why don't you just let me go?

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˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚

˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚₊‧⁺⁺‧₊˚ ཐི⋆♱⋆ཋྀ ˚

mi | she/her | 9teen

hi!! personal blog to talk about whatever whenever :) (under construction)

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fuck i miss my friends

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im being so serious rn someone sedate me

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wtf did I just read

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I have no thoughts…. tom holland in the odyssey I need u

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Spider-Man: Brand New Day said it'll be hard and it'll be ugly and you'll essentially feel like it's so over but in the end love will save your soul and friendship and hope will prevail and we're so back and millions of teenagers worldwide said hell fucking yeah

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jean was literally breathing for peter!! you shouldn’t have to do it alone! community is what keeps us alive!!

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are you spiderman because you’re peter parker? or are you peter parker because you’re spiderman?

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WE ARE SO BACK!!! I LOVE U SPIDEY!!

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spiderman bnd spoilers!!!

just watched spiderman bnd and I didn't expect to connect to it this much. I think this is the first spiderman movie that I've watched in cinemas where I'm close to peter's age or I guess stage in life. One of uncertainty and loneliness and massive changes.

Peter kept going because with great power comes great responsibility despite his personal life being in shambles. It was hard seeing him miss out on college/ uni and living his life vicariously through ned and mjs posts because it was so relatable. He didn't let himself start anew because he felt that he couldn't betray or replace what he had with his friends from high school even though he could clearly see they had 'moved on' in a way. Peter still cared about them with everything he had despite knowing that they couldn't go back to the good old days that he yearned so much for.

And I guess his desire for the good old days extended to how he dealt with change. Instead of trying to embrace the change in his powers he fought against it because it was unfamiliar and not entirely positive. why change when he'd managed to survive somehow without these new parts of himself for so long? he clung to his old version because it was comfortable and familiar even though he had clearly transformed and outgrown that phase in his life.

it was also slightly surprising to see that years of isolation didn't make him bitter towards others but himself - at least that was my interpretation. He just accepted that this was how his life was meant to be and saw himself as monstrous. Part of that was probably tied to his powers and web fluid coming from his wrists but that's what isolation does to someone you just start to think something is wrong with you. You would expect anyone carrying that much loss all on their own to be resentful because yes he's spiderman he gets back up no matter what, but at the end of the day he's still just any person like you or me who wants connection.

Peter Parker's ability and determination to try carry it all alone was so admirable and relatable but it meant so much to me to see him accept his new self and try to connect with others. Seeing him reach out to jean and help her realise that she wasn't alone despite the loss of her sister kind of felt like he was finally telling himself that he didn't have to be alone too.

it just felt like this movie was this confirmation of the conclusions that took me over a year to come to (because I repressed my emotions!! don't do that). That no matter how much you love someone, no matter how much you care for them you can't force them to feel the same way about you and I mean this in a platonic sense as much as romantic one.

with the loss of family you naturally lean on your friends who become your family if they weren't already. But friends come and go and it's really really hard to accept that because it feels like you're the only one who remembers the good times and still cares. Sometimes you realise you overestimated your place in someone's life, or that you invested more in the friendship than they ever did.

Losing people is scary. Change is scary. I think it's normal to resist it because if you were able to accept it immediately then maybe it wouldn't really be change at all. Both growth and grief take time before they can become something you can sit with. Eventually you have to accept it and learn to progress with it instead of against it.

But the most important thing to remember is that we are meant to be social we need community in our lives and that living a life in isolation is not really living life to its fullest. Because life is brighter when you have loved ones to share it with. You are never truly alone there is always always someone out there who is there for you even though it's not always easy to see that. I still find it a bit hard to believe.

This movie was a love letter to everyone in that transitionary period of their life and it means everything and more to me.