trans lesbian autistic Baha’i, writer, she/her, adult, white, KJ or Lea // there are worlds out there where the sky is burning. // AO3: archiveofourown.org/users/FreezingKaiju // DM me for art commission info or check my #kj commissions tag. // I HATE DIAMONDS AND I LOVE YURI
I cannot give any more to donation posts at this time, I’m thoroughly out of money.
My AO3 is here, I write primarily Evangelion fics in the Asuka x Rei pairing and i also have several fics in old fandoms like Fire Emblem and the Fate/ series, as well as fics for any underappreciated yuri that catches my eye.
My liveblog tags are #kj watches tokusatsu, #kj watches anime, and #leanne watches bad anime.
My writing tag is currently #my writing, I'll be working on a better one, and I'll also be working on a better one for #my art. #kj grabs a megaphone is my talking tag, #source search is my tag for when i'm seeking the origin of an image or photo!
@kj-at-your-fingertips is my sideblog for moodboards. requests are open there.
Due to prior events (read: getting scammed), i'll mention that the donation posts that crop up on my blog that I've personally vetted are those by my friends @jimmy3people0 @crypticpara and @dragabond, as well as ones for emily gwen, creator of the lesbian flag. They are reputable, give them money. Jimmy's gofundme for leaving the south is here, Para's donation post so she can be commissioned is here and carrd is here, and dragabond's donation post is here
If my blog gets nuked, jimmy3people0, myrcci, irazel, asterizmz, and pupmon1 probs have my info
My ask box is always open! Feel free to send stuff and tag me in things! Slowly, my ability to be pretentious and exhibit a sense of style regrows itself. One day, my closet shall face its reckoning.
Currently Watching: Kamen Rider Ryuki (most recent: ep 35/50), Akudama Drive (most recent: ep 5/12), Futari wa Pretty Cure (most recent: ep 10/50), Dirty Pair (most recent: 14/24)
lining the timeline up with the clues we have so far and realizing dess was probably an early teen when she went missing makes the roaring knights behavior make wayyyy more sense. Of course they'd be a stupid aura farming idiot they're permanently 15 with magic powers
roaring knight: *messes up the plan again by posing cool at the top of the stairs and fucking around with the heroes because they can*
kris, now as old or older than dess when she went missing: ohhhh my fucking god was she actually like that and I didn't notice because I was 8 years old. oh god
having to do a group project with the person you viewed as a cool older sibling but you're older than them now because of some bullshit and you're realizing how cringe they are. monumental aura loss cascade
very frustrating to realize that when some people see me talking about trans women being fetishized and the idea of a trans woman's value coming from her penis, they think I mean her value as a person, not her value as a sex object
a trans woman's penis is absolutely not thought to give her more value as a person, it's actually one of the main fucking things used as justification to treat her as subhuman. being valued as a sex toy does not mean being valued as a person this should be obvious
My woke take, as someone who has worked in both a public library and a school library, is that we desperately need both more books that are at a higher reading level but a less mature subject matter, and more books that are at a lower reading level but a more mature subject matter, because 8 year olds who are advanced readers are still 8 year olds and don't want to read about graphic violence and torture, and teens and adults who have learning difficulties or who are just later readers for whatever reason are still teens and adults and don't want to read about Billy the Bunny going to school or whatever the hell.
something i think a lot of white people don't understand is that saying racist antiblack things 'ironically' 'as a joke' 'satirically' or 'as bait' is still... just being racist. as if saying 'bait used to be believable' somehow undoes the disrespect? as if pointing out that its probably a bot or a psyop nullifies the slurs? as if informing me that its a meme/copypasta/reference means you're not at fault for repeating them? as if any of this is okay? it doesn't work like that. why is the hatred and disrespect of black people acceptable background noise for you? why do you find it funny?
RPG where it's very easy to overcome all of the bosses nonviolently through correct dialogue choices, but actually doing so locks you into the bad ending; in order to get the good ending, you need to do a bunch of obtuse side quests in order to goad them into fighting you.
#honestly this sounds fun #gimme the options #i wanna know what my choices are #how ambivalent can i be? #but also it's so much funnier that this concept makes violence the correct answer (via @cuzosu-blog)
Yeah, you could definitely play a scenario where violence is the morally correct answer for laughs, but you don't have to.
If you wanted to play it straight, one might imagine a game about fighting a fascist state where all of the bosses are The One Good Nazi types with very sympathetic, human reasons for collaborating with the regime – there's the Sad Dad who's only committing mass murder because they're holding his kid hostage, the idealist who genuinely believes they can reform the system from the inside, the moral coward who rationalises their atrocities as harm reduction because if they quit, whoever replaced them would be even worse, etc. – and all of the talky nonviolent options for dealing with them involve compromising the player character's principles.
The final boss is naturally a totally unsympathetic Hitler 2.0 type, but before you can fight him he hits you with the old Mustapha Mond monologue, and if you've let even one of his buddies off the hook, he turns the tables on the conversation-fu trope and persuades the player character to stand down.
The achievement for getting the good ending is, of course, titled "The Only Good Nazi Is A Dead Nazi".
Transphobia is being signed into law in the UK. Let's fight it together.
I am begging the UK trans community and its allies to attend the rescheduled Mass Lobby at Parliament, now on Wed Sept 9th, 1pm-5pm, organised by Trans Solidarity Alliance.
The law around trans equality is fundamentally broken. Government inaction is hanging trans people and organisations out to dry - with a con
The new EHRC Code of Practice pushes trans people out of toilets, hospital wards, and community spaces. It normalises gender policing based on appearance and stereotypes. It became statutory guidance in the UK on August 5th, 2026.
Trans people are now legally their assigned gender at birth and must join gendered spaces accordingly, but if they are perceived as their lived gender, they can also be ejected from those spaces. The guidance says: either break the law, or don’t pass too well.
A mass lobby is where you invite your MP to discuss your concerns with you in-person. Our demands have changed. Ask your MP to:
Write to Ministers and Prime Minister Andy Burnham to say they are profoundly concerned by the rolling back of trans rights, and that they believe that it is time for Parliament to legislate to protect equality for trans people.
Ask parliamentary questions focused on protecting trans people’s rights and defending trans people’s abilities to live safe and dignified lives.
Speak up both inside and outside Parliament in defence of trans people’s rights.
Meet regularly with trans constituents to understand their lived realities.
Your MP does not have to be an ally, they do not have to respond to your email for you to show up and greencard them (details below the cut.) What matters is that as many people as possible show up.
I cannot stress this enough: Showing up in person matters. It is much more effective than petitions, emails, and letters.
We have already had some wins because we took action. The 2026 EHRC guidance has already rolled back its most harmful elements because of mass campaigning by individuals like us, and groups like The Good Law Project. This summer, 166 MPs signed the Early Day Motion 240 to reject the EHRC Code of Practice, because of our campaigning. That is 1 in 4 MPs.
It is a horrible, stressful time, and I am so sorry if you're trans and live in the UK. But I was at last year's mass lobby and the line for greencarding alone stretched around the back gates. It was a record breaking mass lobby and made us impossible to ignore. Let's do even better this time. Details under the cut:
Worried about what to say?
Bring your personal worries about transphobia being signed into law, and trans friends being excluded from public spaces. You are a living person who deserves dignity. Remind your MP of that. On the day, you'll get guidance and brochures from Trans Solidarity Alliance that outlines our demands. This is mine from last year.
Here is an online briefing for lobbyists (10 mins read for essential info, 20 mins for details)
Money issues?
Trans Solidarity Alliance provides a travel bursary that you can sign up for via the link.
Got a refusal or no response from your MP?
Come anyway! You can request a same-day appointment with your MP through a process called greencarding. They will come and see you if they’re already in Parliament. Even if they don’t, they’re made acutely aware of your cause because you showed up in person. This is my greencard from last year.
Here is the EHRC Code of Practice in full. It's a tough read, but some highlights are:
Organisations can’t provide trans-inclusive, single-sex services, or they risk being sued for discrimination. e.g. domestic violence support for women including trans women, men’s rugby group including trans men (12.68).
Trans people will have nowhere safe to pee. If you’re a trans man, businesses can't allow you to pee in the men's, and you can also be ejected from women’s bathrooms if you’re perceived as a man. Vice versa for trans women. EHRC suggests a ‘third space’ bathroom, which is discriminatory and unworkable for most businesses. (13.130-133)
Sports organisations must exclude trans people from single-sex competitions (13.73). A women’s only sports competition must exclude trans women because of their biological advantage or face potential lawsuits (13.74), but a trans man who has undergone testosterone treatment can also be excluded based on fairness rules (13.81).
Trans women are stripped of the legal definition of ‘lesbian’, and therefore no longer have legal protections if they’re discriminated against on the basis of sexual orientation. (2.50, 2.92).
Here is the Good Law Project's better explanation of the EHRC Code.
Sign up for the mass lobby and email your MP here, or click the main link above.
If you are not in the UK but want to support the case, please donate to The Good Law Project.
Save the date and book off work!! I will see you there :))
"you should be taking transfem sexual predators to task"
the full force of the law and every human being on the planet already does that lol, as well as falsely punishing many accused trans women who didn't do anything. there is plenty of scrutiny on us already. now how about the demographics on whom there isn't?
it should be incredibly obvious that power facilitates abuse, but so many of you are just obsessed with the idea that marginalized people are somehow, en masse, abusing people who hold privilege over them and getting away with it
gang I'm beginning to think maybe the vast majority of the violence might be happening to the people being violently suppressed on the justification that they're supposedly just Inherently Violent
fandom depiction of carol holiday is way too fucking normal man. shes not some boring vaguely conservative rich mom shes a fucking WEIRDO DUDE.....SHES STRANGE WITH IT.....
like textually shes obsessed with these weird battery-powered christmas reindeer doll thinigies and places them all over her house, she owns at least three katana (black one in the bedroom, the kitchen one, and one she keeps on her person that she used to slash the office diaper guy's briefcase), has a secondary obsession with heart-shaped objects (???), preserves her daughter's arts and crafts project (snowflakes) by bronzing it. shes also fucking batman apparently, the scary reindeer ninja woman who eradicated crime in hometown and makes the car-benchpressing undyne look like a chump. and she has ice powers in the light world or smth bc she drops the temperature of rooms with her sheer presence.
outside of the text, she is very clearly some kind of fucked up mom lalonde-bro strider amalgamate. like next chapter we're gonna go into the holiday home to find the shelter code and shes gonna stalk us around the house by flashstepping and moving around one of her reindeer dolls to fuck with us. we break into her room and find an unholy stash of spiked eggnog and her laptop. "maybe she wrote it down in here!" susie says. noelle tries to guess the password and gets it first try (its ifuckinglovechristmash0h0h0). the laptop opens and we find that she hasnt logged out of her soundcloud account where she anonymously posts her Epic Christmas Raps. open the file search and theres nothing else on the laptop its just her shitty fucking rap wips and 5 Family Photos. susie thinks her raps are awesome but doesnt want to admit it. this is my official ch 6 prediction.
thank you so much? for addressing this. oh my days i've been waiting
like. people go on about earthbound and touhou informing deltarune, and they are, of course, fully correct, but the homestuckism of it all needs to be acknowledged because
this woman's house is fully decked out for christmas when it's squarely fall. context clues tell us that it's less likely for them to have been put out early and more likely for them to just be an all-year thing. her theme (so far, at least) is just. slowed down sleigh bells. this is just a holiday family thing but yes, let us not forget her name is CAROL HOLIDAY. she's a walking talking trope but like. in a "meant to be taken seriously" way. if that makes sense. and like. the gimmickiness of this is so deeply homestuck-coded to anyone who's even briefly touched homestuck. and yea she? just carries a fucking weapon?? i guess she fuckin keeps it in her hammerspace somewhere or something. or....... a specibus of some strife variety, if i will.....? i will not. sorry. so sorry
anyway!! i present: my comprehensive AND incomprehensible homestuckian venn diagram of carol holiday's vibes that i made when not fully in control of my own faculties. i know this post is majorly ab the strilondes so ignore the other two if you so desire. but it's funnier to present this whole thing in its entirety and not even cover most of the insanity on it (if i were to make it now id prolly throw in the condesce in there or smth i don't know i don't knowww)
i call this. thing?: the nightmare. you can do so too
carol is weird and i don't think wagering that she's gonna get weirder is a big risk. look at her. look at her fckin. bibliography. lineage. whatever the hell. i think characterizing her into just a vaguely conservative suburban mom does her a disservice. she's sooooo much more than that. slash uh. question mark? and i know chapter 6 and 7 are supposed to be less silly but god i hope we see that a little bit more of that because god. she's. i don't even know what adjective to use! she's something else man. lemme see more of that toby if you can hear me
THANK YOU for going in depth on the Homestuck of it all! I had FORGOTTEN about the bronzed vacuum that is so crazy, literally a Momlonde!
And op bringing up the heart-shaped objects reminds me, oh boy can we TALK about the heart-shaped pillows?
Sorry, human-SOUL shaped pillows (because that is in fact my opinion)
There's a whole subtext going on here that is fascinating, because not only does this raise all sorts of questions about her ties to Kris and what's up with their SOUL, but she's not the only Holiday associated with these pillows
Look at these conveniently shaped heart pillows (and the fuckass Santa dolls, but we'll get to those soon)! The SOUL is the one on the very top, by the way. Isn't it just interesting how it perfectly blends in too?
Now, we still don't have basically any direct context for any of this (which makes me think there's totally going to be more said in the future), but what we do know, from Noelle's recollection is:
... that Carol has had them since Noelle and Kris were little, and that it featured in one of their "pranks". Or, whatever actually happened, Noelle at least believes that it was these pillows. Like the ones in Dess's closet perhaps, which had to have been around before Dess disappeared (because they're in the Room That Nobody Goes Into And Even The Bed Is Perfectly Unmade Like It Was The Day Dess Left) and which just happen to PERFECTLY match the SOUL
Now, I don't want to get into how or why Kris was pulling out their SOUL way back then—that's a whole other discussion that can wait for now—but the fact that they're in Dess's closet of all places, is fascinating isn't it? Along with those battery-operated Santa dolls. Why would a bunch of Carol's stuff be in Dess's room, if it's never been touched or organized pretty much since the day she left?
My best guess is, Dess had a similar passive-aggressive competition with her mom the same way Rose and Roxy had their "ironic gifts" rivalry. What do we know about what the heart pillows and Santa dolls have in common? Well, between Rudy mentioning Noelle is afraid of Santa Claus, and Noelle mentioning that Kris would try to "starve" the Santa dolls by gluing the battery cases shut—resulting in a much slower, more sinister ho-ho-ho from them—my guess is, Dess stole the things that Kris was using to scare Noelle with on a regular basis
So, the Starving Santas, and the human-SOUL shaped pillows, stashed away in Dess's closet to stop Kris from pranking Noelle with them. And rather than taking them back, Carol would just buy more. Like she did after Dess left, with pillows that are notably a different set from the ones Dess hoarded in her closet. All this physical evidence of disagreement between mother and daughter, that we can still see without a single word of dialogue or narration pointing it out. It's all inferred from what we know about everyone so far!
