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That moment when you can’t sleep and you feel like shit and you’re not sure if you’re getting sick, getting your period or just have really bad anxiety.

#anxiety #am I actually sick or is it just anxiety??

So like legit question how do you like bring up to your partner you should probably get passports and other needed documents to be prepared to flee the U.S. bc the gov of Florida running for president and is literally already trying to set up to murder queer people in Florida? Like ik she doesn’t always keep tabs on stuff bc of anxiety so idk if she even knows.

#I’m legit terrified and idk what to do #we are also trying to look for a house so there is that #like I really don’t want to pause our house hunt but if we do get a house it will make it even harder to leave #fleeing #ron desantis #florida #lgbtq

forgotenwhispers

I need to stop checking her social media but I just can’t. Like how do you fight the urge to check?

suicidebypotato-deactivated2024

“That’s not your fault.”

I’ve had to tell myself that. Especially after I checked her blog and saw that she said something along the lines of, “For someone who walked away and said shit like “never again” you sure still tryna hit me up.” And for what, I don’t even know. Did I like one of her posts by accident or something? Because it wasn’t showing up on my activity log/s when I went back to check.

Regardless, even if I did—

—okay, and? The fuck?

I’m not going to pretend I stopped loving you just because you did, or because you’re choosing to pretend.

Yes, I understand that the healthy thing to do is to NOT check. You will almost always find something you didn’t want to see.

That might simply be the fact that they have good things going on, or major life changes, and you’re no longer privy to that experience like you used to be.

That might also be seeing them talk shit to you, about you, etc. and you’ll find yourself feeling worse and asking yourself why you even bothered missing them.

Healing is not linear. You cared about them. You checked on them all the time as a friend. You still feel like you could be their friend, so you check and see how they’re doing.

You loved them. Still love them.

There’s nothing wrong with that.

You just start back on fighting the urge and forgive yourself if you relapse. Again and again until you don’t even remember what their handle is anymore, because that’s how long you haven’t checked.

I’m still trying to get there.

But it will happen.

#my friend break up was in 2019 at least that was the last time we talked and I moved out #and I don’t check as frequently anymore maybe once every 4-6 months #healing takes time ❤️‍🩹

Why does everything have to go wrong all at once?

#it’s 3am and I should be sleeping but I can’t #the engine in my car went and considering I just had repairs done on it before I moved it’s not worth fixing #and one of my cats recently got diagnosed with kidney disease #they want to do more testing but with possibly needing a new car I can’t afford it #plus I’ve already brought him in 3 times and each time it’s getting harder to bring him because it stresses him out so much #depressed and anxious #depression #anxiety #life sucks #oh and I recently moved so I’ve already spent a bunch on that

Maybe she’s born with it or maybe it’s high functioning anxiety ~

#anxiety #high functioning anxiety #anxious #maybe it’s maybelline #mental helth #mental illness

Anxiety is dumb. My brain is spinning and I can’t stop it. I was supposed to get my car fix this weekend before I move the following weekend and then I get called today that the part won’t come till Monday and they then don’t have any availability till after my move date. What if I get a call from uhaul and they can’t drop my uhaul box off till 5pm and I don’t have time to load them? What if I don’t get the relocation bonus for my job transfer? I still haven’t gotten that info from them. What if my fiancé bails at the last minute and makes me choose between staying with her or moving and breaking up? What if sometime after we move she’s too homesick and decides to leave me? What if I can’t find an apartment before my Airbnb rental is up? What if something happens to my cats while they are with my parents? What if I can’t find an apartment that allows cats? What if I get into an accident when I have my cats in the car bc I can’t get it fix’s before I leave?

What if? What if? What if?

What if everything that can go wrong dose go wrong?

Uhg I want to die. I just need something to go right.

#it already feels like it is #I hate anxiety #I kinda wana die #but like low key #just want the thoughts to stop #anxiety #suiciadal #personal

sunflower-cane

Hypervigilance can cause fatigue guys. PTSD can cause fatigue, anxiety and depression can cause fatigue, Bipolar can cause fatigue, any and all mental illnesses can.

Please understand if youre mentally ill and physically or emotionally fatigued, that is not you being lazy! It is your body and brain being tired of fighting your illness! You are tired because youve been fighting.

This struggle you are going through is real, please do not let yourself or anyone invalidate you further by saying youre lazy.

the-growing-rose

#depression #suicide #suicidal #anxiety #mental health

dearbisexual

dam…….. that website “you feel like shit” (it’s like a questionnaire / troubleshooting guide for when you feel like shit) really works………………….. im not even all the way thru it and i even half-assed a lot of the suggestions and i already feel loads better

dearbisexual

for some reason, with this website, i was able to complete small tasks ive been fruitlessly bugging myself to do for weeks??

anyway, i feel almost good now :^)

dearbisexual

im glad this got some notes!!!! i hope it helps y’all find some measure of peace or comfort <3