I'll sing silence

SO, I joined purely for The Amazing Devil, but I also follow a fuckton of other fandoms. And might post random snippets of abandoned poetry.

[nariiminus]

[zer0brainc3lls]

Rocky dumbing down his speech for Grace only reinforces the idea that Grace is a kid in the other Eridians eyes and multiple conversations are happening at once..

Eridian scientist: why did they send a baby to space?!

Rocky: Grace is not a baby. He’s a fully grown human and you all need to respect that-

At the same time another Eridian: the human is thirty!! Are you COMPLETELY sure he’s not a child? He’s barely coordinated!

Rocky: Grace is very sick!! Of course he’s not coordinated you fucking idiot-

ALSO at the same time: did you not think to teach him how to understand us properly?? Let alone communicate with us.

Rocky: he doesn’t have the vocal cords for most of our sounds!! And we were WORKING on him being able to understand proper speech but he’s delirious?! The fact he’s conscious is a miracle-

Grace who is visible stressed and half covering his ears but also trying to listen: what’s going on?? I can’t hear you guys it’s too loud- Rocky what’s going on?!

Rocky: apology apology other Eridians ask dumb dumb dumb questions, Rocky tell Grace later. Grace sleep now Rocky handle.

Grace just nods with bleary eyes and knocks out almost immediately, and the other Eridians are giving Rocky the equivalent of a raised eyebrow in unison.

[wastelanderscribeknight-raz]

I have some thoughts on Alex saying that it was a childhood shutdown moment when Occtis shutdown in response to Primus killing Hannan.

For one, it is informative as to why Occtis never saw his family while he went to the Penteveral despite it being in the same city as the manor. Occtis was terrified of Primus so he never visited.

The other thing is that it gives some insight to Occtis' relationship with Thaisha. Very recently Occtis thought Thaisha was using them and then Thaisha told Occtis that he had a room in her home. Then a short while later Occtis said he loved her unprompted. Occtis being given a home must have met something to Occtis. To be given a home after such a long time of not having one where he felt safe. I'm also sure that he got the sense that his family didn't want him and giving Occtis a home sends the opposite message.

You love to see it.

[grumpytuftedtitmouse]

Just got to Azune's breakdown in Convergence and it has not made me any more normal about him. What if you saw your sister for the first time in years, you got confirmation she was alive, and you got it by her taking a potentially-fatal shot for you. What if you looked in her eyes and saw that some vital part of herself was withered and gone, and despite that, she still loves you. What if, despite spending your life and pouring out your soul to do The Right Thing, you saw that it was eating you, maybe like life ate your sister. What if you were questioning everything about yourself, everything you've chosen to do, and suddenly you get a link to who you were Before dropped into your lap. And it's your sister that you love! And you don't remember all of your language or where your hometown is or where your people were from, but your sister was here just yesterday and she still loves you. And of course you still love her, you never stopped. You need to find her, this person who remembers who you were, where you're from, because you do not remember and you love her and maybe you can figure yourself out after all, maybe you can have a family after years of being alone, if you can just find her.

And then you have to go into mortal peril once again, for this cause you've altered yourself for over and over again, and you ask for what you need to come out alive. Maybe for the first time in a long time, you're a little selfish. You want to live (for your own sake, for the first time in how long?). Can't someone you need risk a little, too? And you're turned down and suddenly it's all too much, you can't handle it, you're always strong because you need to be, and you can't help breaking down but maybe if you do it right, if you find just the right way to express what you're feeling, you'll get what you need.

And then you do get what you need. And maybe you'll have a chance to find your sister (find yourself).

[m-azing1]

Thaisha gave Occtis a needle. A piece of metal. Just like the one she gave to her biological son, Alogar, so she can find him. The same son that Occtis disguised himself to look like so he could pretend to be part of that family instead of his own. Except now with that needle, a compass for Thaisha to be able to find him, Occtis doesn’t have to pretend anymore.

[warrioreowynofrohan]

Azune Nayar is not someone who was failed in his youth by the adults around him.

Azune Nayar is someone whose childhood and youth were marked by adults who, faced with bad choices, made the less-worse one because they cared about him.

His parents starved themselves to give him and his sister the chance of being recruited as child soldiers by a mercenary group, because that was the only way to protect him from starvation.

Thjazi Fang saw a child abandoned by the roadside, desperately, determinedly, and implausibly claiming he could fight. Thazi Fang was in the middle of waging a rebellion against the powers of Araman. That rebellion wasn’t the best place for a child of twelve. But it was a better place than abandoned by the roadside or picked up by another mercenary group, and Thjazi cared, so Thjazi took him in and assigned him to noncombat work away from the front lines.

By 15 Azune was fighting on the front lines. (In an earlier war, the same was true of Thazi at that age.)

Thjazi’s rebellion failed. He asked his brother Hal to look out for the teenage Azune. Hal did so, treating Azune as part of his family. Hal did the same for other people who needed it. Being like family wasn’t the same as being Hal’s kid.

The tragedy of Azune isn’t that he was failed or abandoned or uncared for or used. The tragedy of Azune is that the best that people who cared about him could give him still wasn’t the same as what he needed, because being an adult doesn’t make you all-powerful. Azune’s problems weren’t created by those who loved him. They were created by the world he lives in.

Azune lived his adult life for the Torn Banner because it was the life he knew; or out of loyalty; or because they were the ones trying to change that world into something different.

He offers understanding and empathy to enemies (Julien) and strangers (Vaelus). He learned that somewhere.

He will self-immolate for a cause. He likely learned that from his parents, who did it for him, and from Thjazi, who did it for the same cause.

[adainesjacket]

CRITICAL ROLE 4.31 (4.1 & 4.30) I need to find my family.

[hayatheauthor]

after weeks of protests, hundreds detained, thousands injured, I am proud to finally say WE DID IT!!! THE INDIAN EDUCATION MINISTER HAS BEEN SACKED!

Just the first step in hopefully a long journey of reformation but you need to understand after a decade of Modi's dictator-esque regime we have finally seen some semblance of hope

[ultimatedirk]

Papa Bear Hug

[redjennies]

if I've said it before I'll say it a thousand times more but like 95% of the bad Azune takes are the result of white fans who don't identify as part of a diaspora group obstinately refusing to engage with the canon themes and ethnic coding Luis is putting into the character in order to tell a story that draws heavily from his own cultural background and instead yelling "okay wouldn't it be cooler if [insert stock fantasy trope that's been done to fucking death here]?"

[technoturian]

Azune: *starts to step away to compose himself* Murray: *stops him* Hey. I love you. Azune, in the saddest, wettest whine: I just stopped crying!

[blackwatersinkingship]

When I finish this whale shark lamp all 4 of you are gonna be So I'm pressed

[blackwatersinkingship]

She glows now, just so you know, and she's full of string deliciöusee string

[god-sent-gender-bent]

Are you gonna show us the lamp? 👀

[blackwatersinkingship]

Good news! Whäle shark lämp 🥰

[hollyevolving]

A lot more than 4 of us are impressed

[flootzavut]

Amazeballs.

[pawthorn]

As always, I'm so here for Aabria and her attention to the world, both the small details and the larger implications, how grounded her character is in its histories and realities, using that character knowledge to put things together and move things forward so swiftly elegantly, cutting through confusion and argument.

"Wasn't Thjazi called Shadow?"

Tossing the Iron nail to Julien.

Quickly cutting through all the noise to reveal the truth.

While playing Thaisha, Aabria is so conscious of the world and Thaisha's worldview. As a woman whose religious culture has been persecuted nearly to extinction. As a person from a race that every other race of Aramán was happy to leave in subjugation; the suffering of the Rungjani was a fair price for their comfort.

You can viscerally feel this in her gentle but clear acknowledgement of Bolaire, her tone when she asked him why he was so angry.

"What exactly do you find to be foolishness, Bolaire?"

The calm, despite the fact that, when it comes down to it, he is angry that the actions Thjazi set in motion blew up his comfortable life. The same actions that liberated the Runjani afterlife. He doesn't think "a couple hundred" Rungjani souls are worth it.

"So you're not angry, you're afraid."

It reminded me of when Aranessa was breaking down and overwhelmed because her life was blown up and she has to make hard decisions to move forward. Thaisha used the same gentle, but firm tone then.

"You always had to make a choice and the world was always chaos. It's just touching you now."

There's such weight and truth behind the way Aabria carries Thaisha. I look forward to her Soldier table, but I feel for what the rest of the tables will be losing without her presence.

[ajmasch]

Absolutely hilarious that thjazi is equally as horrified to learn that getting attached to julien is what saved him, just a couple of guys who hate each other in the get-along-sweater A+ no notes

[fishmechs]

[no-atheists-in-fckstles]

Primus deals death to nobility and commoners alike with nary a shift in expression ("I bear your house no ill will." "She's annoyed me.") He also doesn't seem to enjoy having blood on himself. He delegated Occtis's surgery to Ethrand. He held the back of the cab driver's head while Wick slashed her throat. He pulled Raimond's skull out from behind with incorporeal fingers, leaving the gore. He wiped his chin and flicked his hands clean after Julien cut him.

Yet Primus emerged from his attack on Marienna and Esme with a blood-spattered face and a smile so wide Brennan mentioned it twice. Which could mean nothing.

[seelieyoulater]

Hal's statement of "My choice is the Rungjani, these three specifically, this city specifically" to Thjazi as why he won't join the Falconer's Rebellion being the same reason he picks up his brother's blade and starts his own rebellion, continues his brother's unfinished business is so good.

Thjazi came knocking on his door at 2am one night, begging him to fight, and he turned him down. Then years later, it all came crashing down on his doorstep once again, and he chooses to fight for the very same people and place that he said he would stay and defend the first time.