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Blythe | minor | she/they | tma thirst and hannibal | lmk if anything needs to be tagged for triggers

[moonagedaydreamsofrhiannon]

I just watched I Saw the TV Glow and I can't even form a coherent thought right now so here's a webweave

[fanofspooky]

“Time wasn't right. It was moving too fast. And then I was 19. And then I was 20. I felt like one of those dolls asleep in the supermarket. Stuffed. And then I was 21. Like chapters skipped over on a DVD. I told myself, ‘This isn't normal. This isn't normal. This isn't how life is supposed to feel.’”

[brzzrkrr]

Yeah I watched I Saw the TV Glow yesterday. Nobody talk to me /j

[viridiaanx]

She would've been lovely.

[rokurookajima]

seeing the tv glow

[synthient]

I think the queercoded villainy of The Pink Opaque has been underdiscussed (<- surprising no one I'm sure, given My Deal). Marco and Polo have breasts and skirts and beards and receding hairlines. Isabel gets her heart ripped out when she tries to walk up to Tara (the queercoded hero. the object of crush and identification for Maddy, and a key fantasy object enabling the fragile proto-lesbian intimacy that Owen gets to experience in moments like the marker tattoo scene). But Tara turns around, revealed to be Marco or Polo in disguise (the monstrousness of the queer body. the monstrousness of Owen daring to even semi-consciously entertain that lesbian identification)

We can look at The Pink Opaque and ask things like, where does a liberatory escapism cross over into a substitute for having a real life, is the show Good or Cringe, etc. But also: to what extent are Owen and Maddy seeing themselves as the heroes, vs to what extent are they internalizing that they're the monsters?

[willofasherah]

putting a copy of I Saw the TV Glow into my workplace White Elephant gift rotation and letting whatever happens happen

[pyrotechnicarus]

Ok also I think the reason I Saw The TV Glow is so powerful (and everyone is making jokes like it got them to start hrt) even beyond its fundamental message of hope and There Is Still Time etc is because as a trans person there are so many people and medias that will ask you the question What If You're Faking It. What If It's Not Real. And ISTVG is the first media I've seen that asks What If You're Not? What if you're not and you keep going on like this?

And it gives that question a name and a physical presence and a weight and an aesthetic and a horror. It's like TV static. It's like falling asleep on the car ride home. It's like living with a light inside you crawling to get out. It's like suffocating to death. It follows that thought to its logical conclusion and, in a frankly extremely painful and hard-to-watch but deeply needed way, excruciatingly draws out what that looks like. Suspended animation. Stasis. A life that is not your life.

It says that choosing not to transition is still a choice.

[cinemamind]

Do you remember The Pink Opaque?🩷

Inspired by this:

[httpsrubyblr]

It’s always “there is still time” and never “the longer you wait, the closer you get to suffocating” or “I know it’s scary, that’s part of it”

[caipaw]

I found my heart. Mike, oh my god, I found yours too. And it was still beating.

[snowbairdd]

What if she was right? What if I was someone else? Someone beautiful and powerful? Buried alive and suffocating to death on the other side of a television screen?

I SAW THE TV GLOW (2024) dir. Jane Schoenbrun

[godlessondheimite]

[maripoorsa]

Do you love trans women?

Do you wish things were easier for trans women?

What about trans women of color?

What about navajo trans women of color?

Do you support trans women in the material and tangible ways you're capable of?

In that case I submit for your for consideration:

My gf

Politics and the news are giving her some extremely justified anxiety and as a trans woman of color she feels the need to stop being patient and rush through the last part of her transition before she loses all access to it being possible.

Donate to Help Lilith Complete Her Journey, organized by Lilith Skye

Heya, I'm Lilith. I'm a trans woman who's trying to complete her journey with some final … Lilith Skye needs your support for Help Lilith Co

Right now we're trying to raise money for her to get:

ffs

breast augmentation

These are pretty costly and will require her to miss a lot of work for healing so any reblogs, boosts, tags, or other help sent her way is very much appreciated!

November 8 Update:

She just finished her last round of post-op appointments for the breast augmentation! All of you were able to get that done for her!! Thank you so so so much!!

Next is FFS, its scheduled in February. I've been sharing this gfm since July (4 months) and managed to raise behalf the goal so PLEASE keep spreading this around. With any luck well raise another $2k by February.

For her there will be 2 rounds of FFS. The first half will be in February and the next one is yet to be determined!

[shamiisu]

there is still time.

[hugdog]

A little bit after my seventeenth birthday, I paid this burnout kid who would always hit on me in the pizza court fifty dollars to lock me in the bunker.

[demiurgicviscera]

i think that's what i saw the tv glow did honestly.

that moment when you're watching it as a trans person, and every cell in your body is begging her to not stop, to not run away, please please please. you need to see it more than you've needed anything. and then she does. she sees everything inside herself in a bathroom all alone where we've all been, and she closes it all up, her emaciated and sickly body barely holding her up, and she walks back into an arcade room apologizing for her outburst to a building full of people who refuse to see or hear her.

and then you realize, while your chest feels like it might just cave in under the pressure, that this film refused to afford you the relief of seeing someone else do what you must, to give you that false and fleeting pressure eased. no. if you want this film to have a good ending, you have to make it yourself. you have to do what she could not, because otherwise, well. you just saw your future.