Reorganizing my life, but not my blog. (Mostly.)

Introspective person trying to get out of my head and live a little more. I like discussing things in detail, but I don't always have the energy to do so, so my apologies if I suddenly drop a conversation. If I'm silly like that, please know that I appreciate your time anyways. Current fixation: Whatever the fuck is happening in the Jujutsu Kaisen manga.

[frost-felon]

I'm Not Really Back

So, after leaving last year, I logged back in to send asks to a person. I've been off my shits a bit due to medical issues, so I've been struggling to be in my right mind, but for the time being, I'll still be logged in. However, I left because of the combination of the bullshit Predstrogen endured, Tumblr scraping a metric fuckton of user data for Midjourney, and just...not liking the functions and some site culture stuff of Tumblr anymore. I have, however, been checking on certain individuals since I left. Honestly, not as many people as I care about, which I'm trying to work on now, while I'm still logged in.

I've recently reblogged two users' pleas for help. I'm not in a position to directly help nearly anyone right now, since I'm struggling just to not be a frequent-flyer to the ER during this winter. If you can donate to them, that's fantastic--if you can share their posts, that's wonderful.

I don't imagine I'll be posting much, if at all, since all of my grievances with Tumblr remain. So this is a weird sort of update, but I wanted to say it, anyways. Thanks.

[frost-felon]

For what it's worth, I'll still be available for contact (DMs, Asks, and if I reply on a post, available for that topic) and may reblog some fundraising and other posts. Probably not original posts outside of updates like this, though. Asks and DMs can be about anything, just to be clear, but don't expect my full-length analyses. Peace.

[zinaanqar16]

Unfortunately my sister will die. With a broken heart I tell you that her anemia has reached its most dangerous stage and her body is collapsing little by little.

[zinaanqar16]

She is starving and cannot afford food, and my dad is sick. If you are scrolling, please donate and share and don’t leave us alone.

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[ellevandersneed]

PLEASE help Zeina's sister. She is very sick and needs food desperately!!! Your donations will help extremely. This is a critical situation. Share and donate!

[zinaanqar16]

Please help us

[winged-void]

Please help Zeina's sister, and share this as much as you can

[zinaanqar16]

Please please don’t ignore us, we really need your support, share and donate now Please

[frost-felon]

I'm Not Really Back

So, after leaving last year, I logged back in to send asks to a person. I've been off my shits a bit due to medical issues, so I've been struggling to be in my right mind, but for the time being, I'll still be logged in. However, I left because of the combination of the bullshit Predstrogen endured, Tumblr scraping a metric fuckton of user data for Midjourney, and just...not liking the functions and some site culture stuff of Tumblr anymore. I have, however, been checking on certain individuals since I left. Honestly, not as many people as I care about, which I'm trying to work on now, while I'm still logged in.

I've recently reblogged two users' pleas for help. I'm not in a position to directly help nearly anyone right now, since I'm struggling just to not be a frequent-flyer to the ER during this winter. If you can donate to them, that's fantastic--if you can share their posts, that's wonderful.

I don't imagine I'll be posting much, if at all, since all of my grievances with Tumblr remain. So this is a weird sort of update, but I wanted to say it, anyways. Thanks.

[kamen-rider-swag]

im going thru hell right now + had to call off work today because my mom needed my presence & for short; dad has issues about his disability approval + it's need coverage from pocket for notary. none of us has money for all this again. seriously i don't know what to do while already struggling a lot.

if someone could please help them out - my moms pаураl is [email protected]

[kamen-rider-swag]

she needs around 40$ tomorrow. can someone please help? i am open for art commissions too,please ask.

I can doodle you something for as small as 2$ or 5$ im srs/ i need to help them

[strawberrylemonadeswagtourney]

PLEASE HELP A DISABLED LESBIAN WHO IS GETTING KICKED OUT INTO BELOW FREEZING TEMPERATURES

sorry if this is all over the place, my head is still pounding from yesterday but i tried my best to be coherent. this is the worst my situation has been in a long time. my father has a history of being violent and aggressive when he’s drunk, this time he went too far. i try not to get involved with anything involving my family, but last night i heard screaming from the kitchen and it sounded bad. my siblings and i all came to see what the commotion was just in time to see him swing a frying pan at my mother’s head. 

my youngest brother disappeared and me and my other brother tried to get in between our parents to stop it because my mother was already bleeding but he fought back against both of us, i don’t know what specifically happened to my brother but his face is all bruised and swollen and i got my head slammed against the wall multiple times. my phone ended up shattered on the ground broken beyond repair and i somehow got glass in my foot that i've since removed

idk if my younger brother called the cops or if the neighbors heard what was going on but they showed up, my father told them everything was fine even though several of us were bleeding and obviously not fine. my mother refused to say anything but my siblings and i spoke up and my father is now in jail. my mother told me that i shouldn’t have said anything, i’m a horrible influence, this is my fault as the oldest, i should’ve known better, and that i have until the new year to find somewhere else to live. i have three weeks to scrounge up enough change to try and survive in below freezing temperatures and i have no fucking clue what i’m going to do. 

i’ve reached out to a couple shelters to no avail and i don’t really have IRL friends who can help me. the only thing i can think of is my grandmother or extended family, but they all live 300 miles away and my parents sold my car without my permission so i can’t drive down there myself. i don’t know what to do. i’m so scared and i have nowhere to turn and i have less than a month to figure this out.

i’m going to reach out to my grandmother/family but if all else fails, the cheapest motel in my area is $45/night. i have $13 to my name at the moment. in the next few weeks, i need to secure a place to sleep at night, as well as transportation to get out and away from here, and at least a burner phone from the store, a flip phone will absolutely do and those are like $10-$30 i think. please PLEASE help me monetarily if you can, if not, you can also help just by boosting this post so more people see it. thank you for reading

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[galileosballs]

I'm not going to discuss the Somerton response video in detail, but I wanted to make one quick point. About his explanation that his failure to cite derives from memory issues. Let's take that explanation at face value for a moment.

Memory issues (either of the diagnosable or undiagnosable variety) are very common in academia. I have a pretty terrible memory myself, also exacerbated by a serious head injury. And even a moment's reflection will reveal that academia is also chock full of old people. A poor memory in academia is not a novel thing at all.

So, how do you cite responsibly if your memory isn't perfect?

You don't rely on your memory to cite.

Even if you have a pretty good memory all things considered, trying to cite from memory is a suckers' game and it will betray you someday. You'll get two dates mixed up and then your argument is nonsense. You'll forget where you heard something and assume you came up with it. You'll miss some crucial detail when trying to reconstruct a claim you read three weeks ago and accidentally say the opposite. Your memory is not a good tool for this purpose.

So use a better tool. Take notes as you're reading. Whenever you're looking at something pertinent to your next project, you'd better be a) writing down what the source is and where to find it and b) what the key point you've found in it is.

Thankfully, we live in the 21st century and this is now a very easy thing to do. There are programs that will do most of the tedious author-date work for you and automatically pop up a little spot to write down your key points (I use Zotero, but there are other citation managers of similar quality out there). Then, before it's time to write, you can sit down, look at a convenient list of everything you've read with the key points all ready for you, and be very sure that you're not making any mistakes or plagiarizing anyone. The other bonus of using a citation manager program is that when it's time to construct the biliography, you just press a button and it's all there. I can't recommend these programs enough to anyone who is doing academic work of any kind.

There's an ask that's been sitting in my inbox that prompts me to talk about the 'lay academia' of sites like tumblr and youtube. I've been thinking about it for a while, and I will eventually write a big long piece on it, but the short version is that I think that lay academia is great. I love that tumblr is basically a collection hub for the research interests of thousands of scholars, and that there are more people who want to be scholars than I could possibly have imagined. My good dead friend Aristotle once said that 'all men* by nature desire to know' and buddy, you bet they do. And I also see a lot of these lay academics rediscovering the citation techniques of the real academe, which is great.

But when you've got a lay academia that hasn't been trained in the methods that professionals use, that lay academia can produce misinformation and model bad scholarly habits. Somerton is showing us that right now. If what he's saying about his memory is true and exculpatory (which we are assuming right now) then he should never have been trying to write public essays by memory. That's undergrad behaviour. That's a mistake you make when you haven't learned better the hard way yet. It's a clear sign that he was never prepared to do scholarly work on a public stage. It's cool that these websites have democratized the academy, but the consequence is that you can get very big without being very good. Or even knowing how to be good.

So, if you're reading this and thinking 'oh, but my memory-' well, this is your sign. If you have a tool you know doesn't work that well don't keep trying to use it. Find a strategy that will let you do good work without relying on that tool. You can't learn anything from Somerton. So at least try to learn from his mistakes.

[frost-felon]

Losing my mind at FEH having both some really fun FBs and a hella good Book Chapter at the same time. I really need to finish those FBs, but man, that chapter...Sharena's friendship and care given spotlight without feeling shallow? Anna making her title more than a trait on paper? The antagonist sisters having brain cells? This is the kind of shit that I love from FEH. I have no problem with Alfonse not getting much here, either, since last chapter had good focus on him. And Veronica was neat, too! When was the last time the cast felt this well rounded-out?

[frost-felon]

Finally completed all of the FBs. My jaw dropped at Rosado's S. Definitely a good mix of fun stories and more serious ones.

[theoretically-questionable]

like. cards on the table: at first, i thought, hey, maybe the framing and recounting of the predstrogen situation is (understandably) biased because this seems really fucking weird, even for tumblr.

but, for real, it does just look like a series of repeated mass-reports drew staff attention to her and inevitably got her accounts flattened for entirely normal edge-case posting.

like, repeatedly, mass-reports happened, she'd appeal and get it reversed, and then it'd happen again, until finally it stuck. oh boy, did it stick! permanent lifetime ban.

the "death threats" that got her banned were cartoon-violence grumblings (responding to getting stung by bad-faith mass reporting) and the "harassment" seems to have just been pointing out specific user accounts that were needling her or outright harassing her. neither are against rules unless you're taking a bizarrely bad-faith reading of things.

and of course, all of this was her direct response to repeatedly being falsely reported and having to wade through the drawn-out, unresponsive appeals process while far worse content and accounts remained untouched, despite being reported.

also there was the whole "incredibly obvious and malicious rape/pedo-jacketing mass-anon disinfo campaign" run against her.

deeply uncomfortable that the CEO of tumblr took to posting about the mean anon threats he was getting about the situation, but didn't say a peep about the *genuinely malicious* threats and harassment predstrogen was getting. like. that's not worth a quick callout, lil buddy? you can't see why people are pissed?

anyhow. car hammers, or whatever.

[cyprederone]

It's Rita. We're done here for now

I'm sure everyone's heard by now that something's happened at least so I'll try keep it short [lie]. This post is a rough explanation and not a defense, if mutuals want to add evidence of what I claim then please do so, I will have a note to friends at the end, feel free to skip to that 🧡🤎

I got terminated on predstrogen due to mass false reports about sexually explicit content, I had evidence of these mass false reports, and when I asked support for help they stated "As you know, you posted sexually explicit content and additionally harrassed people"

My issue isn't with the account termination, it's the double standard around it

I've had multiple accounts. The first (madhopz) was terminated for content on sideblogs when I was doing sex work and I know I won't get it back. The second (sadhopz) was targetted by lolcow forums, and took half a year to get back, only once I humiliated myself to support by screenshotting and documenting what they were saying about me and sharing images of me. The third (predstrogen) I mentioned and I'll get back to, but I was never emailed to explain why the fourth (Avewy/Predesterone) was terminated. All we know is that it was right after the CEO got upset with me, I broke no rules and said no one should attack anyone, I posted no explicit content, none.

A man twice my age and worth $400,000,000 threatened to call the cops on a trans woman online, and then deleted me when I mentioned this

To add insult to injury, he refused to call me "she" the entire time, referring to me as "they" and backpedalling to vaguely refer to me as The Account. I'm a fucking person, and you know that by threatening to pin the cops on me. Eventually even slipping and calling me "it" before respecting the womanhood of the person he would gladly talk about and "make an exception for"

My complaint to his post was that he says I was banned for harrassment, which is a lie. I was banned for mass false reports of sexual content, despite having been told by staff directly a month prior that my blog does not break that rule, and have had people admit to collaborating on reports. But my biggest issue is that even if I was banned for harrassment, then what did they do about my own harrassment?

They did fuck all and told me my stalkers should not be removed from Tumblr

After banning me without a reason, I immediately got an email back about harrassment and stalking that I sent a support ticket about in December. They banned me twice before looking into this, and their conclusion was "we won't do a thing". These are people who have been on my ass all of last fucking year calling me a rapist and a pedophile, and they ignored it. Does that sound like a man who cares about harrassment on his site, or only when it happens to him?

After the ban on Predstrogen and I moved to Avewy, they were everywhere. Inbox messages claiming I was sending asks to children threatening to rape them, anonymous people stating they're our victim and are scared to speak out about what I did to them. It all only happened now. They've turned a blind eye and given these people a win. I saved it all in an #archive tag as proof if I was ever asked or got through to support, but that didn't happen when i was terminated without warning or reason

When Matt deleted me himself, he deleted everything I posted and saved as evidence for my situation. Anonymous asks slandering me, reblogs of people organising to get rid of me, my own documentation of what staff did, all of it was deleted with @avewy/@predesterone.

I don't want to be on this site anymore, I was happy all day today because I feel free without it. But I miss my accounts, because of all the memories with them. I don't want to use them, but I want @madhopz, @predstrogen, and @predesterone back so that all the times ive had with friends, lovers and strangers arent completely eradicated. Every single thing uploaded to Predstrogen is gone and marked mature now, even my face and identity, because this was a sexual content ban and not harrassment as they say. They found another reason after the fact

Give me my identity and my memories back

To all my friends and mutuals, thank you. Even people I've had falling-outs with have been nothing but kind and I want everyone to know I appreciate it. I saw every ask before deletion, I see how many people are on Discord. I can't keep up, but knowing you reached out at all means the world to me

I was happier today off this site than I have been in months. I'm not driving myself to breakdowns anymore by being on here, my mental and emotional state has been in ruins. Maybe I'll come back on this account, but for now I'm leaving it blank and still and moving on.

This post is incredibly meandering and too long, but I'm not trying to defend myself or document everything, I'm trying to make sure I say something to people I care for instead of disappearing, you deserve it. I'm doing well, please find me elsewhere.

My Twitter is mAD_h0PZ

My Cohost is Predstrogen

My BlueSky is predstrogen.bsky.social

My discord is Avewy, and my server is Public

My steam is mAD_hOPZ

Goodnight, thank you 🧡🤎

[frost-felon]

Losing my mind at FEH having both some really fun FBs and a hella good Book Chapter at the same time. I really need to finish those FBs, but man, that chapter...Sharena's friendship and care given spotlight without feeling shallow? Anna making her title more than a trait on paper? The antagonist sisters having brain cells? This is the kind of shit that I love from FEH. I have no problem with Alfonse not getting much here, either, since last chapter had good focus on him. And Veronica was neat, too! When was the last time the cast felt this well rounded-out?

[pinkhairswagtourney]

my friend harmony is a disabled trans lesbian who has been homeless for almost two months now , relying solely on the kindness of strangers to make ends meet . after all this time , she’s finally caught a break – her cousin has extended an invitation to live with her and has offered to help her get a job at her place of work . this is absolutely fantastic news and i’m so so excited for harmony to get back on her feet !! 

the only issue is that her cousin lives roughly 2000 miles across the country . harmony is ready to go whenever , she just needs a little more help: she’s disabled and cannot drive for super long periods of time , so she will need to stop and stay at a hotel a few times along the way ( ~$200 ) . she also needs gas to fill up her tank ( ~$250 ) and food to eat ( ~$50 ) .

all together , she only needs about $500 to make this trip . if you can spare anything at all , please send a few dollars her way ! i know we’re all struggling , so if you can’t afford to help monetarily , please boost this post !! harmony is so so close to finally being in a stable situation again . thank you for reading !!!

p-yp-l ( her only way of accepting money )

[pinkhairswagtourney]

harmony only needs $75 now !! please boost this post and spread the word so that she can start traveling as soon as possible !!!!

[everyluxoziatonce]

fire emblem mod that changes the player phase animation to say “FUCK AROUND” and the enemy phase one to say “FIND OUT”. is this anything

[thinkofmehoney]

Shibuya arc Itadori :c

[lordzuuko]

Gojo Satoru be like “I love dropping hints that I have a crush on someone” to a certain man named Nanami Kento. (¬‿¬ )

[cursedvibes]

Every passing chapter confirms to me that the main conflict is now only between Yuuji and Sukuna. That's where the emotional stakes are. Everyone else is just window dressing and there to pad time. So can we move Yuuta out of the way already and concentrate on what's important?

[frost-felon]

The other characters SHOULD matter. They SHOULD be thematically-resonant and provide amplification of stakes. But they keep dying in bullshit ways, and lining up one-by-one, like you gotta wait your turn to fight Sukuna, the raid boss.

It cheapens the fights, the characters, and distracts from the core conflict. The chapter quality rises whenever Sukuna is forced to acknowledge Yuji's existence, and whenever Yuji is shown interacting with Sukuna in any way.

[shionsky]

the fun is only getting started!!!✨

[nayasch]

For once I decided to not draw Sukuna but Yuuji!

I feel like it kinda gives zombie apocalypse vibes :D