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that's the reason why there'll be no Paulchard drawings anymore. the old ones have been deleted.

no words.

#personal

wheeeee 10 years on tumblr today

... and 26 years on Earth✌️🙂

#10 year tumblrversary

INVICTUS

Made for @elstargreen 's crazily amazing story

Elly, a huge THANK YOU for letting me be a part of this great piece of art💔 I'm grateful for having you as a friend💔

#rammstein #richard kruspe #paul landers #rammstein fanart #paulchard #digital art #illustration #go read it now okay #this story WILL make you jerk off I SWEAR #Elly thank you so much once again #you're a wonderful person and a very talented artist #you deserve 10000 kudos on this story

some sketches to make everyone believe I'm still a part of rammstein fandom :_)

#rammstein #rammstein fanart #richard kruspe #paul landers #digital art #sketch

rammstein xxxiii ad with Paul WHEN

#I'm tired of waiting for this video #show me my boy!!#i miss him acting in videos so bad :(#rammstein #paul landers

well well well ladies and gentlemen, I'm currently studying at a tattoo school and I want to share some pics with you. this is my sketch that I've created for an another account of mine. and now look, it's become a drawing on artificial skin!

p.s. it's not finished yet but at least there's some color there💜

#yeah i know it's not perfect #it's just my second tattoo #but I really wanted my sketch to become a tattoo #my teacher didn't say anything about the sketch itself or the result #so I hope at least some of you will like it #again: I know it's not perfect and I wasn't in the right mood while working on that #but still #rammstein #richard kruspe #rammstein fanart #emigrate

Your art is extraordinary! You have such a unique and great style! Why did you delete so many beautiful works? 🥺

Hi. I'm so grateful for these words, it really means A LOT to me because I always think I'm not good enough and any kind of my art is sh/t. Thank you for reminding me that someone still likes it.

What about deleted drawings (and fics actually...). If you ask me about Paulchard content here is the reason: I live in such a country where spreading gay content is forbidden by law. Deleting my old drawings with the boys was the question of my safety. The other sketches have been removed only because I didn't like them enough.

I just read your text post and honestly, my heart aches for you. I don't know if this message helps in any way, but I just wanted to say that I think of you, that I wish and pray that the upcoming year 2025 will treat you kindly and will offer you some wonderful experiences. I love looking at your art, and I'm thankful you sometimes post some of your work 🤍 you're seen on here, nobody has to be alone in this fandom 🤍

Thank you for your kind words. I don't know what to say actually because I've abandoned any hope for a better life. I always think: eh maybe THIS YEAR there will be something good. But the time goes by and everything just gets worse and worse...

But I'm really thankful that there still are people who like my work❤️‍🩹 It makes me feel alive and I appreciate every lovely comment about my art or fanfics.

I feel so lonely and helpless at the end of this year. I have no hope, no goals. I'm so tired. I want to talk to someone, want to make new friends and I definitely need some emotional closeness. But there's no chance to have it all so I just try to isolate myself from the other people because I know they don't need me. My one and only fandom forgets me as I can't post any Paulchard art and it destroys my soul because I can't feel any kind of love.

There was that terribly sad interview with Richard where he talks about his emotions and thoughts and you know what. I feel it. I know it. Every moment of my life is like: bitte beachte mich, ich.bin.es.wert.

Sitting here all alone and crying because this year I haven't achieved anything. I'm still alone and I only have this constant pain and emptiness in my soul. There's no energy left and I don't know how to survive.

I am tired and I just want to know that someone loves me - or at least my art which is a part of my shitty but very sensitive personality.

#personal #complaining