fatigued fae

she/they. 26.

[unavernales]

uh so i never do this but maui is quite literally on fire and there isn't nearly enough care or consideration for. you know. Native Hawaiians who live here being displaced and the land (and cultural relevance) that's being eaten up by the fire. so if ya'll wanna help, here's some links:

maui food bank: https://mauifoodbank.org/

maui humane society: https://www.mauihumanesociety.org/

center for native hawaiian advancement: https://www.memberplanet.com/campaign/cnhamembers/kakoomaui

hawai'i red cross: https://www.redcross.org/local/hawaii/ways-to-donate.html

please reblog and spread the word if you can't donate.

[neil-gaiman]

Just learning about this (!), and reblogging for visibility.

Also sending worried love to all my friends and all the people I don't know in Maui.

[fatigued--fae]

Hi. I've had a really rough time lately and I had a dream tonight that going on here and speaking into the void helped, so here I am.

My sister passed away from her battle with cancer a year ago on Sunday. It was hard. We were never super close, but we definitely became closer in the years before the end.

My brother's appeal for release from prison was turned down, so I haven't been able to hug him since 2018. We've lost both two grandmothers and our sister since then, and I just desperately want to hug him right now, but can't.

My mom was diagnosed with colon cancer earlier this year. It really broke me after seeing how my sister suffered, to know we have to all go through this terrible shit again, this time with someone even closer to me. She had her port put in last week and next week she starts her 6 months of chemo. I'm not the praying kind, but I've been doing it a lot. (Begging the universe to please cut us a break, more or less)

It's been 4 years since I left my abusive relationship and while I'm more healed than not, I still have dreams about it when I'm stressed and it makes me so angry.

Lastly, one of my cats has surgery next week to prevent urinary blockages. He has had 2 in the last year and we've come to the decision that the risks are worth it since he's in so much pain when it happens. I'm worried sick, but I know I'm doing the right thing and the risk of death is very, very low. It's always hard to make these choices for your animals! But he will be so much healthier and happier once it's done.

What's Helping: My friends I've made through a local book club, cooking with one of my friends on Monday nights, rediscovering my love of reading (I've read 6 books already this month), spending time outside when the weather is nice, napping, talking with loved ones about what's going on, therapy every 2 weeks, spending time with my pets, hanging out with the rescued mustang horses my husband volunteers with, my wonderful husband who loves and supports me

Thanks for being here if anyone is still here. If not, I'm happy to deposit this into my old void of the Internet.

[fatigued--fae]

I just want to have a free little library in my front yard and a bee box in my backyard and adopt 2 kids and live like Miss Honey.

[fatigued--fae]

I have a little free library now and we applied for our pre-adoption classes. 💗

[peacozy]

oh to be one of these

[peacozy]

flower cake

[melomancy]

kate bush (circa 1981) photographed by john carder bush

[png-magician]

[thehautecouturelover]

Elie Saab Spring 2015 Couture

[eflor]

Antique American Wisteria Stained Glass Landing Window from Cincinnati, circa 1890

[positive-platypus]

i hear your “slow progress is still progress” and raise you “sometimes you will find yourself making no progress and that is okay”

we’re human and we’re not always going to be progressing every minute of our lives, and sometimes we need extra help to get to where we want to be and there’s nothing wrong with that

[victorianchap]

🔸 ‘Group of Fairies’ (1890-1900). Photograph by Atelier Nadal. Source: Bibliothèque Nationale de France, Département Estampes et Photographie. #victorianchaps #postcard #cabinetcard #fairies #france🇫🇷 #ateliernadal #portrait #fashion #beauty #vintage #retro #1890s #victorian #goodolddays #oldphoto #nostalgia #pastlives (at France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CmEBJdnAcgH/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[infected]

Hallstatt, Austria, photos by Christian Weglehner

[wedarkacademia]

[brewedcoffi]

sounds alot like someone described as a love-shaped human amalgamation of his dad's good looks, his mother's music taste, and his friends' warmth

[peacozy]

[learnelle]

My favourite underrated Van Gogh paintings

[shubbabang]

Shout out to everyone who is just so tired So so exhausted So very very tired so very fatigued so sleepy and tired So

[peacozy]

cozy nook