Coyote Foxtrot’s Whiteboard @femboyphysicist - Tumblr Blog

Welcome to my whiteboard.

TL;DR (but at the beginning)

Gay femboy with mommy and daddy issues that you can definitely manipulate. Deranged aerospace enthusiast.

Everything is already as it is and we are merely trying to understand and communicate it better.

Everything is dysfunctional but not non-existent.

I'm Coyote Foxtrot, or at least that's my online alias. I'll be blogging most of my Kerbal Space Program work here to track my thought and work process and alongside it will be other random life things like femboy pics.

When it comes to Kerbal Space Program a lot of my crafts end up public and stock (and DLC) and can be downloaded at KerbalX. There is no type of craft I won't try but they tend to sway towards fixed wing aviation and typically inspired by real world vehicles and concepts.

They do follow a theme of mostly coming from a large fictitious organization that has a development and manufacturing sector for commercial and military use. Lore-wise, it also branches into other areas like peace-keeping, mediation, social services, etc. Basically, a mockery at current societal systems and their flaws, and lore that I'm pretty sure has no public content to convey this aspect in any way.

On the parts where things may go into personal beliefs, I value information and view the world through the understanding of systems interacting with systems. Such a perspective I have is built off of the work of aviation investigation with an emphasis on reactionary prevention of repetition, but also constantly identifying patterns to be able to face current and future issues.

Hopefully I don't come off as intimidating and offensive 'cause at the end of the day I'm a weak--honestly, naive--femboy.

#imposter syndrome #sussy baka

heey can i see ur KSP crafts? i couldnt find any while scrolling through your stuff

Like, posts on my board with Kerbal stuff or links to download? For the former I haven't touched Kerbal in months now (or this blog lol). For downloads there's my KerbalX and my unregistered google site that has google drive links for the craft files.

#how did anyone even find this corner???

So many problems going on and not just in the world but like personally effecting me, yet academics and extracurriculars are good, yet somehow I’m having regular nearly everyday crying fits and mental breakdowns cause the mere sight of people I barely know and too quickly got attached a rejected and failing to move on for too long cause me to cease normal function. I get sent into a zombie walking mode of headaches and loss of balance that my mental breakdowns have and somehow assignments are still being done, grades are satisfactory, and extracurricular tasks are being completed. Yet every day I get less and less stable and more sensitive to people who should not have been able to be a significant factor in my life while also becoming scared of friends, family, and support. Urges become so strong and my limbs go stiff.

#keep this on the down low so my family doesn’t get more concerned

It’d be really cool if I could not feel things whenever I’m around a lanky guy with long hair

#can I stop being gay for a second and pull myself together

You ever be in like the worst spot you could be that you're definitely not fit to be in a relationship so you're pointlessly going through Hinge or something and someone you like in the past and rejected you and fundamentally there was no reciprocation and nothing would have worked out that you don't even know why you like them and they've changed a lot that you probably wouldn't have been interested if starting from now but instead you freeze and cease to function beyond creating a well of existential thoughts?

#can i get like college course accommodations to like avoid a specific person?#I feel so sorry for her having to have had crossed paths with me even though I doubt they even give any thought to me

I forgot this place exists

#may be start having mental breakdowns here again

mousegirlheart

a mother...

I’m too desperate to be able to complete my undergraduate too desperate for an internship too desperate to be able to have a future career too desperate for a relationship

The stack of safety razor blades in my bathroom is looking mighty tempting right now

#idk where to go #either same spot or thigh so easier to hide

pics-that-make-you-go-hmm

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the new honda odyssey will tear your children limb from limb.

thysilus

man im high af thought house was talkin to a mini wilson

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house heritage post

cruzfucker

pastaflavouredjuulpods

when people say “pansexuals are people who date trans people” they are accidentally saying “(binary) trans people really aren’t really male or female” and that’s not true at all

myorgansaremelting

Pansexual just means you are attracted to all genders with no preference either way

femboyphysicist

SOOO wat ur saying is bisexuals discriminate by gender

GOT IT

#missing the point

metalheadsagainstfascism

"But only 2% of the population is intersex. It's not that common. Why should we reframe or perception of gender for intersex people?"

Completely ignoring the fact that empathy exists. You do realize that 2% of the population in the medical field is considered very common, yes?

2% of children and 0.5% of adults have a peanut allergy and that's so common that they have entire rules around in in public spaces.

0.24-1% of the population has Rheumatoid arthritis. That's an eighth to a half of the number of intersex people!

1-2% of people are estimated to have autism, and that's considered a common condition.

0.1%-2.6% of people will get melanoma in their life time, and that's considered common.

1.2% of people have epilepsy and that's considered common.

Completely ignoring statistics like 6% of women have PCOS (which is a condition that can fall under the intersex umbrella). 2% of the population in the medical field is considered a common condition, and ergo by medical terms intersex is in itself common.

I don't think you realize how big 2% is. That's 2 in 100 people. If you walk into 3 fully filled classrooms (when I was in school a full classroom was 40 students). Chances are you just saw 2 intersex kids and didn't even know it.

So yeah. I think intersex is common enough to include in our discussions around gender and how transphobic rules affects intersex people.

-fae