“And you still aren’t. I don’t think you ever could be.” Hope? A damsel in distress? No. Not with the life she was thrown into, that they were both thrown into. Nate wasn’t the perfect father, he knew that, but with the world they survived he figured he did a pretty good job. “But I’m always going to protect you anyway. I shouldn’t have even let them get their hands on you.”
He failed her. There was no way of getting around that. That was his guilt to live with though, and Hope didn’t need to hear any more about it. She was already dealing with enough.
“Anger we can work with.” His expression stayed soft and understanding, and just mildly concerned. Nate was no stranger to feeling this much at a young age— that’s exactly how he had been growing up. But he was arrogant, he pushed people’s buttons. He was angry and he was scared, and he felt things deeper than he cared to admit. He didn’t want Hope to end up like that.
He sighed. “Lucky is a pretty relative term. I don’t want you to stop being angry— you have every right to be. But I do worry about you.” That was something he didn’t say enough. “I’m stickin’ around for a while and I’ve got your back. You don’t have to figure everything out on your own.”
“Nah. I’d rather die again first.” Hope shudders in mock disgust. There’s nothing against those who have been shoved into that role, but it’s not Hope’s thing. She was raised to be smart and protect herself. Getting kidnapped feels like letting her dad down. Even though she knows he doesn’t look at it like that, Hope’s main goals her entire life have to been to make him proud and stay alive.
It’s hard to be so loved. That sounds vain to say, but Hope carries the weight of others love on her shoulders. She was the goddamn messiah, the chosen one who was born after the Decimation. There weren’t supposed to be any more mutants, but there was. There was Hope. She’s spent her entire life grappling with what that means. Nate’s never made her feel like she has to be anything, but the pressure from others remains. The messiah, one of the Five. The list goes on. If Cable hadn’t raised her to have a good head on her shoulders, she’d have developed a complex.
Anger is easy for her to understand. It’s got less strings than love does. Both are primal emotions, but anger hits differently when it turns everything red. She doesn’t respond to that comment. They’ll find a way to shape her anger, to make it useful. It won’t burn out.
“As happy as it makes me to hear you’re going to be around, I really do want to reiterate that I’m fine.” Shaken, yes, but that’s to be expected. Hope isn’t as vain as some but she had thought herself above a kidnapping by S.H.I.E.L.D. of all people. “I’m not on my own. I promise. I have the Five and the Council. Hell, I even have Exodus even if he’s crazier than a rat in a coffee can. I’ve got this.”