trope. They're Bugs Bunny & Daffy Duck.

The ONLY time Hayden genuinely takes issue with Ilya and pushes the subject is in My Dinner With Hayden (to ILYA, while ILYA is there provoking him, not to Shane, because he is feeling protective of Shane, not angry with him- the subject of his anger is very clearly ILYA), and Shane yells at both of them about it and he immediately sees the error of his ways and apologizes. IMMEDIATELY.

It is canon that he is enough of a well-meaning idiot to question the relationship in a pretty dickish way! I will give you that! But it is also canon that he only does it once and when Shane gets mad he understands he was being a dick, apologizes, and doesn't do it again.

And again, by the time of The Long Game (two years after My Dinner With Hayden)- he and Ilya are Daffy and Bugs. They don't hate each other. They are pretending to for the sake of the bit.

#Thank you thank you thank you you understand me #every time i read a fic where someone makes hayden continue to question their relationship and judge them SERIOUSLY it takes me out #and of course I love fic authors and they camln write however they like dont get me wrong but if youre trying to go for realistic canon #characterization of hayden #its just not accurate to the source material #aside from shane and ilya hayden and ilya are my fave dynamic bc of their fake hatred for each other thats OBVIOUSLY A BIT #that they both like to entertain bc its fun #they are so precious to me #heated rivalry rel

literary-sparks

“Why don’t you use ai” idk man beyond the obvious environmental and “this machine causes psychosis and encourages people to kill themselves” thing I think asking the equivalent of a solid D student who is also a pathological liar if they can answer my question/do the work for me seems pretty fucking stupid

#thats what im SAYINGGGGGG #anti ai

all4vans

#hollanov #hollanov fanart #heated rivalry

yaoiblackmold

Top 3 things people love insisting they don't have despite it being impossible

Pronouns

An accent

Bias

#it GENUINELY pisses me off when people say they dont have an accent.#like i know its mostly ignorance but YOU REALIZE YOU ARE JUST SAYING YOU ARE “THE DEFAULT”#which is so weird and gross? lol #what you mean is your accent is typical to your region #🤗

bevsi

more and more I’m seeing the sentiment “why would you write about (fictional character) in pain and at their lowest point???” and it shows such a fundamental misunderstanding of fiction, like as a concept

#agreed

ofswordsandpens

surely there has to be another option between "churning out 20-episode seasons every year and the actors never see their family or friends and don't have time to do any other job and hate the show at this point" and "maybe you'll get 8 episodes every 2 to 4 years :)"

#ive BEEN SAYING THISSSSSS #lets meet in the middle ppl

renthony

I see so many arguments over what is and isn't "good queer representation" that really just boil down to "y'all are actually arguing over matters of taste and genre preference, which is incredibly subjective and personal."

Worldbuilding where being queer is normalized and queerphobia has no impact on the plot? THAT'S FINE. Worldbuilding that includes queerphobia and tackles the effects of it as part of the story? THAT'S ALSO FINE.

Low-stakes queer romcom where the characters are fluffy and cute? THAT'S COOL. Messy queer drama with toxic people who fuck each other over and clash repeatedly? THAT'S ALSO COOL.

Stories that center the characters' queerness, show a trans character's transition, and are about the queerness as much as the rest of the plot? AWESOME. Stories where the characters' queerness isn't treated as a big deal, and have trans characters whose transition happened before the story entirely? ALSO AWESOME.

You may PREFER one thing or another, but it is actually good to have all these things. It's about variety. It's about queer characters being allowed to exist without censorship. It's about queer artists getting to make things without being told we're a "niche issue" or "adult content." It's about having as many goddamn cakes as the bakery can produce.

At the end of the day, I'd prefer a media landscape with fifty pieces of problematic queer representation over a media landscape with one single piece of queer representation that's trying (and usually failing) to be 100% perfect for everything and everyone.

loveridden1999

talking about politics, ai or feminism to people irl will have you feeling like wow you're really going on with your life with your eyes ears brain all shut