profound indifference

ENTP/8w7/poly/mentally ill/hopeless absurdist Psychology B.S. I like horror movies, conspiracy theories, my boyfriends, and my pets. Childfree. Occasionally political. Always bored.

[cassadnracain]

no offense but if you can easily watch a thin person eat an entire pizza and then compliment them for being so skinny but watching a fat person eat the same thing disgusts you, health isn’t really the problem huh?

[tan-tattooed-and-toning]

Actually it would seem more obvious, in this case, that it’s about the health of the two people instead of the food their eating wouldn’t it.  It’s just apparent that the thin person isn’t eating so much to a point that it’s negatively effecting their health.  What it actually means is that to be healthy you don’t actually have to cut out any type of food entirely if you don’t want to.

[soulful-tree]

[snazziest]

They call me coffee cuz I grind so fine

[thatpunnyguy-deactivated2016051]

They call me coffee I keep you up past 2 am

[xjustcallmethedoctorx]

They call me coffee because I’m really bitter and most people don’t like me without changing some aspect of what I am

[power-focus]

Yet more thoughts on being an 8w7

I’m going to be focusing by and large on enneagram at present since it is more pertinent to my personality than my MBTI type in many regards. Bear with me, as I’ve been drinking. 

ENTJ Paradigm made salient remarks on what it is like to be an 8w7. I was having a similar discussion earlier with a friend. Ah, moonlight sonata. This speaks to a realm of my soul. 

So I was discussing the matter of opening up to people, or rather, not. I don’t withhold information intentionally. In fact, it is only when I open up that I realize I have not been doing so. Opening up is delicious in that it happens so rarely, and I only open up to people I feel can understand where I’m coming from, but it is entirely indulgent. It feels like how I imagine doing heroin would. It feels so good but my insides and rationale are screaming to stop, what are you doing, this is harmful.

Suddenly, my insides are exposed. I have no real strategy for dealing with how people could use the information against me or to hurt me - frequently, the strategy is divulge nothing at all. Once I start divulging, it is as pure and honest of emotion and thought as you will get from anyone. 

The general solution is apathy. I am either apathetic, broken, or enraged. Not a very good trio to choose from, as I’ve found, and one of my primary goals is finding balance. It’s taken immense self reflection. 

8w7′s are incredibly broken, usually. Troubled, traumatic childhoods are the norm. Authority figures abused us in some manner, or abused their power, and we took matters into our own hands. We are taught, by experience, that when we are in control things work out better. 

I am not physically dominating as an 8w7, though I have been told I have a very powerful presence and I command attention. I can be incredibly controlling in bed, but that is usually a psychological game for me to get others to confront who they are. In a sense, that is me being psychologically controlling. Perhaps that is what I want done to me – someone or something to productively tear me from the inside out. Key word being productively. 

I control others’ perceptions of me unintentionally. It is easy to read what people will approve or disapprove of in me. I think I do whatever and say whatever I want, but the truth is, I know just how far I can go, intuitively. The most important perception is that I am not a person to be fucked with and I command - demand - respect. I am a very respectful person in many regards and expect the same treatment. 

My brain is at all times assessing other peoples’ motivations. I frequently gamble on these, when perhaps I shouldn’t. My strategy is to withhold certain aspects if I am uncertain of who they are or what they want. I usually hold people at arm’s length. 

For anyone infatuated with an 8w7, I wish you luck. The only people who can get truly close to me, in a manner that I consider “close” requires them to hear my deepest thoughts on experiences, and to share that emotion. It isn’t a simple sharing. It is wrought with tests. The farther you get, the more intense the testing gets. You can say, “oh, I know they test! Now I know what to watch out for.” I’m sorry, but you are mistaken. There is a large degree of reactive, emotional intuition that goes into our actions. It will very likely hurt you, a lot. In what manner, I cannot say, as all 8w7′s are different. 

Remember, you are getting to a part that is far more sensitive than probably any being you will ever meet. This is a core of pain, anger, frustration, betrayal - at least in my case. It is temperamental, moody, and uncertain. We recognize ourselves in this capacity, but it is hard to accept. 

[mbtiandgifs]

The “doesn’t have a good sleep cycle” squad

ISTP, ISFP, INTP, INFP, INFJ, ENTP, ENFP

[we-are-fi-ne]

Living with extroverts…

[kawaii-mbti]

Therapist: Relax, clear your mind. Your mind is empty, a blank slate. Breathe in, breathe out. Focus exclusively your breathing. Do not let your mind wander.

XNXPs:

[cojavimm-deactivated20190814]

The world is a comedy to those that think; a tragedy to those who feel.

Horace Walpole (via netifesi)

[mbtihell]

Thank you so much for the nice feedback on Fi vs Fe post. Here’s introverted thinking and extraverted thinking!

WHAT ARE COGNITIVE FUNCTIONS?

EXTRAVERTED FEELING VS INTROVERTED FEELING

[cenkrett]

Me:  *ruthlessly pragmatic, deliberate, and carefully strategic* Somehow also me:   *wildly irrational, delusional, impulsive*

[sickmessss]

Lmao @ everyone who complains abt people w/personality disorders: if you think it’s bad being around it imagine what its like having one

[brenali]

A toxic person is a toxic person, regardless of any mental illness or disorder they may have. No one should feel compelled to allow themselves to be hurt by a person who “can’t help it.”

[alwaysbpd]

what they say: you’re using your mental illness as an excuse 

what they mean: i care more about the thing you couldn’t do than your mental health 

what they say: try yoga/a healthy diet/just being happy/etc. 

what they mean: i dont know what mental illnesses are or how they affect people 

what they say: youre overreacting 

what they mean: my microscopic brain cannot comprehend that people feel, think and act differently, especially when they have mental illnesses making them act/feel/think a certain way 

what they say: you just want attention 

what they mean: i dont understand that humans need attention and affection to survive, that wanting attention is nothing bad, and that just bc i noticed doesnt mean you actually wanted me to notice

[hopelesssborderline]

people with low empathy disorders are not monsters pass it on

[bluecloudrider-deactivated20190]

What they say: I accept everyone with a mental illness

What they mean: I can sometimes tolerate people who have mental illnesses as long as they manage to never show any symptoms

[paleolifit]

As a Selfish Child Free Woman:

Reblog if you’re one of those selfish child free women who:

* Has chosen not to contribute to the overpopulation of the planet; one of the biggest threats to every species living on it, including our own

* Instead of devoting all her time to rearing a child, can now devote more time to helping others, contributing to the arts and to education

* Doesn’t feel like a last name or eye color is a good enough reason to bring another human life onto this planet

* Doesn’t feel that having a child for the sole purpose of having someone to care for them in old age is ethical

* Feels as though she would not be a good mother and choses to not force a child to grow up with a sub par mother

* Understands how expensive childbirth is, not to mention the rearing of a child and choses not to force herself into massive debt

Feel free to add your own

[thechildfreetalk]

“What a shame. You’d be a great mum.”

What on earth are you basing that on, kind stranger? Because from over here, I don’t know if my short supply of patience, tremendous reliance on copious alone time, general weariness regarding childlike things and lifelong aversion to mess and noise really make me a likely contender for Parent of the Year.

Why do people throw out these meaningless sentiments? Think of all the truly great mothers who work tirelessly towards the well-being and happiness of their children - how dreadful for them to be tossed in the same bag as me, who believes children are a sort of pestilent vomiting monkey.

Why is this often the only compliment that women receive? Nobody has ever told me I’d be a great firefighter, or a great doctor, or a great explorer.

Let’s say I was talking to a new acquaintance, and told her I wouldn’t really want to be a marine biologist. How weird would it be for her to insist, knowing almost nothing about me, that actually she thinks I would be a marvellous marine biologist? Especially if our previous conversation had involved how I like neither fish, nor boats, nor wearing a wet-suit, and nor do I ever want to learn to like them.

And yet people reassure me of my obvious suitability for motherhood on a regular basis.