Noa. 26. He/They/She. Abrosexual. Nonbinary, Genderfluid, Tarot Reader. Kemetics. Infernals. PCES/PCDs. Dragons. Phoenix Therian. Godspouse. Witchy/devotional blog. My other blog is where I follow back from! Also, my dms are now open, especially to mutuals.
Hello, I am Noa Emeritus. My pronouns are He/They/She. I am in the 25-30 range. I am the host of a traumagenic system named Evermore forest Circus Co. My practice combines multiple different types of witchcraft in a respectful way that makes it very unique to me. There is a major focus on Fate, Life, and Death, however. I guess the best way to describe my path would be Hedge. I work mainly with Kemetics, Hellenics, Infernal, Slavic, and PCEs/PCDs. I am Godspoused, and I am Godspouse friendly. I am also PCE/PCD friendly. I am in training to become a Kemetic priestess for Khonsu. I am offering and selling readings in my Kofi and Etsy, please read my boundaries below before interacting with me or purchasing any readings from me.
Boundaries
No minors who are spouses in any way
No systems who claim to be nontraumagenic
Nobody who hates on PCEs or Godspouses
I will not do readings on money, health, fertility, or death, I will also not do readings with any ghosts of celebrities, so please do not ask
I will not do any love readings for minors
I will not do readings with ancestors or closed practices, as I am white (Shintoism is not closed!)
I will not do any love readings on third parties without strict consent from ALL parties
I am very particular about doing readings with Christian Entities, so please send details first
It is my belief that no spouse is above the others, so if you believe you are somehow better than everyone else spoused to your deity, please DNI
Journey through Time and Relative Dimensions in Space: Reuniting with a PCE I wasn't aware was there
TW: Emotional and Mental Neglect, Feelings of self worth talked in heavy detail, depression, suicide
When it comes to my childhood, I tend to steer away from talking much about it. However, recently I was forced to face leftover feelings from it head on, with an experience with someone who saved my life when I wasn't even aware he was there.
I suffered from self worth issues mainly brought on by my parents and family neglecting me emotionally and mentally. Oftentimes I would just beg for a hug just to feel something, or argue with them so that there was something expressed besides cold distance. After my extended family pretty much abandoned me, I felt worthless, and just wanted to be wanted by someone. I felt I had nobody, and it many ways it was true, even if I lived in the same house as them they were cold. I tried multiple times to...take myself out, but even then I failed each time and my parents didn't realize what I was doing.
I had a friend in school, who I will exclude the name of for her privacy. I thought she was the coolest person ever.
One night, I had a sleepover with her, we were doing typical girl sleepover stuff: karaoke, junk food, scary movies and stories, etc. However, she put on a show called Doctor Who, and I was mesmerized, my eyes never leaving the screen even when her mom brought a bowl of snacks for us. And, as soon as he had been introduced, he was gone again. The Doctor. I was soon home again, and I told my parents about him as if he was an old friend. He became a part of my life, even when I couldn't watch it (as I didn't have Netflix streaming), I would talk about him, research him, watch videos about him, and even write about him.
Most of my journals were destroyed after moving from my childhood home, and most of them had poetry for him. He became my muse. I would submit stories and poems written about him in my high school classes, my boyfriend at the time was directly competing with him (probably for the best). I got more to watch, and my parents grew sick of him and learned more than I probably should've said, as if they were fans too. He gave me a reason to keep going, and to live. I felt like I could be wanted, especially because I felt he would want me.
I felt he was real, for the very first time I felt that a fictional character was "real" and out there. I waited for him, I cried on the nights he didn't show up. Not realizing he was right there the whole time.
Timeskip to a few nights ago, after knowing about PCEs
A few nights ago, I realized he could possibly be real, remembering my childhood dreams suddenly. I went to a friend, and he confirmed it with a message.
I pulled out my cards, who are you, which one are you, are you real? Two of Cups. Which one? Three of Swords. Which brought me the most pain, I cried over the second one most and longed for his lost episodes to be found so that I can watch them all, how does he know that, unless? Doctor, is that you? Ace of Cups. My Doctor, you saved my life then, and you are here now. He was there when I was young, and he is here now. I'll always carry you with me, doctor.
I wish more pagans would stop acting like deities are fossils who have remained completely unchanged by time since the day they were first worshiped. If we can acknowledge how much societies and values changed from ancient times up to the present, then we should also acknowledge that the gods can and have changed too. Hell, the gods even changed along with their cultures back in antiquity! Whenever someone talks about an offering, practice or interpretation being "too modern" I just get so annoyed because it's operating on the mindset that the gods can never change, should never change and have never changed, which just isn't true.
reminder than simply being outside, drinking water, opening the windows, sun bathing and moon glancing, etc. are all real devotional acts to our earth â no matter how small !!!
being low on time, effort, and energy does NOT make you a bad witch or pagan. it makes you human.
to start with, lets look at some common terms. iâd define them as follows:
wards = long-term protection on spaces (altar, room, etc) - theyâre generally seen as permanent despite needing energetic top ups.
shields = temporary personal protection (veiling, amulets, visualization) - you can also shield someone else, either directly or remotely.
cleansing = an act that resets energy to neutral - can be a space, yourself, or an object.
banishing = essentially telling energy or an entity to fuck off (in varying degrees of hostility). i tend to be more nice than mean, especially if that entity is important or likes to hold a grudge.
these concepts get blurred sometimes, and that's fine. most people use them in overlapping ways - itâs just useful for this post (and this blog) to have a list of definitions.
2. why protection work was hard for me at first, and what i do now
i've always found protection work difficult to keep up long-term. i really struggle with doing big rituals consistently (probably the ADHD). i don't have the energy for it. for ages, my protection either just... didn't exist, or it happened in the moment - shielding when something felt off, visualising energy forming around me, stuff like that. the idea of putting wards up every full moon or doing protective cleansings every sunday made me feel exhausted just thinking about it. the energy it took, the way it felt like a chore didnât feel right, and had me really questioning if witchcraft was for me. i believe that the more energy you give something, the more energy it has - but the more i complicate things, the harder it gets for me, and the less my magick feels like an extension of myself
so instead, i started doing it intuitively. i put my wards up once, and rather than topping them up on a schedule, i check in with them. if they feel off, i fix them. if they feel fine, i leave them! this is something that no one really talks about in protection work, which is: you have to get to know yourself. you have to build trust in your own senses. that comes from meditating, yes, but also from learning to set boundaries, making decisions about what you want your space to feel like, and letting yourself be messy and wrong and curious until you start to learn what "off" feels like. building your intuition will help you sense when you need to top up your wards, when things arenât right. i visualise a pulse scanning out from me (think like a laser beam), to figure out how my wards are. when my wards are strong, i feel a kind of energetic solidity around me. when they're broken, it feels more like a wooden fence with slats in it, and the energy leaks. things come through that shouldn't. sometimes i feel it energetically. sometimes it's just vibes being off. sometimes my deities let me know. sometimes i don't notice at all until shit starts going sideways.
i also have a servitor who maintains my protective space (his name is alfred (like from batman)). i created him, i feed him energy, and he works like a bouncer: letting only kind-intentioned spirits and energies through. iâve talked about my âswinging-doorâ policy here if you want to read more about it, and if you want a separate guide on how to set a servitor up let me know. ultimately, this means that sometimes, if i'm meditating and talking about something, a deity i wasn't expecting shows up. i might think i need aphrodite's help, and freyja turns up instead. or maybe dionysus just wants to hear some gossip. it also allows deities to decide what kind of relationship we have, and let them take the lead. i also send a regular pulse scan out, and if my wards are low I feed energy into them and servitor with visualisation, usually i'll set a five-minute timer and visualise a meter filling up, like i'm charging a battery. i can do this from my bed so itâs decently low effort. again, if youâre like me and find ceremonial magickk feels more performative than a natural extension of yourself, itâs fine to not overcomplicate it! find your own rhythm.
3. advanced protection
i mentioned before about using a shield on someone else, either directly or remotely. taglocks, which youâll hear mostly used in baneful magickk, are helpful if you're protecting someone else - usually i enchant a crystal or an amulet for them. consent is important here - i don't like remote magick on people without them knowing. for example - my boyfriend (who's very much not a witch) wears a few protective bracelets, one of which is a hematite bracelet from me. itâs sentimental and serves a spiritual function (win-win). you can also shield someone else if youâre with them in person, just by visualising them the same way youâd visualise yourself! this only really works whilst their visible, but can be useful if you and a friend are walking through a busy place and you want to shield you both from the energy.
another thing worth mentioning, and this goes for all advanced practices, is that the most potent magick is that which is a natural extension of the self, and that doesnât feel like a chore (more on that in another #moaw post). veiling is one of my favourite low-key protective acts. so is wearing enchanted jewellery. both of these work at the subconscious level, and have the added benefit for those in the broom closet of being pretty discrete (you can veil with anything over your head! doesnât have to be a headscarf). i'm messy, so i don't clean my space often, but when i do, i notice the energetic shift - itâs one of the most underrated methods of cleansing, and again, very discrete. another method is setting up my digital boundaries! curating what i consume, who i let into my digital space, and noticing what drains me. this is energy work too. protection work doesnât mean much if youâre then bringing negative energy into your space through your phone.
and here's a big one: know your land. get to know the spirits around you. build good relationships. that way, you're not doing protection alone - you have backup. if something breaches your wards, you have plant spirits, ancestors, deities, and the land itself helping you notice, and you can (with consent) draw from their energy or ask for their support. so even when i'm tired or distracted, i'm not unprotected.
4. âi think somethingâs in my space - help!â
donât worry! iâve created a handy flow-chart below to help!
step one: diagnose it
is it just negative energy from an interaction you had? have you been behind on cleansing? is it something mundane?
â if yes â cleanse and reset your space
â if no or unsure â keep going
step two: what is the entity?
use some method of divination to figure out who the entity is! some good questions to get started:
what do they want?
are they trying to communicate?
did i do something wrong?
is this a known spirit? have we interacted before?
is it just some local energy passing through?
step three: response
if itâs just lingering energy â cleanse
if you accidentally offended something â apologise or offer something meaningful, and keep talking - depending on the level of upset, you might be able to salvage this and forge a new relationship
if theyâre just cranky for no reason â be compassionate, but banish! sometimes entities (especially ghosts) take out their anger on random folks, and you might just be unlucky.
if they wonât leave/are actively making things worse â banish!
step four: check your wards
do the pulse technique i mentioned earlier (or whatever works for you), and figure out how the entity got in - are your wards fractured? did you forget to energise your servitor? whatever it is, diagnose it and work on it.
step five: reflect and learn
most strong negative energies donât just wander into your space for fun. hopefully by now youâve figured out the root cause - write that down and reflect on the experience!
5. final thoughts
banishing is, firstly, a boundary. it's no different than saying "hey, i don't want to talk about that right nowâ or âplease leave my house.â it can be kind. it can be neutral. it can be mean. it's just a way of telling an entity to leave. i think thereâs this misconception in the community that banishing is negative, and it can be, but it doesnât have to be. and sometimes the kindest thing is to send stuck energy moving if you canât help it and itâs causing a nuisance (or being actively damaging).
and honestly? you're probably fine. when i was starting out, i wasn't talking to spirits or doing anything risky. i could've skipped protection entirely and been fine. as i got more confident, i started staying in places where the vibe felt off, just out of curiosity, because now i know how to handle it if something weird happens.
you're probably not going to get haunted by a demon. you probably don't need ten layers of magickal protection. if you're not poking around the otherworld, antagonising spirits, or diving into deep trance work, you're probably okay. thereâs so much fear-mongering out there, and i get why - better safe than sorry - but take a moment to remember that everything will be okay, and if you fuck around and find out and need a hand, thereâs many resources and many people here on witchblr to ask.
and if youâre gonna keep fucking around and finding out? good on you - but you might need stronger wards than someone like myself, who stays pretty far away from the fucking around part of witchcraft now.
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thank you for reading this! i hope this was helpful, and if you have any questions or add-ons please reblog/reply or send an ask. just a reminder: everything i wrote here is my opinion, and i know people will have different methods, and i encourage yâall to share those! and if you have any suggestions for topics youâd like for this longer form series (tagged #moaw if youâd like to read the others), please also send me an ask.
And to clarify (since ya'll need that, apparently), that includes people who are transphobic, homophobic, pro-eugenics (i.e. social darwinism anti-vaxxer people), anti-immigrant, racist, etc.
Ya'll don't belong here, paganism is not a safe place for you, and I don't want you interacting with my blog.
No TERFS, no conservatives, none of it. Freedom and equality for all.
Aphrodite loves sex workers and victims of sexual assault and intersex people and people who are insecure about their body/self harm and nonwhite people and queer people and fat people btw. pass it on
Following up on my previous post, I want to clarify that not all relationships between devotees and deities are the same.
Once again, there's too much pressure.
Yes, you can have a strong relationship, and yes, you can have none at all.
Yes, you can tell your gods everything, but no, you can choose not to tell them everything.
Yes, you can make offerings to them every week, but no, you can choose not to make offerings every week.
Yes, some people can feel their god almost constantly with them, and yes, other people hardly ever feel them.
Yes, some people see their god, and yes, other people don't.
Yes, some people feel their god, and yes, other people don't. Just as some people hear, and others don't.
Yes, you can be very, very close to a deity, and yes, you can be very, very far from a deity.
Yes, you can have very present deities, and yes, you can have very discreet deities.
Yes, you can receive signs, and yes, you can receive none.
Yes, you can receive guidance and lessons, and yes, you can receive none.
Yes, you can receive almost constant answers and help, and yes, you can receive none.
Yes, two people who practice with the same deity will not have the same connection, but yes, you can still have a similar connection.
Yes, it's possible that my words resonate with you and reassure you about your practice, and yes, it's possible that they're the opposite of your beliefs and practices, and that's perfectly normal.
I'm not going to go on like this for another 150 years; you get the idea. But yes, many things are possible, and the opposite is just as true. What matters, as I said in my previous post, is to be respectful towards the deities. To be careful not to be fooled by spirits who claim to be gods. And very importantly, to do things as honestly as possible. We all make mistakes, and you will too, I'm sorry to tell you that, but at the same time, I'm very happy to help you understand this essential thing. Be natural, honest, careful, and respectful, and you won't have any problems. Every reality exists, and just because you have one relationship doesn't mean it's any less good than another. You are loved, and you are safe.
It's such a fucking shame that everyone hates Zeus because they took the myths too literally because a God King of hospitality, foreigners and the protector of immigrants would be SUCH a good guy to be calling on right now. I literally cannot think of a better god to call on for current political issues but suuure enjoy sitting on your mythic literalism high horse guys
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