daydreams in words

a funny little asexual autistic girl with a generated username she decided to keep for her blog on tumblr dot com

[emptymilk-bottle]

[just-ray]

Breaking my silence or whatever lmao

I have said it in the past and I will say it again, but the greatest honour of my life if I am ever elected to represent the state, will be to deliver a state apology for the way the CAHMS service has treated its patients.

I'd never just say something like this on the Internet normally tbh bc j like to keep this blog mostly silly, but when I was younger, I used to talk to myself about cahms, man, like I mean I would sit in my room and cry and pretend I was going back, and giving the people working there a peice of my mind. I must have been nine at the time. I didn't ever let go of the way they spoke to me, or how I felt so belittled in my most vulnerable moments. They didnt do much to me besides refusing to answer my questions, and straight up talking to me like a test subject, but over time I began to cry for others who had been though the service, more so than myself. Even now I think of the girl who's had to answer questions fit for a five year old during her autism assessment, the girl who had her medication dosage upped whenever she told them about her problems without them even bothering to actually work though them with her, until it began to make her feel sick, or the autistic 17 year old who was spoken to and treated like a five year old, and I realise I got away easy.

Yesterday I stood in a room in front of six government officials and asked the representative from the HSE about CAHMS. I didn't get the answer I was hoping for, of course, but it was the first time I'd ever spoken about an issue that is so close to me publicly.

I wish the 9 year old who spoke to himself and cried when he past the building, and who had a fear of therapy and refused to talk about it with anyone knew that one day it would be better. And the sadness would become anger, and the anger would become hope, and someone who cried when the name of the service was mentioned, would one day be the one standing and mentioning to the people with the power to change it and blah blah blah youth work makes a difference and blah blah one day you will stop being afraid of them for what they did to you or whatever and stuff.

Love u guys

[a-little-miffed]

it’s gonna be a callout when I am in the top 0.000001% of Alice by heart listeners

[a-little-miffed]

all the Alice by heart songs - ranked by me

(This was insanely difficult because I love them all and there are no bad songs)

1. The Key Is

2. Sick to death of Alice-ness

3. I’ve shrunk enough

4. Those long eyes

5. Down the Hole

6. Afternoon

7. Isn’t it a trial

8. Another room in your head (even I’m surprised this is so low. The middle section emotionally devastates me every time but I don’t enjoy listening to the verses as much)

9. Brillig Braelig

10. Chillin’ the regrets

11. West of words

12. Winter blooms

13. Still

14. Do you think we think you’re Alice?

15. Some things fall away

16. Your shell of grief

17. Manage your flamingo

Other abh fans - add your list!!! I wanna see your opinions 👀

[rimonoroni2]

tomboyism is so funny to me. gender non-conformity for girls is acceptable for like two minutes between the ages of 8 and 10. beyond that it’s appalling and you’re a freak but for those two years…… they could’ve had it all

[sacred-portal]

[etherealspacejelly]

bastard sounds great in an irish accent. if an irish person calls you a 'daft bastard' it just feels right

the welsh have the monopoly on things ending in hell. fuckin hell and bloody hell hit different in a welsh accent. its like music to my ears

the scots have piss and shite for sure. "its pishin it doon out there" "this is a load of shite" absolute poetry

if i may speak for the english i think we do penis related words very well. dickhead, knobhead, bellend, etc.

and for all the shit we give them, you gotta admit that no one can deliver a 'goddamn' quite like an american. theres a certain weight to it that you just cant achieve in other accents. when an american says goddamn you know shit just got real

[chryza]

Dear video essay creators. A video analysis is when you analyze a piece of media. No no look at me. A summary, no matter how thorough, is not an analysis. An analysis requires you to draw conclusions about the media such as authorial intent, real-world parallels, discussion about themes/worldbuilding/character motivation, and so much more. You have to stop summarizing something and saying that’s analysis. The Gaylors are doing more critical analysis than you. Is that who you want to lose to? The gaylors?

[aaaaaa-musical-trash]

alfred saying ‘the stars are so bright’ and moritz saying ‘the stars are gone’ ohhhhhhhhh

[starlet-girls]

it fucking kills me that eurydice died twice. once because orpheus wouldn’t look at her and once because he did

[24601orwhatever]

What could he do? Where could he turn, twice robbed of his wife? With what tears could he move the spirits, with what voice move their powers? Cold now, she floated in the Stygian boat. They say he wept for seven whole months 📷: @callmelasagna

[raindrops-on-concrete]

Eva Noblezada and Reeve Carney should start a band so I can never listen to anything else in my life ever again

[notinmyvocab]

Oh don't mind me I'm just going feral over how Alfred has TUBErculosis, his illness trapping him while the TUBE station traps Alice and while she can escape to wonderland, Alfred is stuck no matter where he goes and Alice thinks she and he are the same and can get out of the tube station together. But they can't.

[frozentiger]

Oh my God so it does have a purpose!!! I’ve been thinking about this lately- why tuberculosis? They’re literally in the Blitz where bombs are exploding everywhere and they chose an illness?? But this makes so much sense!!!! Ahh. Thanks for this lmao. Rant over :)

[powerbottombrucespringsteen]

The thing with amateur local theater is it is almost always bad BUT keeping it alive is the most important thing

[powerbottombrucespringsteen]

The joys of artistic expression cannot be limited to talented people everybody needs it to survive

[nirruti]

This is such a hilarious take we should give untalented people who make bad art money you know just because guys

[powerbottombrucespringsteen]

Exactly. Glad you understand 💗

[creek-nymph]

"there's a reason there are so many kids diagnosed with autism these days"

the reason is testing! the reason is understanding!! the reason is seeking help and believing trained medical professionals!!!

[lesamis]

are you a Byron or Wilde apologist?

concerned citizens from 1895 are messaging me

[hiddenhearthwitch]

As the year is ending soon... this is your friendly reminder that you didn’t waste your year. any moments of happiness or comfort, any small accomplishments, they all matter. this has been a really hard year, and simply surviving is something to be proud of. 🤎