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37yrs - She/Her - Survivor

[eponastory]

Welcome!!!

So, I'm your typical writer. I've been writing for over 20 years at this point, currently working on that degree in Psychology while also writing a novel, but fanfiction keeps getting in the way. There really isn't much else to say except I'm real. I keep it real. I don't do bullshit, even though I do a lot of bullshitting.

Current Works:

Finding My Way - Bucky Barnes x OFC with teenage daughter

Watching From the Tower - Complete! Bucky Barnes x F!Reader (No Y/N) Tower fic with the New Avengers.

Sometimes. Maybe, It's Okay - Bucky Barnes x OFC pre- FATWS (Affectionately known as Claireverse to my Readers)

A little House Keeping here....

My Blogs are a Safe Place and Judgement Free.

What does this mean?

It means that until you give me a reason to say goodbye that falls under a specific category, you are welcome to engage with my blogs.

Categories that will get you blocked and then blasted:

Bullying

Harassment

Hate Speech

Discrimination

Sexual Harassment (of any kind, especially to minors, must protect the kids)

Taking things too far with your beliefs.

Gaslighting. I will use your gas to light a fire under your ass. it doesn't work on me.

and general bullshit that everyone on the internet should know.

Among other common sense things.

Things that I will not talk about:

Current Politics (I am Centrist, Libertarian, I don't really care for talking about who the president is or what he's doing or what either party is doing)

Religion (Unless it's in historical context) **Do not throw bible verses at me**

Abortion (Even though I am pro-choice, I find it's a subject no one can agree over)

Things I will talk about:

Pretty much everything else. Positivity, Equality, and Love. Those are the things I support.

BLOG MAY HAVE NSFW CONTENT ON IT!!! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. NSFW CONTENT WILL BE LABELED AS SUCH.

[mackonfire]

Shocking news: local tumblr blogger does nothing all day, then wonders why nothing’s been done

[eponastory]

Don't call me out like that!

[writing-prompt-s]

A demon has cursed you with the inability to have children or form a family, and as soon as you learn of this you went to tell the witch who you promised your firstborn child, as this clearly will prevent you from fulfilling your side of the deal.

[eponastory]

Guess I need my lawyer...

[eponastory]

Let's talk about Tarot in fiction.

As someone who is a history buff and a practicing bloodline witch (non-Wicca, I'll get to that later) Tarot is absolutely incorrectly used in fiction and in fandoms. Case and point, lately 'fans' have been doing tarot readings for a celebrity's relationship status and I dare say some even believe it.

Guess what? It's not real.

Tarot was invented in 15th century Italy by CHRISTIANS as a card game. It wasn't until the 18th century that esoterists decided to add the divination aspect to Tarocci to make it more entertaining. It's a fairly new concept in the grand world of the occult. You could say that our modern cards (the suits) are based off of Tarocci as well, but I digress. Anyway, Occultists gave each card meanings to help with internal reflection and divination.

Meaning: The cards are used to make a reflection of the deck holder. You can't read for others. The cards do not predict the future but rather help identify areas that you need to reflect on. A reading can't be done over the internet or over the phone because the person who needs the reading must be handling the deck. It works off of intention. You cannot do consensual readings either. Again, it goes back to intention. The deck does not give answers on if someone is going to break up, have a baby, or lose their job. That isn't how it works and those who think it works that way, well, that's fantasy.

However, Tarot is all bullshit anyway. Even I, a practicing witch, know this.

What it can be used for? Inner reflection. A three-card draw is great for daily reflection and goals. Past, present, and future can be used to set goes for the day and reflect on what happened the day before. It's basically therapy.

So, using this in fiction is actually the more accurate way--if you are going the realism route. If you are going Fantasy? ANYTHING GOES!

But just know that real Tarot is not to be taken seriously.

On the note of the parasocial idiots doing Tarot readings for Sebastian Stan and Annabelle Wallis--I have never rolled my eyes so hard. I think my eyes might be under my bed with how hard I rolled them.

Please don't buy into that shit.

Anyway,

laterz

[eponastory]

And now we have Sebastian...

I can't even make this shit up.

Same person. Two blogs impersonating actors (which is illegal in the US, BTW) that have not and will not touch Tumblr. Sebastian is not on social media...PERIOD. It might be fun, but its not. This has turned into fanfiction and Role Playing a fictional version of a real person. Not only that, how much do you want to bet that the person behind the blogs is going to infantalize him?

$1000 I want my money now.

And sending asks to yourself? Amateur.

[eponastory]

Ya'll have officially lost the plot now...

I wasn't going to post anything...I wasn't. But you bitches are just plain stupid now.

You morons (and you truly deserved to be called morons) think this is funny. I get that, but it really isnt. Actually, pretty sure impersonation is against Tumblr policy. Its fine with fictional characters, but not with real people.

And sending asks to yourself? Please...be more original than that.

God ya'll are pathetic.

[galaxies-moons-and-stan]

Even I’m like why did you not go Annabelle? I’m sure there is a reason but I just don’t understand why she wouldn’t go with him for this 🤷🏻‍♀️ // Cannes isn't a bring your partner/wife to work event because an actor is contractually obligated to go for the film. Its cast, writers, and directors that sit in the auditorium with film critics and other actors involved with the other films being judged at the festival. Unless Annabelle was in another film or she is part of the judging audience, she shouldn't be there, which is why there are other events going on. Gotta love the film industry.

But from what I heard, Fjord is one of the more impressive films at the festival this year. Especially since it got a 12 minute standing ovation. That and the other ones were mediocre at best. The week isn't over yet.

I smell an Oscar nomination.

Yeah but she was with him last time. Just odd to me.

[eponastory]

She was there for the red carpet only. She did not attend the Palais Screening of the Apprentice. Again, only cast, director, and producers are allowed to be in the auditorium for the screening.

This is actually where people get it confused because to get a seat in the Palais, you have to be invited by the jury.

[ysrith]

Just a few thoughts on Actors and Fandom and how Parasocial Behaviour is ruining fandoms for the rest of us

Just been down the rabbit hole of tags related to a certain Marvel actor, Sebastian Stan, whom I like from an acting POV. Yes he's very pretty but also IMHO a good actor. Wanted to see what the reaction to his latest movie at Cannes was, as I like his acting choices outside of Marvel Fjord sounded very interesting.

Discovered a cesspool of parasocials crazies who've taken over the tag who are so obsessed with him on a personal level and his love life (whatever) that they are actually hoping his new movie fails.

But also unbelievabley misogynistic and ageist.

I've also never seen such misogyny towards a partner and the comments on her pregnancy are the work of insane people. Am not sure someone of them actually understand that pregnancy is not an illness and that your life doesnt go on hold. But then again American povs on these sort of things are antiquated and odd.

don't give 2 rats arses whether it's PR or real, or if he either gay or a womanizing slut. Apparently he's both. Good for him. As long as it's all consensual adults, u do who u want man.

But the amount of sheer time and effort put into the parasocial lunacy is amazing to read. You could use this as a thesis on the modern age of celebrity and social media

Yes I am old but I've seen craxy fans in my time. Let's not mention Jensen Ackles fans! But this level is mind boggling

They are having shipper wars over his love life. The misogyny towards his partner is horrific, even if you don't think it's real, some if those comments are simply vile. The agism is rife.

And they have so many opinions on his acting choices.

My favourite so far is the stop with the art movies that no one wants to watch and do a romcom or continue to loose his fan base.

(eye roll)

Also how so many Marvel actors are failures outside of Marvel. Did you know that Scarlett Johansen's career is a flop? Me neither.

They have "serious" opinions of what his acting choices should be

Comedies and Romcoms apparently!

Yes all we want in cinema is more shite American Romcoms. Like actors should pick their roles on the basis of what the online crazy wants

BTW most American RomComs fails miserably at the box office and are critically panned. Remember kidlets there is actually a world outside of the USA and some actors choose to work in it.

I like actors who take chances, go beyond preconceptions about what they should do.

Pretty is fine but unless they can act they leave me cold. Hello Brad Pitt

But what really amazes me is the actual amount of time and effort these people spend on this. Its fascinating. Have they no jobs to do?

Its actually bizarre (the astrological charts re his life would actually be funny if not for the fact that some of them take it seriously).

But in the end it ruins the fandom for others and basically confirms all the crazy shite re obsessed female fans and fandom. Yes even pre the Internet, you know back in the Stone Age, certain fans were a bit obsessive but this is a complete mind boggling level

Of course certain posters gain kudos off of it and it makes them feel important." Look at me i know things, I have a special understanding."So they get the hits and love the attention and onwards goes the spiral.....

You know i am old. Over 50. They probably think i shouldnt have an opinion, just like the girlies who think people over 25 shouldnt be writing fanfic.

My philosophy is you either like an actors work or you don't.

Personally I don't like Chalamet or Cruise.

I'm a movie buff. I like big bad action and arthouse. My collection of "old"movies goes back decades. I like actors who break my preconceptions. Heh if they are pretty bonus points

But me I'm in it for the acting

I have a love/ hate relationship with fandom. I recognise i am a fan myself, old school con girlie here, but these "fans" make me embarrassed to be one. They've always existed but social media just takes it to new levels. Truly crazy

[eponastory]

I feel the same way...

[eponastory]

I think the problem with writing fanfiction for me now is...

I've outgrown it.

Not because I wanted to move on or anything, but it's at the point where I can't find any stories that have the emotional depth that I crave. Do not take this as there isn't any talented fanfiction writers that are capable of it or have produced top tier emotional masterpieces, but I'm at that point in my life where originality has bit me.

I've spent the last twenty something years writing these emotionally complex characters with a lot of trauma, but the canon source limits what you can do with them in some ways. We see these characters (Dante, Vergil, Bucky, and Zuko, to name a few) who have such rich development and backstories that give them that complex emotional intelligence that they are often put in positions that most real people wouldn't want to be in concerning romance and relationships with other people.

I'm seeing more stories rush into the relationship before letting the characters and the stories breathe a bit. I'm not knocking it, however, this is probably due to the writer not as mature in their craft as others and that's okay. We all have to start somewhere. We all have to grow and nurture our skills to be better writers. It's a process that takes practice and time.

Fanfiction no longer does this for me because I have gotten to a point where I can take the characters I've been borrowing and learn from them. What I mean is I've learned to write characters who have been through a lot of shit. I've learned how to write emotionally complex characters and make them feel human. I've learned to tell the story through stakes and taking chances to give the characters nuance. I've learned to take risks and get the rewards with my decisions regardless of what readers think.

It's not about the writing. It's about the story and you can't have the story without the characters and the conflict. You also can't write a good story without trusting yourself and your readers.

Hone your craft. Read more. Write as much as you can and learn from other writers.

-Story

[eponastory]

What a punk.

[eponastory]

I'm divorcing my current husband for my first husband.

BABY IM HERE!!!

[sebasfujos-blog]

About the comparison between DmC Dante and Netflix Dante, I think they are actually more similar than we thought at least in the sense of being in the necessity to have something to cling on because they lack their other half

This is more obvious if you watch the show (like me unfortunately) but N.Dante really is desperate for Vergil. Starting by the fact he literally breaks out of the cry sleep because he specifically feels the presence of Vergil closer, and after wake up he says he needs to see Vergil with big needy eyes

And the series finale he textually says "I can't loose you again after having you back" and he's angry because he doesn't want Vergil to stay in hell (btw Ver clearly is heart broken by this two). He can't literally fight due the emotional stubbornness, and in the end despite Vergil saves him and send back Dante to Earth with the amulet he's still devastated and crying

Honestly, if you watch the show (something I don't recommend) is surprising how much Mary acts as a physical barrier between the twins, and she's the one to put herself in such position intentionally trying to keep Dante away from connect with Vergil in a meaningful way. That also includes the romantic side of their "relationship"

Which btw is toxic af, even the ladydan shippers point this out

Lady keeps lying, emotionally manipulating and subtly abusing Dante for her own needs, taken adventage of his own ignorance and how Dante minimize his own pain

And you know what is the funniest part? She doesn't come back to him in the finale, as she admits they aren't compatible and just fucks off just wishing but not checking if Dante is alive after using him all this time

Meanwhile Dante absolutely devastated is alone and thinking on Vergil...

They gor a really tragic ending

I can’t say too much because I’ve only seen the adaptation through spoilers and screenshots, and honestly most of them looked pretty bad to me 😭 But this is the first take that’s actually made me interested. And I’m not gonna lie, those screenshots of Dante staring at the sky with empty eyes are REALLY getting me. Sometimes I just want to enjoy dramatic and messy emotions instead of overanalyzing everything 😈

That said, I think I mostly agree with your interpretation. But I also think it’s important to remember that original Dante never actually wanted to stay in Hell with Vergil. What he really wanted was to keep Vergil with him on Earth, on his own terms. And only after losing him did he fully realize how much he messed up and fall into grief and regret.

And honestly, Lady is really important to understanding Dante in DMC3. Her whole thing was wanting to kill Arkham no matter what, and Dante kind of copied that mindset and projected it onto Vergil. The problem is that Arkham and Vergil were never the same emotionally. Lady could move on after killing her father. Dante couldn’t move on after losing Vergil because, deep down, he never actually wanted to lose him at all.

That’s why afterward Dante ends up obsessed with combat and chasing that feeling over and over again, because fighting is basically the closest thing he has to emotional intimacy with Vergil.

I also agree that Vergil probably protected Dante from staying in Hell, but I think part of Vergil also genuinely believes they shouldn’t stay together. Like, “I belong in Hell because I’m more demon, and Dante belongs on Earth because he’s more human.” There’s this constant self-separation in him.

And honestly, this adaptation’s Dante feels way more emotionally open than game Dante. Original Dante hides behind jokes, sarcasm, and reckless behavior because he doesn’t want to get hurt emotionally.

Also 😭 people are probably gonna kill me for this, but even in the 2007 anime, which everyone keeps comparing this adaptation to, Lady never felt romantic to me. She felt more like a messy friend who cared about Dante in her own way while also taking advantage of him sometimes. I honestly always thought Trish felt softer and kinder toward him emotionally.

That’s why the romantic angle feels weird to me. Friendship? Sure. Caring about each other? Absolutely. But romance changes the emotional core of Dante’s story in a way that just doesn’t click for me.

And I think people get confused because Dante and Vergil are always fighting 😭 But that’s literally the tragedy of their relationship. They love each other deeply, but they keep hurting each other because neither of them can fully let go of their ideals. Vergil chooses power over Dante. Dante chooses humanity over Vergil. So they stay stuck in this cycle where they can’t stop loving each other, but they also can’t stop hurting each other either.

And honestly? While reading your analysis I genuinely felt like you were tempting me into watching the adaptation 💀 In a good way. Because the way you described it sounded way more emotionally interesting than the spoilers made it seem.

P.S. Sorry for the huge ramble 😭 Your analysis actually got into my head and now I’m doubting whether I should watch it or not.

[eponastory]

Delete, please.

You first.

[eponastory]

Watching Devil May Cry season 2 and the Chair makes an appearance...

[eponastory]

Kinda thinking about deleting this blog...

Not because of any hate or harassment, but because I'm writing two books at once with totally different genres and I mostly use this blog to rant and rave now.

Beyond that, I haven't really been writing fanfiction. I've just been working on the books. That and Tumblr is a pretty small platform compared to IG, TT, and Twixter. If I'm going to market myself, I have to do it there. Already have a TT, but I'm horrible at TT. So, that is the question of the day...

I'm going work my ass off to accomplish something most people don't think they can do, but the thing is... they can do it. The only obstacle in their way is themselves. Everything takes work and writing a book does too. Becoming a grounded and solid writer takes practice. The writer I was five years ago versus today is completely different.

So, do something for yourself.

[eponastory]

It has come to my attention that that someone, not naming any names but I know who you are, is saying that I'm harassing someone for being Trans. Let me be as clear as humanly possible... I am a supporter of the Trans Community. I would never ever tell someone what to do with their bodies and how they feel about themselves. Anyone who knows me will know that, but I guess that one person who has an obsession with me doesn't really know me now do they? While it's true that I may make fun of the madness on the gossip blogs, I mostly do it as a mirror while not actually naming names. I like pointing out things to argue, but I really have no beef with anyone. ssteamingtea- Please know that I am not the one sending you anything about your body or telling you anything like what I've been told is being said. If you do feel that way, I am sorry that this is happening to you. I do not support anyone telling anyone what they can and can't do with their bodies.

[eponastory]

The question I have now is...

Do I want to work on the book? Or... do I want to start a new Bucky Fanfic now that I'm free of school for the summer? These are serious questions. I could always work on the fics that I have already in works. I need to get back into my rhythm before I really get cracking on the book again.