sigh

17. borderline. uk.

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[avpdkaneki]

me: *is chillin* bpd: it’s time for jealousy me: i have no reason to be jealous wtf relax bpd, grabbing me by the collar: IT’S TIME FOR JEALOUSLY me, suddenly violently bitter: ur the boss i guess

[cutiemon-deactivated20190223]

someone: i love you

my damaged ass: haha, no you don’t

[eternalsighstuff-blog]

me 50% of the time: don't fucking touch me

me the other 50% of the time: please fucking touch me

[onlinedaddy]

anyone else feel like they’re toxic to anyone they care about

[eternalsighstuff-blog]

me @ myself: don't make a self-depreciating joke.

me, 3 seconds later: did you guys know i can say 'i hate myself' in 7 different languages

[avpdkaneki]

impulsive happy messages are horrible because one minute ur excitedly quadruple texting and then they dont respond and ur whole mood crashes and it’s all their fault and they definitely didn’t respond because they hate u and wanted to ruin ur mood and make u miserable and

[girlfromthe-subway]

Someone: um….. .. Ur being dramatic My BPD ass: ya…u don’t say…

[bpd-suggestion]

always switching from ‘everyone is beautiful’ to 'everyone is so fkn ugly get out of my face’

[audhdummy]

one thing i’ve noticed about bpd is when i come across a good thing, it either lifts me up and i float through the ceiling, i can feel my heart beating through my chest and it feels as if it’s going to spill with happiness

or it leaves me completely unaffected, cold and numb 

[eternalsighstuff-blog]

therapist: how are you feeling?

me: i don't feel a fucking thing my guy

[eternalsighstuff-blog]

me: *makes a minor mistake*

me: nothing a bit of.. intense self hatred can’t fix!!!!

[eternalsighstuff-blog]

me some years ago: I'm gonna study a lot and get a good job and I'll work hard and i'll be successful and I'll have lots of friends and a significant other and I'll travel all over the world :)

me now: can things just.stop.for a while....slow down....give me a break...,,,let me rest...i don't know if i'll make it through today...,,,

[eternalsighstuff-blog]

me refreshing the activity page every 2 seconds: i live for attention and validation

[eternalsighstuff-blog]

someone: what do you mean you feel empty and depressed you were fine yesterday

me: it's BPD my friend

[borderlinebetweenwhatxoxo]

tbpdfw you Split™ on someone and you’re not sure how much of your feelings are based on reality and how much of them are based on bpd

[bpd-ptsd]

Boredom and loneliness are, to me, the worst symptoms of BPD. I’m just. So. Empty.