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“𝘏𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘰𝘯 𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶 “
As the sound of rain numbs out all the other noises and you lay seated beside the window, watching the rain drops trickle down the glass and caressing a picture on your hand, a warm smile creeps on your face when you realize you have the warmth and light of sun even on a rainy day. Eye-ying the polaroid in your hand, you giggle as you feel your chest pounding loudly and thank god for being able to call the sunshine in human form yours. He was your beloved and the conversion of nothing but the purest form of love in human form.
you were missing him. Far more intensely than any other night because you could only think of one person when things seemingly went in the wrong direction. You were so worn out and so tired from the constant college pressure, the anxiety from upcoming exams hitting the roof and your own incapability and fear of future consuming you. At a moment like this..you could only think of one person who would give you one smile; a precious smile that can erase all your worries and one tight and warm hug that is enough to fit all the broken pieces of your heart back together. It would finally beat again in relief, as whole, for no one else but him like always.
He couldn’t be here today. Or so you thought. Because he had a packed schedule and shooting for the day and he barely had the time to respond to your messages. You couldn’t blame him though. He had a tough job to do and he was so passionate about it and you were always really supportive. But when everything went downhill for you, who else could you think of, the one who would drag you out of the mess? The truth is he had always cared for you so much and protected you like his treasure that you didn’t know how to stand up on your own two feet anymore. Felix was your knight in shining armour who always protected your feelings, felix was your best friend who comforted you and took care of you and felix was the love of your life who loved you in the times you couldn’t even look at yourself from self doubts and insecurity.
but..magically....he was here. At your doorstep. With the brightest smile on his face and arms flung to the sides, he was here in front of you exactly like you needed him to be. It was always like that with him- your heart never beat as two, it always beat as one. And strangely enough, not only could you feel what he felt and vice versa, you could also hear eachother’s unsaid emotions and unrevealed pain. The universe had connected you two with the red string of fate and you guys were soulmates. That’s right. Love can do a lot of miracles and for you, it did him.
“Y/n. I missed you darling.” He fumbled inside your ear as you felt his arms squeeze you inside him. His soft lips brushed with your earlobe, the wetness lingering on your skin and his scent burning itself inside your memory. He was warm and secure and he felt like home. He felt like safety. He smelt like the smell of flowers on a bright sunny day. Feeling a familiar overwhelming feeling of tenderness build up in your stomach, you close your eyes shut and hug him back even tighter. You give yourself in to his embrace and realize why exactly this moment makes you feel so whole all the time. Human beings were given one heart. So when you hug someone you feel complete cause that way you have a heart on both sides.
You let yourself crumble in his presence. You don’t realize when the frustration in your mind turns into tears and your voice turns into painful wails. He holds you back even tighter, resting his chin on top of your head and kissing your hair.
“What happened baby?” He tells after a long moment of silence and finally looks inside your eyes. Felix wipes your tears from your cheeks and carries you to the bed. Positioning you in between his legs so you face him, he cups your face delicately- the type of mild way you hold a delicate flower because you’re scared you will tarnish its beauty. This was one other thing you loved about him. The way he was so gentle to your soul.
you feel your heart automatically surrender to him. Feeling his breath against your skin and his soft hands wrapped around your cheeks you look directly into his eyes. Eyes filled with concern and love but never eyes filled with disgust or disbelief. Eyes filled with acceptance and appreciation in every situation. Eyes filled with awe and admiration that found you beautiful no matter what.
“I love you y/n. “ felix murmurs, pushing the strands away from your forehead and landing a sweet peck. He takes you back in his arms once again, patting your back and locking his legs around your tiny frame. People think intimacy is about sex. But intimacy is about truth. The moment where you realize you can tell someone your truth. When you can show yourself to them, when you can stand infront of them bare and their response is “you’re safe with me”- that’s intimacy.
And that was the way you always felt with him. You could show him your scars when you were bleeding and yet he would compare you to the beauty of a rose. Dangerous, bleeding, fragile but yet so exotic. You could fall down infront of him and lose all hope and he would compare you to an angel with broken wings, still an angel who’s heavenly and trying to fly. No matter what state you were in- his love for you was evergreen and it was as if he loved you more when you were crumbling than when you were standing. His love would grow even more tender when you were at your lowest and more fierce when you were at your best.
You sniff and rub your nose, staring at him again with hazy eyes but your man looked just as beautiful. Even at a moment like this- all you could feel was intense love for him. I guess it’s true. Our hearts hold certain people the way the space holds the earth.
“Yes my y/n?” His eyes instantly light up and he brings his face closer to yours.
“Why do..you love me? I’m not even worthy-“
He shushes you instantly by bringing his hot finger over your mouth. With a reassuring look as ever plastered inside his eyes, you see the edges of his lips curl into a soft smile as he confidently confesses.
“Simple. Cause in you I see a love I want to love for the rest of my life.”
Before you get to react, you feel his plush lips pressed to yours with his hands caressing the back of your neck and pulling you closer to him. He tastes sweet, he tastes addicting. His intoxicating taste makes you forget everything around and immerses you in the world with only you two. A world full of loving, kissing, touching, caressing and healing. A world where only you and him exist- dancing under the moonlight.
“You’re beautiful. You’re loved. You’re the most amazing girl I know my y/n.” Lixie breaks away from the kiss to confess to you.
“Thank you. I love you too. I’ll be okay.”
“As long as you are here with me.”
You finally giggle and you press your foreheads together- happy chuckles following afterwards. Felix intertwines your hands together and gives you another sweet kiss on your pink cheeks. Somehow, when he was with you you couldn’t help but selfishly wish that time would stop. You lean in and catch his lips in another passionate kiss letting his mouth remind you what exactly he was.
A heart made of sunshine with a mind so beautiful like the moon that can lead your soul to the most beautiful eclipses.