being someone who's passionate about their interests when you're a horror fan really is a special layer of hell because every interaction you have with another person where the conversation turns to your hobbies and personal entertainments is a trial where if you show too much unrepentant glee at getting an opportunity to talk about your preferred subject you get to watch them mentally move you onto their list of untrustworthy individuals to avoid in the future in real time
you'll be like i enjoy horror because it articulates things that i've experienced and understood for a long time but never been able to put into words, and tackles ideas and themes normally seen as too taboo to express, and people will hear "i'm a sick fuck who enjoys watching people suffer and die"
i am also a sick fuck who enjoys watching fictional people suffer and die for my entertainment. that's not relevant right now though.
