Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magika | Puella Magi Madoka Magica
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence
Relationships: Akemi Homura/Kaname Madoka
Characters: Kaname Madoka, Kriemhild Gretchen, Kriemhild Gretchen's Unnamed Familiars
Additional Tags: Hallucinations, Suicidal Ideation, Character Death In Dream, repeated character death, Self-Hatred, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, POV Second Person, POV Third Person Limited, Body Horror, Witchification, Saudade, Rebellion Story, Except Madoka's the one who experiences a world-shattering meltdown, Alternate Universe - Role Reversal, Roleswap, Depression, Kaname Madoka Loves Akemi Homura, Loss of Identity, Being Kaname Madoka is Suffering
Summary:
madoka looks at the stars with homura, and everything's fine
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It seems the Red Eyed Homu (who people are theorizing may be Nekura/Pessimist or another of the Clara Dolls) is missing the gem part of her Soul Gem ring
Shots from the '23 and '24 trailers respectively for reference
now i don’t know enough about omegaverse to say anything definitively but from what i have seen it certainly looks like it emulates insects much more than wolves.
sorry to put you on blast a bit prev but no they don’t, actually
they smell chemosensory indicators that are carried by the scent glands located near the base of the tail—not pheromones. wolves, like most large mammals, do not have any organ that allows for sensing pheromones nor do they produce pheromones that we have ever been able to detect & verify
there are vanishingly few mammals that have proven pheromones and they’re mostly small rodents (like mole rats) or smaller primates (like lemurs)
Listen, you can moan all you want about semantics, but the fact of the matter is that the layperson considers chemosensory indicators and pheromones to be the same thing, and when it overlaps with kink they're usually talking about the former and calling it the latter.
Going "well TECHNICALLY" about pheromones being specifically the kind of thing that leads to ants running around in circles until they die is at best going to yield an "oh, neat" before they go back to talking about wolf pheromones for a really simple reason:
"Chemosensory indicators" is an outrageously unsexy (and unwieldy) phrase, while "pheromones" already has a cultural air of sexiness. Nobody's going to wax on about the nigh-hypnotic allure of a character's chemosensory indicators unless you can come up with a term with less than half those syllables that is at least sexier than the phrase "vaginal discharge".
being the only dyke in the world who prefers the original Oz books’ characterizations (and often feels that book!Glinda gets slept on by people who only like Maguire’s take on her) over everything to do with Wicked as a cultural entity is exhausting. doing that while also knowing Baum would personally loathe me is even more exhausting.
watching wicked as a fan of the oz books is just. well that's not correct. actually in the books it was different. fun fact this actually directly contradicts established worldbuilding. ooh fun easter egg! that's not correct
the tin man already has an on-the-nose human name - nick chopper. not sure why we needed to reinvent the wheel here
after the witch dies, the tin man takes over as leader of winkie country and the scarecrow moves in with him. they are ~very close friends~. friends of dorothy, one might say. making them date women feels like straightwashing
relatedly i cannot emphasize enough how few human men there are in those books. there's like 5 in the entire 14-book series. plenty of male characters that are fantastical creatures of some sort but human men? flirting with human women? for all that people talk about wicked being gay it is WAY straighter
elphaba can run from shiz to the deadly desert yet the emerald city is a short train ride away. the deadly desert encircles oz and the emerald city is in the center. the math is not mathing
the wizard did not usurp an ancient prophecy, he arrived when the heir to the throne was missing and he had his initials o.z. on his balloon. also idk if this was in the movie but i saw a post saying he was from kansas and he's actually from omaha nebraska. not much difference but this post is me being pedantic so i feel like i have to point it out
the 1939 movie fuses glinda and the witch of the north (the witch of the north is the person who greets her in munchkinland while glinda only appears at the end) and wicked goes with that while also expanding the worldbuilding which is disorienting. like it was condensed bc the balance of witches in oz doesn't matter to the main plot really but now that the witches are central the absense of a cardinal-direction witch is confusing
glinda in the books is the most powerful magic user in oz. when the wizard is revealed to be a fraud dorothy goes on a quest to seek out glinda because she's ACTUALLY powerful. glinda eventually takes the wizard under her wing and teaches him some real magic so he's no longer a fraud (redemption arc!) and there's a scene where he does some magic for ozma and dorothy and they're like "great job!!!" and he's all like well i suck actually glinda's the REAL deal. so you can imagine how jarring it is to see glinda do zero magic for an entire movie
i think that's the core of my resentment actually. it has this whole "this is the REAL story about the unfairly maligned woman" thing going on but oz was female-led to begin with. you're not subverting anything by saying that a woman is powerful and trying to unmask a fraud. that was already part of the story. it's a good story on its own but i like when aus are actually trying to have a meaningful conversation with the original and this really isn't
Average internet user: I like pirating MP3s and sharing memes, so yeah! I guess I do hate intellectual property rights! I guess I do want to see private property abolished!
Average internet user upon creating one (1) copyrightable work: I own the color blue now. I already used blue in my MS Paint JPEG, so if you use the color blue too then you're a thief and you're stealing from me. I'm an independent artist and I am being robbed.
Average internet user upon learning about machine generated images: Paramount Global (formerly Viacom) has every right to put anyone that uses the character Squidward without a licensing agreement into a woodchipper. We can't make exceptions for your child or there would be absolute chaos.
i didn’t “take a break” because i was bored, dramatic, or couldn’t handle criticism.
i full deleted my account because someone sent me a death threat involving my family.
not vague. not edgy internet bullshit. specific enough that i didn’t feel safe staying online.
so before anyone starts running their mouth about how i “can’t take hate” or “owe explanations,” read that again and remember that behind this account is a real, breathing human.
over the past month (and longer), i’ve been dealing with
- ai allegations
- harassment in my inbox and on anon
- people dissecting my writing, my posting schedule, my motives
and yes, actual death threats
i’m including screenshots because i’m done protecting people who clearly had no problem trying to scare me into silence.
and let me be very clear about the ai thing since y’all are weirdly obsessed with that accusation
i do not use ai to write my fics.
i never have.
i don’t need to.
i’ve been writing some form fanfic for years. publicly. consistently. with a very obvious voice that hasn’t magically changed overnight. if you think second person pov + smut + emotional beats = ai, that is genuinely a you problem.
dislike my writing? cool. block me.
think i’m overrated? fine. block me.
think my stuff isn’t for you? then why are you here. BLOCK ME.
but jumping from “i don’t like this blog” to threatening my life or my family is unhinged behavior, full stop.
and no, i’m not going to be polite about it.
i’m not going to soften my language to make it easier for the people who did this to swallow.
i’m not going to apologize for disappearing when my safety was on the line.
if you sent hate, if you participated in dogpiling, if you fueled rumors, or if you’re the type of person who thinks anonymity means zero consequences, this post is for you.
if you’ve been supportive, patient, kind, or just quietly waiting for me to come back, thank you. truly. i saw it, even when i couldn’t respond.
this blog exists because i love writing.
it does not exist to be a punching bag.
i will block freely.
i will protect my peace.
and no, i probably shouldn't be back so soon. but i'm sick and tired of allowing some spineless ANONYMOUS person dictate my life. they don't get that power. i refuse to crumble because someone couldn't handle what i'm capable of.
final boundary:
any further harassment, accusations, or threats will be blocked and documented. no replies. no debate. no explanations. anon will be closed if needed. i am not here to prove my humanity, justify my work, or make people comfortable at my own expense.
if you’re here in good faith, we’re good.
if not, this is not the space for you.
hi, would you mind tagging your posts as ai-art in the cases when they are? or if you think you shouldn't be asked to, would you mind sharing your view on that? i'm somewhere in a neutral position on this but i came across your blog (not my jam but it looks like you're having a good time so enjoy) and i'm kind of worried not tagging it is a risk of getting antis mad for lack of transparency, i personally would appreciate being informed about what i'm looking at but i'm just asking. sorry if i'm crossing a line or something, i hope you have a nice day. <3
doing this caused me to regularly receive death threats and pictures of dead dogs so i am not doing that
honestly i need people to step back and critically think about AI and come to their own conclusions about it all, instead of just nodding along with what people are pushing onto others. one is very entitled to their own opinions, no matter if they're more positive or negative, but the current state of discussions around all this is dire.
i'm admittedly critical of AI art, at least when it comes to the current capitalist environment we live in where companies want to cut their artists from the workforce (i'm also absolutely on the side of copyright abolishment, but i feel like in our capitalist society people should really get compensation for their work being used to train AI if they desire it). but the thing is that this opinion is my own, which i came to with my own research and thought on the issue instead of being bullied into absolutely despising AI. and im open to learning more and changing my opinions! i just wish others online were, because i feel like even my opinions are too radical for most people right now
i feel like the past 15 or so years of internet discourse unfortunately prepped us for this in the worst way possible. a lot of social spaces on the web currently are highly polarized by what one's political and moral beliefs are, steamrolled down into 10 letters or less terminology.
proship/antiship is the biggest example, and is also the template for the structure of "if you are/aren't against xyz, you're a bad person" that gets copy-pasted onto as many issues as possible, in order to easily maintain social homogeny. opting out, either due to a lack of information or a belief in nuance, is seen as just as bad as taking a side or even worse, as the polarization is so concentrated that people cannot see a lack of participation as anything but hidden support of the Wrong side from their pov.
it's a shame, because it did seem like we were gradually moving out of that black & white thinking, but i'm starting to see it a lot more frequently again; just applied to different structures.
I'm honestly so tired of seeing ai hate everywhere its so hard to block out...im honestly scared to say that im not anti ai and that im pretty neutral on it (and occasionally use chatbots for fun) and I'm afraid that I will get hate and loose friends for it...
Idk it just feels like ppl keep spreading misinformation about it and have very knee jerk reactions to it and won't even hear you out if you try to tell them its not inherently evil and the problem isnt individuals using gen ai for fun..
i see the sentiment that people are scared to say they're not anti-ai pretty frequently. my suggestion would be to seek out more ai-friendly places so you don't have to worry as much about it! that's why i made this blog myself; i wanted to have a space to talk about ai without worrying about what other people thought.
"listen viktor and madoka are just a set circumstances away from flipping roles as savior and misled villain." HOLY SHIT YOU'RE RIGHT. (...Ooh, concept: a Madoka Roleswap where a time-looping Madoka, during the equivalent of Rebellion, decides to save not just Goddess Homura, but Everyone. Whether they want it or not. (She is the Witch of Salvation, after all-and if she can the girl she loves from her life as a goddess, then can't she save Everyone? It would be easy.))
LISTEN LISTEN OK like madoka and viktor both have the same mentality of "I need to save everyone no matter the cost. my life doesn't mean anything if i cant help people". Viktor would JUMP at the chance to make that Wish to save everyone at the cost of their mortal self, and Madoka would VERY EASILY BE LED ASTRAY if she was given "healing powers" and the ability to apparently alleviate suffering. Kremchild gretchen literally IS that desire twisted into a world ending monster whose convinced that she's saving it (and like damn where have i heard that before). if her wish wasn't so specific it wouldve eventually backfired and killed everything (but she was very smart in holding off on her wish and choosing her words carefully thank god)
the same goes for jayce and homura too tbh. jayce "i'd throw away all morals and regards for autonomy if viktor is in danger" talis would have disregarded that want and wish to save everyone if he believed viktor was at all suffering for it. the only way homura would have ever hurt madoka was if it was the only way to save her (a future god madoka would still have to tell her that she'll come back after dying but you know) (look i dont think jayce entirely tried to stop viktor because he'd be alone at the end of it but i do think. it was the biggest deciding factor for mr "idc about helping the world if you arent here by my side")
you know what at first i was like ehhh i dont know how that would work but then i thought about it and man. Madoka's wish being centered around saving all of her friends and her constantly trying to juggle everyone's fates, but Homura always being at the center (both symbolically as kybuey gets involved once homura arrives, but also because she's the one who madoka promised she'd go back to save specfically and she's also in love but you know). Homura constantly wanting to become a magical girl because she wants to be just like madoka and/or sees her struggling and wants to help. Homura's wish being the only way to stop madoka from destroying herself trying to save everyone. Madoka trying to accept it but still losing her mind over her failure to save the person she loves just one person and forming a labyrinth. and then her realizing that homura is unhappy and lonely in heaven so when the time comes she HAS to save her too. not a single person is allowed to suffer even if it saves so many others. ooooough you're onto something here
AND GOD. I WOULD KILL TO KNOW WHAT HER LABYRINTH/REBELLION KREMCHILD GRETCHN WOULD LOOK LIKE
Did somebody say Rebellion Kriemhild Gretchen?
Well, standard Gretchen is in two parts. The outer body, a cage of threads bounding her labyrinth, beckoning for people to save on top, and her inner body, her 'core', which looks like a giant copy of Madoka's soul gem.
So why not a more… deteriorated version of that? Wasting away from lovesickness and having lost the will to bring salvation. The labyrinth's boundaries swarming with familiars racing to repair her body even as it continuously frays. The beckoning figure hanging from the inside with the core jutting halfway out of it, constantly weeping. The core is completely black. A rotten egg. With no motivation to hatch, the chick dies inside its shell.
And when Madoka makes the decision to fully turn into her, she breaks the core from the inside, and inky, caustic sludge pours out and floods the city along with the false body's tears.
i feel like the in-universe yuri fanworks of kaguya and iroha would be insane,,like theres def moments between them on stream that happened and werent in the movie
like i just know there were like a good amount of kaguya/iro-p shippers who went INSANE over that ongoing marrige thing,,imagine being them,,ur watching the stream and and kaguya js goes "yeah u can marry me if u beat iro-p in a 1v1 <3" meanwhile the shes js going "HEY NO DONT SAY UR GONNA MARRY PPL" (this def caused them to go wild) and then they go on a 3v3 against THE top streamer ans if they lose kaguya marries him ???? AND YOU FIND OUT IRO-P/IROHAS HIS SISTER ?!?!?! AND THEB WHEN THEY WIN THE CONTEST KAGUYA JS RANDOMLY ASKS HER TO GET MARRIED ?!?!?!! (shippers went even more insane)
but ok. ueah. sure. ur ships all but confirmed to be a real thing. ppl are saying that its js gals being oals or wtv and u ignore them.
kaguya has a graduation stream. ur crying. the last thing she ever says is "iroha i love you" ID GO INSANEEEE
and then ???? 10 yrs later they randomly reappear w 0 explanation bout whay happened ??????
