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Friendly reminder to Galemancers that Gale's ambition is not something new.
In fact, I'd say Ambition is his "bread and bloody butter" (to quote God!Gale addressing Raphael)
(also, Mystra can bitch and moan all she wants, she inspires Ambition in her followers, this isn't unique to Gale but it certainly is one of his most dangerous traits. After all, when a mortal becomes a god, your godhood embodies what you are at your most base form. Gale becoming potentially God of Ambition is no fluke. It is Gale at his most base form)
Here's something we often forget when we write about Gale: the Gale we meet is heavily nerfed (twice, once by Orb, second by tadpole) and he's been humbled by his folly. Ambition is the last thing on his mind at the start of the game.
By the point you meet him, he was probably on his way north to find a secluded place to detonate the orb (Waterdeep is not one of the cities the Nautiloid passed, but Yartar is and that's to the north, hence the theory he was caught there on this way north) and he only starts to actively care about his survival when you pull him out of the waypoint sigil (he obviously doesn't want to die (his line from failing to help him out: "No! I'm slipping. I'll perish in here. I'll perish...")), he's more concerned for what the detonation of the orb will do than preserving his life since now he's not alone anymore.
Cue the orb reveal and him offering to leave. Again, he's more concerned about what the orb will do to others than him surviving. In his mind, he deserves this.
Cue meeting Elminster and Gale receiving his divine mandate: use the orb to destroy the heart of the Absolute and redeem himself in death.
Here's usually where many people fail to understand Gale's motives.
He resigns himself to use the orb because Mystra (his goddess, scrap the lover part, that's not even important here, his literally goddess whom he worships (and he does, there's literal lines in the game (by Wyll and Gale himself) confirming that Gale is a very religious man, his romance with Mystra was more than love, it was religious) has ordered him to do it. it has nothing to do with his residual feelings for her (but it does hurt him that she would not even tell him this order directly, that he means so little to her that she'd send his friend instead) and everything to do with religion (hence why it's so hard to convince him otherwise, he risks becoming Faithless... doubly so because he is one of her Chosen, even if formerly) and also Gale's intellect fucking him over here (he is a man of thought and reason, he's doing mental gymnastics to try and figure out a way that allows him to survive but unfortunately, he's at his lowest point here and he doesn't fight Mystra's demand, he caves to reason, that this is the best, quickest way to end the Absolute (it is but, I'd argue that Mystra's latest incarnation is the dumbest god in all of DnD because she failed to account for the countless souls that would be lost in the wake of the Absolute's death... soul death is no joke in the lore, Ao would probably deal with her harshly in the wake of Gale using the orb simply because of how badly she'd fuck up the material plane's supply of souls)
And then when you finally do convince him to not use the orb and Gale sees the Crown of Karsus, many assume he's becoming power hungry because he's learning to be selfish for once, or that this is just a wizard quirk, of wanting to understand dangerous artifacts, attain godhood etc. No, actually this is perfectly in character for Gale specifically.
See, Gale's goals shift according to how much information he has.
When the journey starts, it's merely survival, but as it progresses, he reasons that using the orb is the best path forward. if you romance him or befriend him, you can convince him not to use the orb and then his priorities shift again in the wake of Act 3's beginning. Fresh from surviving the Orb and Myrkul, he has a new lease on life. He's potentially in a romance and he's got his eyes set on the Crown. The Archmage is finally making his reappearance and it's up to the player to determine where Gale applies his ambition. And sometimes even with the player's input he can choose poorly (ala Sneaky God!Gale, which to me is actually the most narratively interesting ending because this is basically Gale deciding to become a god on his own and can have any number of valid headcanons to justify it)
Gale in Act 3 is the closest we get to seeing the Gale of Waterdeep from before the events of BG3 and him getting the Orb.
One does not become an Archmage by twiddling one's thumbs, you become an Archmage by being ruthless in your ambitions, by being the most intelligent person in the room at all times, by striving constantly for the next discovery, the next adventure etc... it isn't something you stumble into, you have to work very, very hard for it, relentlessly even.
Gale was already ambitious before the events of BG3, the orb and his romance with Mystra are testimony to that, so it stands to reason that ambition is a major part of him.
Even in his Professor!Gale ending, his ambition has shifted again, this time being either for his family (Morena and Tara) or his lover and his family. In the God!Gale ending, his ambition has reached its zenith and transcended (he's literally Ambition now) and he's sharing his Ambition with his petitioners.
Long story short, Gale's Ambition didn't just come out of nowhere, him becoming a god or professor or adventurer etc is not out of character (this is one of the reasons i love him so much, there's no bad ending for him besides using the Orb (and dying during apotheosis, but really that's more of a skill issue on Gale than anything since you'd think he'd do his research lol even without player input), he's always been ambitious.
The Gale we meet has been humbled and nerfed twice but the Archmage is still in there. He only starts to properly rear his head once he sees the Crown and survives Act 2...
Gale has a gun.
GALE HAS A GUN.
Recreating @maetersart art as a screenshot has finally worked out.
This has been a gestalt since November, but the zine distracted me back then and it was difficult to implement, but now I've managed to pull it off as best I can. I love this art, and the guys do too.
I haven't been able to draw for weeks. Tonight, I picked up an old WIP and I feel like I finally managed to create something.🥺✨ (I know this drawing isn't perfect I'm still trying to learn how to draw anatomy and the human body(maybe I'll work on it more later😅)
Full version here
Gale of Waterdeep my love🫶
When people who have experienced abuse say that they relate to Astarion, they usually refer to some of the most popular lines, such as: "Being with someone still feels... tainted. Still brings up those feelings of disgust and loathing." or "I had nothing for so long. Not even my own body."
And while hearing those when I first played the game has absolutely crushed me and made me feel understood, there is another conversation that speaks to me on a deeper level.
I've been thinking about the pale elf for months and years now, but I think I have finally figured out the core of what makes him so important to me and why are we the same in some aspects when it comes to trauma.
I will get into the ugly personal stuff, so mind your triggers. CW for sexual assault, physical abuse, bullying, PTSD, trauma response
The conversation you have with Astarion when you meet his siblings during the long rest, when they attempt to kidnap him and bring him back to Cazador, hides one line that just shakes me to my core and that I have recently realized is why I relate to Astarion in such a major way in terms of my own personal response to the traumatic events in my life.
Not long ago, I had an intense therapy session, where we discussed why is my body shutting down, why is it essentially playing dead (now literally in the physical sense, as my entire nervous system tends to give up on me). And my therapist showed me a video of an impala being attacked by a cheetah – the impala will lie completely still to avoid being attacked; basically, it freezes and plays dead. In the video, the animal literally looks dead; it's not breathing, moving, or blinking. After the predator leaves the vicinity, only then it starts breathing again and slowly gets up; it almost looks like it's hyperventilating after seemingly not breathing at all for a long time.
Why am I saying this in this parallel? For humans (or humanoids, if you will), it's very similar to the freeze response in terms of trauma. A biological reaction that is supposed to protect your body and mind – just like it protects the impala from getting eaten.
The freeze has been a source of shame for me for many years. Whenever I talk to people about how I was bullied in kindergarten and throughout the ages of 6 to 10 years old, they often tell me I should have just fought harder – I should have reported the kids who beat and hurt me, I should have been louder, more aggressive, more annoying about it. I got similar responses when describing how I was sexually assaulted. I should have just tried to fight more, instead of just lying there and giving up after my fighting back did not yield results. Right.
That brings me to this scene.
You have the option to confront Astarion with the fact that he also, in a way, gave up. He did Cazador's bidding; he also eventually just lay there and waited for death that wasn't coming.
For me to tell him that is very painful, because once again, seeing it through another character's eyes makes me feel compassion that I'm unable to feel towards myself. Where I feel shame and weakness in myself, I see strength and resilience in him. It's funny how brains work.
I don't really have anything smart and witty to say here. I haven't yet figured out how to not feel angry and sad when I feel powerless. But I want to make the point that victim-shaming is such a huge part of what's wrong with this world. There would be more cases of reported domestic or sexual abuse, or also, like in my case, bullying, including getting beaten up and tortured on a daily basis – if only the people who are in a position to help didn't dismiss that with "You should have fought harder." To quote a different character this time: "You do it. I'm tired."
I think this line is actually the one out of the whole conversation that breaks me. Because he scoffs, he's not visibly angry, he's not sad, he smirks bitterly. Oh, I feel that in my bones.
Sometimes fighting back just becomes impossible. Either physically – you run out of physical strength – or mentally, when you just can't keep it up anymore, it's been too long, it never ends.
Astarion's story is, above all, about autonomy and the constant oscillation between what power and weakness mean to him. In this scene, he's doing such mind parkour between regressing, blaming others, and between accepting himself, learning to live with the impossible memory of all those times when he couldn't fight anymore.
I'm not going to go into a deep analysis of Spawn/Ascended Astarion and how ascension kills his only chance at healing that part of his past. Because, in a way, I get it – the delusion that if you become powerful enough, you never have to face this shame ever again. (Sorry to say, it doesn't seem to be working all that well, heh.)
So I'm going to end this with my beloved meme that's for both me and him and everyone whose mind also stubbornly refuses to accept that sometimes there is no way out. And freezing in place is sometimes protecting you from something far worse, starting with getting your bones broken and ending with death in any meaning of the word. OK, YAY.
With you, I forget my goddess. I love you.
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"New duty" in details
Hello again !
@just-s0me-stranger asked another question about one of my works (thank you!), so get ready for another long post!
In "New duty", i wanted to illustrate one of the first night of Astarion as a new spawn of Cazador. As stated in the game, he had to capture preys for Cazador, attracting them with his charms and physique.
The place is crowded, people gathered. This is the Elfsong tavern during the night.
(The ref just to give more context; he's against this pillar)
Astarion wears a beautiful silk top, open at the front. He waits elegantly, leaning against a pillar, his head slightly turned towards the light, his hands on his belt, his body language expressing confidence.
His demeanor contrasts sharply with his facial expression; sadness is etched in his eyes. He doesn't want to be there. All of this is new to him, and he can't yet completely hide his true feelings. I tried to make his expression subtle.
His head is turned on the side, toward the lighting source, perhaps still hoping that he can escape one day.
Even if it's a less complicated piece, every details have their importance. So, here's what i tried to show through the composition/lighting/colors:
Hope: the lighting on him is warm, while everything around him is in cold tones.
Obligation: He has to be beautiful to attract attention, and for that, he needs to be visible. His silk shirt is ideal for this dimly lit tavern, thanks to its texture which perfectly reflects the light.
Loneliness/Disorientation: Everything around him seems cold, people blurred. This reveals his deep emotions in the face of what he is now forced to do.
Attraction: We can have the impression that we're seeing through the eyes of someone that looks at Astarion for the first time.
People are drawn to the brilliance of his clothes, to his overall beauty. After a moment, they finally perceive his expression, the sadness in his eyes, and at the end the title of the piece.
I managed to fool many of you with this, and i'm glad, because it was the whole point of this painting
Thank you again for this question, and I hope you enjoyed reading this post!
I'm always curious to know what you guys think about it. Do not hesitate to leave a comment :)
I know I said I was going to be gone for a little while, but I wanted to post the boys with Gale's wavy-haired version, too. I don't have time to clean it up properly, but you guys know how much I love the Magic Man with long, messy hair <3 🏳️🌈
I’m currently working on finishing writing Rising of a Wave, but I’ll definitely be back with more Pride Month art soon. In the meantime, here’s a little throwback!
Happy Pride Month everyone! 🏳️🌈🏳️⚧️
Haunting Gale Dekarios
Chapter 2
As Gale sat sipping a nice glass of red wine, a stranger slid onto the stool beside him. The wizard glanced over to see a very handsome half-elf with short, dark hair and lovely green eyes that seemed to dance with mischief. “Hey there, handsome. Drinking all by your lonesome?” The man asked. His playful little smirk was charmingly familiar, in a way. Gale couldn't help but smile at him, “I am, yes. It's nice to go out alone some nights and meet new people.”
“bloodweave” this and “bloodweave” that but nobody talks enough about the fact that the dynamic between Astarion and Gale is literally just:
— gale trying to explain some ancient weave theory while astarion lounges across furniture like an overfed cat, interrupting every five minutes with “you’re very pretty when you’re pretentious, you know.”
— astarion pretending he doesn’t care about magic until gale casually lights candles with a flick of his wrist and suddenly astarion is staring at him like he personally hung the stars over waterdeep.
— gale being one of the first people to compliment astarion in ways that aren’t transactional. not “beautiful,” not “seductive,” but clever. funny. observant. things attached to personhood instead of performance.
— astarion absolutely abusing prestidigitation once he learns what it can do. gale walks into camp and all his wine has been chilled perfectly and there are dramatic rose petals everywhere and astarion’s sitting there acting like he has no idea how it happened.
— gale reading aloud at night because astarion likes the sound of his voice even when he claims the books are “terminally boring.”
— astarion stealing gale’s clothes specifically because they smell like parchment, cedar, and expensive spell components.
— the first time gale sees astarion genuinely, uncontrollably laugh, he forgets what he was saying mid-sentence because he’s too busy staring.
— gale, who spent years loving a goddess who felt unreachable, falling disastrously hard for someone painfully real and sharp-edged and frightened.
— astarion acting smug whenever gale gets flustered, only to completely short-circuit the second gale starts flirting back intentionally.
“careful, my dear,” gale murmurs, leaning close enough for candlelight to catch in his earring, “you do realize wizards are capable of learning patterns.”
and astarion just. visibly bluescreens.
— they would either spend the entire evening making out dramatically over a study desk or arguing over semantics for three hours straight. sometimes both simultaneously.
— gale kissing astarion’s hands like they belong to something holy.
— astarion, who spent centuries being consumed, discovering what it feels like to be adored. slowly. reverently. without expectation.
together they become absolutely insufferable in the most romantic way imaginable.
hhhHhHhhHHhhhhhhhHhelp (x)
I love this moment. Every time.