Hello, yes. This is my blog thing. Idk how tumblr works so bear with me.
21+ ~ minors DNI ~ some posts are NSFT
any/all pronouns (name: ???)
I am an egg. Probably genderfluid but in constant denial đ
Blâog is not about snakes. An egg tooth helps snakes (and other animals in eggs) break the inside of the egg, allowing them to escape. Though, some snakes are a little scared to come out even after that. (insert laugh track cause egg joke)
Snakes are cuties. But for me? Kitten? Puppy? Yes.
Made this so I can post about being an egg. Maybe help me realize how in denial I am?
More under âmoreâ.
forcemasc / autoandrophilia yes please
boyhypno?
religious kink? (but where Iâm the one being corruptedâŚ)
corruption kink?
puppy/kitty yes đž
girl? boy? yes, as long as Iâm good :3c
I USE RECLAIMED SLVRS
Asks are open! Feel free to ask questions, bully me, say dirty things, etc. I am not 100% NSFT. I can make replies and posts as well that ARENT dirty. Anonymous is an option.
Since this is more of a journal thing(?), might post other random stuff here, idk. You canât tell me what to do.
The negative things holding you back from identifying as trans.
Where did you originally hear it?
(Any help appreciated.)
(Mentions of internalized transphobia and MORE of the like below break.)
âYouâre just a girl whoâs fetishizing mlm guys and/or is trying to invade mlm spaces.â
That was cis gay guys on mlm media where I consumed media that was mlm and longed, wished, and wanted it to be me. They were scared of women in their spaces, scared of people testing out their identity.
âYou wouldnât medically transition, and you donât look like a boy, so whatâs the point?â
Thatâs the truscum, transmed, and internalized transphobia that I read into when learning about LGBT+.
âYou donât act or look like a guy. Thereâs not a hint of masculinity in you.â
That comes from my need to put things into a binary, into boxes. That, and my parentâs need to enforce gender roles and presentation.
âGenderfluid is the most fake of them all! You just decide what gender you are based on how you feel?â
More internalized transphobia.
âYou just want to be a part of something; your other identities arenât queer enough for you.â
Internalized transphobia, homophobia, and aphobia.
âYou just want to see yourself in something that takes your woman identity away because how men see women makes you feel icky. Meanwhile, seeing a guy be vulnerable and his softness is accepted, that makes you feel like your emotions actually mean something.â
Idk what this is. Iâd say itâs an enforced binary again, but also misogyny?
âNo man would like you in a gay way.â
A well meaning cis gay friend who didnât realize what he was saying til it came out of his mouth. All he meant was that monosexual gay guys wouldnât want a non-passing genderfluid person. He apologized, but that voice still echos in my mind.
Just like all the rest of the echos I mentioned.
Thatâs what they are. Echos.
Do you value the opinions of those people?
For me, thats asking if I value the opinions of cis gay guys scared of trans people searching for their identity? Or people who hate trans people for existence? Or people who donât respect non passing peopleâs gender? Or people who think trans people are just âconfusedâ unless they have debilitating dysphoria and need to transition? Or an enforced binary filled and fueled with misogyny and fear of men?
Even though those things go against what my heart and mind and happiness says?
Knowing that Iâm not trying to hurt mlm men, Knowing I am just taking my time finding my identity. Knowing that trans people are real and valid, even if they donât pass, are pre-op, no-op, high dysphoria, low dysphoria, or whatever. Knowing not all men are dangerous, and that masculinity isnât inherently something to fear, or that women are inherently the worser version of humanity. Knowing men and woman should be treated with equal high respect for their emotions, and that âemotionalâ isnât negative. Knowing most things donât fit into boxes, especially binary ones. Knowing that aroacespec identities and that [partly cis, partly trans] identities are VALID parts of LGBT+ and are âqueer enoughâ.
I also know the happiness I feel when I imagine myself passing as a man. The happiness I feel when I have the opportunity to switch out bracelets to reflect how I feel inside based off gender. The icky looming dooming feeling on occasion when people see me as a girl. How evil it feels that I canât shift between 3 set âcharactersâ and have people see me as the same entity, but different terms for each.
So⌠I can break this down, into the concept of echos. But that doesnât stop them or silence them or quiet them. They are still loud as ever.
Me (to myself): Iâm not a guy tho. Iâm not trans. đ
Friend 1 (on h0rny chat; about girlfriend): âWanna peg her so bad.â
Friend 2 (to that guy): âFaggotâ
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Me (in chat; after seeing âfaggotâ and wanting to copy the first guy): âI⌠I um⌠âWanna be a faggot so bad.â đâ
Friend 3 (to me): â⌠you ARE a faggot, sweetheart.â
Friend 4 (to me): âsays the fagâ
Me (all of this typed in chat): â[laying in bed, giggling and kicking my feet cause my forcemasc discord friends called me a faggot] This is very normal behavior. :3 â
And yes, I did say that only so I could have the boys respond that way. It make me happy.
And yes, I quite literally was in bed, giggling, and kicking my feet, actual happiness over this. Certainly something wrong with me.
God I'd tie your hands out of the way and put my lips around your cock, only sucking it and using my tongue when you start fucking my face - none of that circling or rubbing, I want you to thrust your hips like you're fucking my mouth with your cock and trying to make me choke on it, such a good boy for me
No pulling away from me, let loose, fuck
Iâm actually shaking rn, hold on.
I have always felt disgusted by the concept of someone⌠putting their head⌠down there⌠and servicing me. It never sounded enjoyable. It sounded icky and wrong. So I was fine mentally with no one putting their mouth down there.
I start getting into focemascâŚ
Like, so many things that I just thought were disgusting (done to me) like e^ting me out or messing/s^cking on my large chest.
But after forcemasc-âŚ
Fuck, the idea of being sucked off, even if itâs technically the same actions (or not), but the idea of not calling it certain terms, and instead calling it a tdick (even though I am NOT on t), dick, cock, little cock, micropenis, little dick, buttoncock, etc. Messing with my massive tits cause I got massive tits for a guy. Itâs completely insanely different somehow???
Going back to the actual anon askâŚ
I am actually shaking where I am. But this time, not in public, which means I can go in my room and do something about this.
Tying my hands was the first right step. Shivers. Please just tie me up. I imagine them tied behind my back, me sitting on a chair with my legs forcefully spread out by you as you kneel in front of me. Gosh Iâd whine and whimper.
And as I was imagining it, before I even got to this part, I had only read up to where you described it as putting your lips around my cock and I imagined being unable to stop myself from bucking into your face, and realizing it feels so much better when Iâm not focused on stopping my hips as we keep going. Not knowing what to do in a situation where I am the only focus of the stimulation (since only my cock is getting attention and not your body), so I just keep whispering âthank you thank you than yo th thank th th youâ all jumbled up over and over as I pant and moan and whine, still thrusting.
Me coming and not being able to stop myself legs from shaking and kicking the legs of the chair, trying not to squeeze your face in my thick thighs. Panting and not being able to mumble, let alone string a sentence or thought together. You tell me âawww, good boy, you got it all over my faceâ (even if I realistically didnât) and grabbing a tissue to wipe stuff thatâs not there, as if I just shot ropes onto your face. I would probably say âsorryâ for making the mess. (why does the idea of being messy like a man and saying sorry for it sound so fucking hot?)
(again, send me more asks; anyone can send asks, they can be anonymous, and I will respond if I like, which I probably will cause Iâm easily flustered)
I saw a post recently about a dom who's sub was talking about maybe being a "fakeboy" and they forcemasc dommed that shit out of them so fast and-
This is the kinda forcemasc I want
When I have doubts about how fem I feel/look the dom snap me out of it by making me tell them how masc I am and how much of a fag I am for wanting their cock or fuck the idea into me that I am a real man
God you're pathetic. I would love to see you whine about how you're not a real boy while you take my fist in your ass like a man. I bet you would shut up real quick, especially if I taped over your cunt as a constant reminder that you only have one hole that matters.
Gosh, I would.
I had such a reaction to this, but Iâm in a public location. I felt like I could cry about it? But also really wanted it to happen.
Gosh I need this.
How quickly Iâd give in if you told me to say things, and I say I want to be a âgood boyâ and that Iâm a âf^ggotâ. But Iâd cry and say I donât feel like one, just for you to keep using me til we can fix my brain.
Just a constant cycle of saying âI want to be a good boyâ and calling myself a âf^ggotâ, but then crying and whining about not being a guy, and then just loud noises as I forget everything temporarily, repeat.
Are you sure the tape would stay on if it got that wet? What would I have to do to have you allow my small tiny microp-n!s some attention while you do it? Please
the 'strict religious conservative upbringing' to 'kinky neurodivergent tranny fag' pipeline needs to be studied (and the test subjects would probably get off on it)
"fakeboy" this, "i will never be a real man" that, how about i gag you with my boxers so that you can't say stupid shit like that anymore, then pound your ass while playing with your tiny cock until you come completely undone under me. i need you to learn that just because you're a faggot doesn't mean you're not a man
The first time I heard âfakeboyâ was seeing a post about how theyâd take a âfakeboyâ from a detrans k!nk blog and forcemasc the fuck out of them.
Gosh I identify with âfakeboyâ.
Not for detrans.
But because I am so used to not claiming masculinity, not claiming manhood, not claiming transness, not claiming âboyâ.
Because I need someone to forcemasc the fuck out me.
transmasc werewolves and transfem selkies. Iâm sure someone else has said this before but I think itâs fun. Butch sealion. Tall fem guy maned wolf.
HOW DID YOU KNOW I ASSOCIATE MY MASCULINITY WITH MANED WOLVES
THATS SUCH A NICHE RANDOM SPECIFIC THING?!?
For me, personally, itâs like, maned wolves are so weird as canines? They eat fruit and their legs remind me of lanky nervous awkwardness. In the same way my masculine side feels so so misplaced in the concept of masculinity.
Does this even make sense?
My gender is sometimes a feminine maned werewolf. That just makes sense to me.
Guh. for not actually liking them, I like so many of the tangential kinks that go with d-tr*ns/m*sg*ndr kink. Like a bit of sexily feminizing a trans guy is fun to me but only whenâbecause, in fact!!!âhe is still treated like a guy. Like aww youâre a boy with tits huh? How about I make you show them off so people see how special you are â¤ď¸ And then yknow you put him in a button up that keeps popping open and say everyone look at my boytoyâs cute breasts â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
Again, based off how I felt trying on a hoodie I bought from the menâs section for the first time. I immediately was upset, and didnât know why.
[Image Description: Guy in hoodie standing in forest. In blue text it says, ââWhy doesnât it fit?!ââ. In brown text it says, âMaybe itâs not the hoodie.â Theres a blue heart over the manâs left side of his chest.]
Idk what Iâm doing. Need more SFT forcemasc stuff. Is this forcemasc? Idk.
I constantly see guys at night riding on skateboards, and I just⌠die a little inside.
I was trying to make the background text hard-ish to read, but the foreground text is hard to see too. I tried a little.
[image description: Man skateboarding down a path. Text âWhy do you look at them like that?â âYou never cared to be exceptionally âcoolâ.â âYou never wanted to ride a skateboard.â âSo why do you look at him and get so UPSET?â Faded text in the background says âyou want to be himâ over and over.]
Dude there's this new game that- Oh, you're, like, so hard. Yeah, man I can see it through your boxers. Hold on, let me help you out. It's chill, bro, don't even worry about it. Yeah lem'me juuust pull these down and.. man, you're pretty big, guess that T's working pretty well. Looks good, man. I'm drooling? Sorry, bro, happens sometimes. Not, like, salivating over your cock, that's so gay. I'm just helping out a bro. I'm a faggot? Haha, that's funny man, my dick is totally not pulsing right now. Alright, shut up, though feel free to put- yeah, hand right there, fingers in my hair. Awesome, that's great, dude. Haha, you're dripping, bro.. maybe you're the fag.
Have you considered u might be into forcemasc/forcefem? You have this fixation with being an egg/âin denialâ/etc, I just think that may be something youâd be interested in if you arenât already aware that itâs an actual thing
Yes!
It only seems I have a âfixationâ on being an egg and in denial because, well, thatâs the point of this account. Hence the name âeggtoothâ, which is explained in my pinned post. Idk why I feel like this. Donât know if itâs a gender thing, or something else. It probably is a gender thing, Iâm just having a hard time due to internalized transphobia. Probably. Idk.
But this account is to 1) write about my feeling reguarding gender/trans-ness/autoandrophilia/forcemasc, and 2) maybe make posts that people who like autoandrophilia and forcemasc might like.
I have been making posts that are tagged as forcemasc and autoandrophilia, as I found those two terms on accident multiple months ago. I asked Google why I wished I was a gay guy despite being a girl, and it talked about being trans, autoandrophilia, and forcemasc. Itâs certainly not a fixation on mlm people in general, but being myself as someone in an mlm relationship, which is not normal for cishet girls. Itâs not being âweirdâ about transmascs in general, but about me being transmasc.
Liking autoandrophilia and forcemasc is not the only reason I think I am genderfluid. Itâs just the easiest concept to hold onto at this second for me. I have had many moments in the past where I realize could have been me trying to tell myself I am trans (genderfluid) but didnât have the language for it yet at the time. Then those memories grow silent on the timeline around the time I was petrified in fear of going against my parents, who are homophobic. Then the memories start up again afterwords, but they have a strange fearful (guilty/shameful?) tint. Hence why I think itâs just internalized transphobia. Or maybe not, idk.
Onto forcemasc/forcefem itselfâŚ
I love it so much. At least forcemasc, since thatâs the only one I know much about / have explored. However, since I am not masculine at all, I have considered myself more of a forcemasc in a forcefem way.
forcefem -> become girl
forcemasc -> become boy
whatever Iâm into -> become soft gay boy (maybe sometimes femboy, but more so âsoft boyâ)
Not sure how I feel about 100%-cis girls being into forcemasc and autoandrophilia, but they do what they do as long as itâs not hurting anyone ofc. Iâm not gonna tell them they canât be cis girls. But like⌠if itâs not just for the bedroom, and does hang over you like a cloud outside of the bedroom, I feel like something queer might be happening to your gender.
Anyway,
Thank you anon for trying to help me by informing me! If I hadnât known, this would be very helpful. You are 100% correct, I am into forcemasc. (this sounds sarcastic, but itâs not supposed to be; I am thankful for you trying to help)
