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It's talked a lot about KDJ's low self-esteem. How he doesn't think he's worth anything, how he can't accept that people care about him, how he's always putting himself down. And that's, well, undoubtedly true.

But.

I feel like there's another side to this coin that doesn't get acknowledged or noticed much—his supreme self-importance masked as self-deprecation. He genuinely believes that only he can save YJH, that only he can understand YJH, that his death is the grand, necessary price for everyone else's happiness. He frames it as self-sacrifice, but underneath it, there's this unshakeable fucking belief that he's the only one who can carry the weight in that "messiah complex dressed up in self-loathing" way. He sees himself as the protagonist of YJH's story in his own head and I don't think he even realizes that's what he's doing. And I think people ignore this because it complicates the "poor sad boy KDJ" narrative that's so popular. It's easier to infantilize him and treat him like a victim of circumstance who just can't help but sacrifice himself, than to acknowledge that he's actively making choices. And some of those choices are rooted in a deeply held belief that he knows better than everyone else. He's not just doing what needs to be done, he's doing what he thinks needs to be done, and he doesn't really care what anyone else thinks about it.

It's also not that he doesn't know people care about him. He does, he's not actually that oblivious. The text shows him understanding that his party wants him around and that they'd miss him terribly if he was gone, but he waves it off because acknowledging it would mean actually having to face the consequences of his choices. It's easier to keep the pity party going than to actually sit with the fact that people love him and he's hurting them a lot. He's dense about some things, yes, but he's not fucking blind. He just chooses to ignore it because looking at it directly would mean he'd have to stop running away.

The unreliable narrator aspect is a big thing here too. The narration tries to frame his actions as selfless, but he's also the one 'creating' the story. His way of doing that fools many readers (and himself, because he lies even to himself) by making him seem like the tragic hero who has no choice, while the story literally gives us more than enough context to know that he does have choices—mf just doesn't like the alternatives. Choosing to sacrifice himself as problem-solving is easier than trusting other people to handle things. He tells himself it's because he's worthless, but I think part of him actually believes the opposite—that he's the only one who can fix everything, and everyone else just doesn't realize it. KDJ is not a victim of fate, he's a victim of his own refusal to let go. Doomed by the narrative? More like doomed by himself, smh.

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #kim dokja

tsukithewolf

Han Suyeong, Yu Junghyeok and Kim Dokja, in that order.

#omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #han sooyoung

tamoru

“the moment he turned his head, he saw hua cheng had already changed into a refreshing fisherman disguise” 🐟

frontmansdefender

sternfleck

Thoughts and prayers to my European mutuals suffering under their omega heat

ralfmaximus

do NOT google "omega heat"

chocomiking

prayers for the people googling "omega heat" for the first time

lovexmaybe

kdj forces yjh play roblox with him i think

#orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk

innerchildabortionclinic

also I don't think parents "these days" are uniquely terrible, I just think neglect is showing up in new ways as technology progresses. today's ipad kid would've been wandering around in a ditch alone all day and night before. parents not wanting to have to deal with children is not a new phenomenon.

egberts

also part of growing up is realizing that the embarrassing music you liked in your early teen years still goes hard as hell

baptizm-deactivated20200524

GUYS READ ALL OF THIS PLEASE PLEASE PL–

serialreblogger

some IMPORTANT UPDATES

stay tuned for the resolution

bunbunxian

THIS IS WHAT I WAS TELLING EARLIER

A.FUCKI G.REAL LIFE LWJ. A fkn modern wangxian au this is crazy

esmew9785

ashes-0f-phoenix

PLEASE GO ON REDDIT AND CHECK THE UPDATES!!!!

THERE’S MOOOORE

tlhrfanfic

This is a hell of a ride but this is the Queer romance of arranged Marraige actually turning romance and ahhh i love it so much

GOOD FOR THEM!

lostsometime

this is adorable but i’m still just stuck on ‘he keeps crawling into my lap and cuddling and nuzzling me, but i can’t tell if he LIKES ME-likes me, please help’

dude