i am yearning first and a person second

Lo/Mika|29|bi/ace|any pronouns (Formerly irbarti! This is my new podcast/art/writing blog)

[epilobium]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: The Magnus Archives (Podcast) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Martin Blackwood/Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist Characters: Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist, Martin Blackwood Additional Tags: Post-Episode: e200 Last Words (The Magnus Archives), Location: Somewhere Else (The Magnus Archives), Alternate Universe - College/University, Post-Canon, Spoilers for Episode: e200 Last Words (The Magnus Archives), Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Arguing, Moral Dilemmas, Moral Ambiguity, Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort Series: Part 2 of the aches between Summary:

Sometimes old pains build up, and despite their efforts to try and talk things through, there are moments where things feel too raw, too real, and they come ripping out like wildfire, catching everything in its wake. There are nights where they hurl baseless accusations, some where they pick mercilessly as scabbing wounds, at bleeding guilts, trying to make the other understand. There are hurts that curl in the marrow of them, that pump slick through the veins of them, that trail cutting fingers along the axons of them.

Things may never be easy. But this is worth every ache, every misstep, every argument.

Isn't it? ____

Exploration of a scene from the epilogue of the aches between missed connections (the beautiful devastation of meeting you again). Spoiler warnings for the end of that story as well as the magnus archives in general!

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New chapter!! :) 

[epilobium]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Magnus Archives (Podcast) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Martin Blackwood/Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist Characters: Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist, Martin Blackwood Additional Tags: Post-Episode: e200 Last Words (The Magnus Archives), Location: Somewhere Else (The Magnus Archives), Alternate Universe - College/University, Post-Canon, Spoilers for Episode: e200 Last Words (The Magnus Archives), Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Arguing, Moral Dilemmas, Moral Ambiguity, Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort Series: Part 2 of the aches between Summary:

Sometimes old pains build up, and despite their efforts to try and talk things through, there are moments where things feel too raw, too real, and they come ripping out like wildfire, catching everything in its wake. There are nights where they hurl baseless accusations, some where they pick mercilessly as scabbing wounds, at bleeding guilts, trying to make the other understand. There are hurts that curl in the marrow of them, that pump slick through the veins of them, that trail cutting fingers along the axons of them.

Things may never be easy. But this is worth every ache, every misstep, every argument.

Isn't it? ____

Exploration of a scene from the epilogue of the aches between missed connections (the beautiful devastation of meeting you again). Spoiler warnings for the end of that story as well as the magnus archives in general!

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this is still one of my favourite things I’ve written recently!

[riding-with-the-wild-hunt]

today's vetted fundraisers. i know i there are lots of these floating around, but please keep sharing and donating if you can, even if it's a small amount. if we disengage, we dash these families' hopes for a better future

july 7th:

Eyad Sami, his wife Amal Mahmoud, and their four children (CHF6,180/CHF20,000) - @eyadeyadsblog, verified by @/90-ghost

The AlBalawi family of ten, including several children (multiple are sick) and two chronically ill members who need treatment (€8,186/€50,000) - @aboooodsblog, @albalawii, @bisanalbalawi, verified by @/90-ghost

Mohammed Hijazi and his elderly parents, one of whom is severely injured and needs surgery to restore his ability to walk (€1,728/€20,000) - @savemohammedfamily, verified by @/90-ghost

Ashraf Alanqar, his wife Widad Issa, and their little son Bakr (€3,934/€30,000) - @ashrafanqer, verified by @/90-ghost

Yousef (a toddler who needs lifesaving treatment for a blood disease) and his parents (€2,117/€25,000) - @dima96yousef, verified by @/90-ghost

Youssef Hilles's wife and five children, including his young son whom he's never gotten to meet in person (€3,446/€23,000) - @zeinyousef, #206 on @/el-shab-hussein and @/nabulsi's spreadsheet

Basel Ayyad and his family of eight, including his sick daughter who is losing her sight without treatment (CHF2,612/CHF60,000) - @basel-1995, #214 on @/nabulsi and @/el-shab-hussein's spreadsheet

Ramez Hilles and his family of ten, including several children (€853/€37,000) - @ramezderar, verified by @/90-ghost

Ghada Afifi (needs surgery for a heart condition) and her family ($1,720/$50,000) - @lifeasme24 on tiktok, verified by @/lieahsblog (reach out for more details)

Wafaa Alnhal's family of 15, including four children and a newborn (they've already lost multiple family members, including Wafaa's young niece) (€26,148/€50,000) - @wafs-posts, #171 on @/nabulsi and @/el-shab-hussein's spreadsheet

The Al Zaeem family of seven, including four children and their severely ill grandfather ($19,011 CAD/$50,000 CAD) - @yosofzaeem, @malkzaeem, verified by @/nabulsi

Widow Safaa Abubaker and her two little children (€868/€15,000) - @safaamo, verified by @/ibtisams

Ahmed Baalousha, his wife Islam, their three children (one a newborn, he suffers especially from malnutrition), and Ahmed's parents and sister (€14,769/€50,000) - @5735765, #234 on @/el-shab-hussein and @/nabulsi's spreadsheet

Muhammad Al-Habil, his wife, their three young children, and Muhammad's chronically ill parents (€8,850/€50,000) - @mohammedfamily11, verified by @/el-shab-hussein

Helping Siraj Abudayeh, his wife, and their three children to rebuild their beloved home ($4,081 CAD/$82,000 CAD) - @siraj2024, #219 on @/nabulsi and @/el-shab-hussein's spreadsheet

Evacuating Firas Muhaisen's family of six (including three children) and paying he and his sister's medical school fees (needed by next month) ($1,939 CAD/$82,000 CAD) - @firasmuhaisenn, @nisreenameen, @hashem-fromgaza, verified by @/90-ghost

Nael Khalid and family (unknown amount) - @islamgazaaccount2, verified by @/90-ghost

Fiancés Noor and Alaa (both have lost multiple family members already) (€2,823/€25,000) - @nouralaagaza, verified by @/ibtisams

Helping Mahmoud Abu Hamam and his family rebuild their house and their lives ($790/$25,000) - @ma7moudgaza2, #149 on @/el-shab-hussein and @/nabulsi's spreadsheet

not yet vetted:

Amjad Al-Shaltawi's family of 11, including several children and his wife Suha, who's lost her whole family (€658/€97,000) - @amjadshiltawu

Helping Hamed and his family to rebuild their home and livelihood (€643/€70,000) - @hamedkara

any contribution you can make is infinitely valuable, regardless of the size of your following or the amount you can give. let's keep working together to support families like these suffering violence and displacement. your help can save lives.

[northgazaupdates]

EMERGENCY!!

URGENT! Lina was displaced AGAIN yesterday! She has been repeatedly displaced by IOF attacks ever since her home in north Gaza was damaged months ago. Once again, she has been forced to flee her place of shelter.

In addition to the danger, exhaustion, and expense of repeated displacement, Lina has another problem: her youngest son has contracted Hepatitis C after having to drink contaminated water. His illness is worsened by malnutrition, and he is very sick.

If they are forced to flee again, they will have no way to travel and nowhere to go!

Please support Lina so she has a chance to find accommodations, food, and medicine for her family!

She has been vetted by nabulsi

Donate to Help Lina and Her Sons Rebuild Their Lives and Future, organized by Mohammed Ahmad

Under the Fire of War: The Story of a Family Striving to Rebuild … Mohammed Ahmad needs your support for Help Lina and Her Sons Rebuild Thei

[mortal-kingss]

hohhh,,, 20 hours of work and she is FINISHED!!!!! super happy w this but i will never ever do crosshatching again !!!

i’ll likely have this as a print on my etsy in a couple weeks if enough people are interested!

[rad1zh]

Where you go, I go.

Guys this might be the biggest comeback ever /j BUT it has been more than a year now since I finished TMA and I had to redraw this piece from last year!!!

[soupdwelling]

“Hey, I’m right here. It’s- it’s okay, we’re on the train to Scotland. We’re safe, Martin.”

based on this fic by @arcadecarpetgay please read it i’m so normal about his writing

closeups below the cut !

[epilobium]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Magnus Archives (Podcast) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Martin Blackwood/Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist Characters: Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist, Martin Blackwood Additional Tags: Post-Episode: e200 Last Words (The Magnus Archives), Location: Somewhere Else (The Magnus Archives), Alternate Universe - College/University, Post-Canon, Spoilers for Episode: e200 Last Words (The Magnus Archives), Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Arguing, Moral Dilemmas, Moral Ambiguity, Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort Series: Part 2 of the aches between Summary:

Sometimes old pains build up, and despite their efforts to try and talk things through, there are moments where things feel too raw, too real, and they come ripping out like wildfire, catching everything in its wake. There are nights where they hurl baseless accusations, some where they pick mercilessly as scabbing wounds, at bleeding guilts, trying to make the other understand. There are hurts that curl in the marrow of them, that pump slick through the veins of them, that trail cutting fingers along the axons of them.

Things may never be easy. But this is worth every ache, every misstep, every argument.

Isn't it? ____

Exploration of a scene from the epilogue of the aches between missed connections (the beautiful devastation of meeting you again). Spoiler warnings for the end of that story as well as the magnus archives in general!

(A little exploration of hurt and love between two people figuring things out as they go! I’ve missed this verse so much!!)

[epilobium]

the aches between missed connections (the beautiful devastation of meeting you again) (81963 words) by epilobium Chapters: 25/25 Fandom: The Magnus Archives (Podcast) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Martin Blackwood/Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist Characters: Martin Blackwood, Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist Additional Tags: Location: Somewhere Else (The Magnus Archives), Alternate Universe - College/University, Post-Episode: e200 Last Words (The Magnus Archives), Post-Canon, Spoilers for Episode: e200 Last Words (The Magnus Archives), Reunions, Alternate Universe - Different First Meeting, Sort Of, Hurt/Comfort, Yearning, OCD tendencies, PTSD, Slow Burn, Non-Sexual Intimacy Summary: Jon's been going about his life and his schooling the same way he always has — overworking himself to exhaustion and attempting to ignore the phantom pains he experiences (though there's one ache that always takes him out for the day, a blinding pain in his chest just above his heart that doctors have assured him is no cause for alarm). One late night, while doing work for his literature course, something strange happens. He brushes it off, but when the same thing keeps happening, maybe Jon has to admit there's something going on. or Jon and Martin will find each other, no matter where they go.

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Finally finished this fic and I am really proud of how it turned out! I’ll most likely be writing a few more stories in this verse, as well! :)

[irbarti]

today’s jmart brought to you by: my two moods on public metro

[irbarti]

au where jon got the comfort and love he deserved after waking up from his coma

[irbarti]

oh to be happy

[irbarti]

*listens to mitski’s cover of let’s get married* hey look how hard i can yearn